Communication

How else can one relate to another except by communicating.  Wether that be face to face, over the phone, by email, letter or Xanga - it is the priority in life.

Hubby and I went to a Family Life Conference this weekend.  Even though I thought our communication was great, we learned more about each other this weekend - we laughed and cried together, we hugged and kissed and ..... these too are ways of communicating.  I learned that you have to ask questions, right or wrong it will get a response and there ya go - you're communicating.  It was such an awesome time and such a learning experience, and we got the tools for many more discussions.  Our communication will go on for a long time.

But, what about our communication with God?  We don't have phone, or email, or Xanga - although we would love to, we can't talk face to face.  The tools we have to communicate with God are - His word, His Spirit and His saints.  Why is it easier to sit back and wait for the word to come from Him, how would that affect our relationships on earth if we just sat back and waited for someone to contact us - we would be very lonely - is this why life doesn't seem full to its potential - our communication (mine anyway) with God isn't what is should or could be, and I know it isn't His fault.  I need to make the first move here.

My prayer for all of us:  Dear Lord Jesus, help us open the lines of communication with you, let us use the tools you have supplied - help us develop daily times of communication with you - through prayer, Your word and the friends you have given us.  Jesus thank You for Your love and Your plan, help us put our trust in You, knowing that You want us to have hope and to proper.  Thank You Lord for being so patient and faithful, in Your mighty name, Amen.

Hopelessness

They say that when you have Christ in you that all hopelessness is gone - this is true - it should be.  But what if it isn't or you feel it isn't - is that a mark against your faith in God? 

The fact is I trust God with all my heart, mind and soul.  I trust He has a plan for all of us, a plan for us to proper, not to harm us, a plan for HOPE and a future (Jeremiah 29:11 - the first verse I learned as a new born Christian) and I live on that verse.  Having said that, why do I let my "feelings" replace "fact"?  I know, that I know, that I know.......but......

These feelings run rampid sometimes where my kids, grandkids, health and finances are concerned (life in general).  And, I know it is out of my control because God is in charge - my biggest and maybe only power I have over these matters is to pray.  Then we come to, what if you aren't very good at praying, or don't make time for prayer - then the guilt sets in.  What if you take everything to literal and let every word eat away at you.  Is there a balance?  Is Christianity black and white or are there grey areas?  Is right and wrong black and white or are there grey areas?

An intern at the first church I went to told me Christianity was black and white and had no grey areas.  This covered all of life - but - was he walking the walk - where his driving was concerned he was right on the money - not a km over or under the speed limit - ever.  But, was his body not a temple unto the Lord - he was overweight - is that not a problem.  I am not judging him, just learning from all situations and trying to be the best I can be - I speed and am overweight - among other sinful attributes - where does that leave me in God's eyes.  He knows my heart but why can't I do what I know I should be doing.

What do we do when we keep doing wrong things and you feel you are spiralling downwards faster and faster - sometimes wishing you would hit a cement post to put you out of your hopelessness and you know that the answer is to fall down on your knees and cry unto our Father....but you can't.

I bet there is a powerful message waiting for me at church this morning!!!!

WHEN IS THE SPRING THAW - OUT???

I thought it was bad enough when Fred got a foot of snow where he is - thought he might have trouble getting home - he said no problem it is a different kind of snow than we get down here.  

Well have a look out your window - we have at least a foot and building.  Nothing is moving - and we need a miracle Lord.  He promised to be home by the end of the month - last night I asked if he realized this Thursday is the end of the month - Oh is it?  Yeppers!!! 

Dear God in heaven, put your warming arms around your earth and bring us sunshine and warmth so Fred can come home this week safe and sound, so the streets of Vancouver will clear and Dan can do his running around and finish his paper work, so life can get back on track.  Thank you Jesus for being with us always, lifting us up and putting Your peace in our hearts.  Let your will not mine be done.  Thank You for the attitude adjustment this week - it makes life more pleasant for everyone around me - why should I lay my burdens on them, they have their own and I should be lifting them up.

I have learned I need to accept where I am right now and be content and thankful.  This isn't the easiest thing to do but it does make life more bareable.  If we have no control over the situation, (and the only thing we do have control over is ourselves - and even that is uncertain at times) and we can't change the course of things then we either accept it and get on with it, or deny it and be misserable.  We are the give thanks in all things, the good, bad and ugly.

So my friend, here is my blog, enjoy - I hope you are feeling better.

Dear Lord Jesus - may Your blessing pour out on all who come to the site, may Your sun shine on them, Your peace enter into them and Your love surround them, thank You Lord, amen.

WHEN IS THE SPRING THAW-OUT???

WHAT IS A BLOG???

Hmmmm - I am having trouble sleeping and all I can think about is - what is a blog?

I know airplanes have a "log" they write their daily excursions in, ships also have their journal called a "log".  So why is our journal called a "blog".  Is it a b...log, like bitching log or what?

Anyway, isn't it wonderful that I spend my supposed to be sleeping moments thinking like this.  And why can't I sleep?  Hmmm....let me see....my husband of 5 weeks has been gone for 2 of them, and will be gone for 1 more of them, my wonderful 32 yr old son refuses to grow up and show any sign of responsibility for his actions, the wind is snorting through the fireplace and I am waiting for one of the tall, slender trees to fall on the house and I was thinking about blogs, so I just had to get up and put it all down in my blog.  So here I am.

Now that I am here, what should I write about?  My mind has gone blank!

I was just checking my mail and I get God's Daily Promises and it had a link to another site which was a health site and had videos on it - so I checked it out and was interested in the ADHD video because my grandson has ADHD.  He had been off his medication since July and is finding it very difficult in school right now.  So his parents and I are giving it one more week and probably put him back on.  At this link there were videos on the subject that really helped a lot and I will be showing them to his mom.  The site is called "healthology videos" and it covers every subject under the sun.

So that brings me back around to my 32 yr old son.  By looking at all the symptoms, it looks like he definitely is ADHD also and should be treated for it.  This may be the root of his problems and the sooner he accepts this and does something about it, the sooner he will straighten out.  He needs to think before he acts.

I got home from chior to be advised that he was being released from his weekend visit in our local lock up because his wife was signing a $1000 surity.  She might as well burn that, cause sure shooting she'll be paying it.  Then we go out and he phones the impound which has his car, gets all mad saying they are making his life miserable cause he can't get his care tonight - it's all their fault!  Give me a break!  Then his wife gets heck because she didn't bring a sweater for him to go home in - duh - who was the one that got arrested not wearing a sweater.  Who was the one that failed to appear in court causing a warrant to be put out on him...who was the one that failed to comply with his probation order 2 times causing a breech...who was the one that had an assault charge causing him to be put on probation...HELLLLLLLOOOOO...lets take responsibility for our actions sonny boy.  Oh he frustrates me so much!  I get so mad at myself because I have let him con me so many times - well with God's help - not anymore.  I need to stop enabling him.  Let him feel the consequences of his actions...I am good at telling his wife that, but when it comes to me...not good.

Then there is number one son, my first born - who is not much better...but does have somewhat of an excuse...he has brain damage from a skiing accident.

When he was 14, the boys went to visit their dad and go skiing.  They were supposed to come home on this one day, phoned to see if they could stay for one more day of skiing (it was during spring break) so I let them - decided to go to bingo on my last free night and got paged - my son had lost control skiing and flew backwards into a tree, he suffered two skull fractures and damaged the stem of his brain.  Life has been hell ever since...it went from bad to worse.  He was in a coma for six days and in the hospital for two months - they didn't know what to do with a healthy, 14yrs old brain damaged child.  They hadn't opened ledger house yet - a place for troubled youth - so they put him into EMI (eric martin institure...now eric martin pavilion) didn't like the institute part.  But they had a padded room which he needed sometimes.  He moved home after about a month in there and I was able to handle it for about a year.  He started getting more agressive towards his younger brother to the point where the younger one was backed into a corner with a knife in his hand trying to protect himself.  I had to make a very hard decision and put the older one into a special care foster home...for everyone's welfare.

Well it is now 5:30am and I am going to try and get a few winks...I will continue this later. 

Have a great God day!