Yeah i feel really bad right now. I dont know what to do. Angel and I both like this guy josh, but see i really like him alot, and apparently he likes me too. But yesterday me and him made plans to skip school and stay at my house. And we did. and i told him that angel liked him and everything and he seemed kinda surprised and i asked him if he liked angel and he said no not in that way. then he asked me if i liked him and i said yes and he likes me too, but i feel guilty, i dont know how angel would react to me and josh going out, i mean she has a boyfriend of her own and all but i know shes not totally happy with him, and i talk to her about josh and, i dont know i dont want to loose a friend over a guy. but temptation is not easy to over come.

Today when we were at my house, we were in my room and were kinda bored so we put in Jaws and me and him ended up kissing in shit, but in that bak of my mind i just thought about angel. i really dont know what i should do.

Currently Playing Broken By Seether, Amy Lee see related

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Yeah Im really depressed. I dont know why but Chris wont talk to me, he doesnt answer my phone calls and he doesnt come to see me, he makes everything so difficult. And last night when i was talking to Ashton his brother mike got on the phone and told me that some guy named chris had been talking to him and asked him if he knew me, then told Mike that i was a druggie and that i was a whore and all kinds of shit and that Mike needed to stay away from me and not bother with me, And i asked mike if he knew anything about Chris and he said that his last name was johnson and he's 18 and he lived out in bushnell with his mom, and that is Chris, and i dont know what i did, i tried to be the best girlfriend i could, i tried everything, i did everything, and now he wont have anything to do with me. And i put up with so much shit, He would tell me he was coming over and then never show up, tell me he was going to call and he wouldnt and everytime i asked him why his excuse was that either he was working or he was tired or i dont know something. And i even lost a lot of friends because of him, jeremy stopped talking to me coz i wouldnt break up with him and my party buddies stopped comming around cuz i wouldnt leave my house, i would just wait around for chris to show up and i dont know i just put up with a lot. And now i just dont know what to do about it, I dont know how i should feel, i dont know what to think or anything,

if you can help me then please do!!

Yeah I am so excited

my boyfriends birthday is saturday and he's haveing thins not big party but big enough. He's going to have a keg and a couple bottles and some pot and shroom tea and everything, and the best part is his mom is going to let me stay the night, mainly cuz she doesnt want me going home all fucked up. But yeah its going to be really kickass

Anyways

I made color guard again this year but i think im going to have to give it up. i need to get an afterschool job, ohh yeah today yet again i got another phone call from a modeling agency. i sware im going to be rich befor im 18.

anywho thats all i have to say

ttyl

Kittie