effraye_pour_vivre's Xanga

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 13:39:00 GMT

new xanga

dont kill me

tears2day_smiles2morrow

myka, i can only try

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 23:27:33 GMT

why cant you see I need you... I wont hurt you...

***i`m scared because i dont want anyone to have your
heart n i dont want anyone to kiss your lips and im
scared because i dont want anyone to take my place***

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 16:53:20 GMT

im like crying... im wearing mykas sweatshirt since we switched sweatshirts before she moved... im wearing it tonite so at band all of a sudden im gonna start bawling

i miss u myka :(

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kt can die rite about now

"You cant feel my anger, you cant feel my pain, you cant feel my torment driving me insane"

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 15:56:59 GMT

dude hyper as shit

i put green highliter in my hair today

y do they pick popes who r so old n will just die?

kt is my lesbian lover n if u have a prob with that then grrr to u

<MIKA!

Monday, October 10, 2005

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 14:38:09 GMT

i miss myka i wish i could make her feel better... but she only has 15 minutes on the phone a day n thats for her n nick.... so much shit is happening.... im trying to b happy, but its just so hard... im not cutting nemore but i need to find a new way to get my feelings out... if i write poems like i used to it seems like im still depressed, but im really not thinking that i think of my past... at least i dont think i think like that

Je pleure moi-même dormir(i cry myself to sleep)

Larmes rouge (red tears)

Effraye pour vivre (afraid to live)

do you really no me? do i even no myself?

I know I'm not perfect.. But you make me want to be..

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 16:55:36 GMT

( ) crashed a friend's car
(x ) been in love
(x ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of parent's house
(x ) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
(x ) made out with a stranger
( )gone on a blind date
( x) lied to a friend
( )had a crush on a teacher
( ) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
(x ) had/have a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends
(will for spring band trip HELLZ YA ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x ) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace/xanga/chat room
( ) been moshing at a concert
(x ) been in an abusive relationship
(x ) taken painkillers
( x) love/like someone right now
(x ) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( x) made a snow angel
( x)had a tea party
(x tried ) flown a kite
( x) built a sand castle
( x) gone puddle jumping
( x) played dress up
( x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( x) gone sledding
( x) been lonely
( x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake ID
( x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x ) touched a snake
(x ) been tickled
( x) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
( x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer
(x ) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
(x ) had detention
( ) been in a car accident
(x ) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( x) had deja vu
(x ) danced in the moonlight
( x) hate or hated the way you look
( x) witnessed a crime
(hehe ) pole danced
(x ) questioned your heart
(x JON! ) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x ) squished barefoot through the mud
( x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
( x) swam in the ocean
( x) felt like dying
(x )cried yourself to sleep
( x) played cops and robbers
( x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
( x) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
( xbut im all done now ) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
( x) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( i wish) kissed in the rain
( x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x ) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
( x) gone rollerskating/blading
( x) had a wish come true
(my great-grandmothers pearl ring ) worn pearls
( i wish) jumped off a bridge
( x) told a complete stranger you loved them
( x) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
( x) had a dream that you married someone
( x) glued your hand to something
( tried) got your tongue stuck to a pole/something metal
( ) kissed a fish (only on a dare)
( x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( x) sat on a roof top
( x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x ) done a one-handed cartwheel
( x) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
( x) stayed up all night
( ) didnt take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x ) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(x ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x ) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x ) worn a really ugly outfit to school
( ) gone streaking
(x ) played ding-dong-ditch
(x ) played chicken fight
(x )been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( x) broken a bone
( x ALWAYS) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it~not raw
(i wish ) caught a butterfly
( x) laughed so hard you cried
(x ) cried so hard you laughed
( x) mooned/flashed someone...
( x) had someone moon/flash you
(x )cheated on a test
( x) forgotten someone's name
( ) slept naked
( x) French braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dippin'

i miss myka

after every entry im gonna put an icon n quote cuz im weird

And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 12:26:39 GMT

o no u didnt! dont go there girrrrrrrrrrrrlfriend *finger snaps*

Friday, October 07, 2005

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 14:53:43 GMT

brant "grounded" me yesterday...

you cant feel my anger

you cant feel my pain

you cant feel my torment driving me insane

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 21:52:57 GMT

me=idiot,confused,sad, happy, weird, tired, in pain, ready to take a shower...

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 17:29:21 GMT

i got my belly button peirced ok now im bored...

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skye= stupid

the broken mirror

such sharp fragments left

they take away my pain

by causing red tears