| so today I went to Southlake with Taylor until about 5 this evening and now I'm stuck at home and can't go out with friends, but it was the funnest time with just Taylor. Being able to talk and just be ourselves in good company. We went out to Southlake, and of course when we were all the way across the town center from where the car was parked, it started pouring down rain. we tried running a little but we were so soaked that we gave up and just stood in the rain with our arms out and started laughing hysterically with our heads up and mouths open. it was an amazing moment, as well as hilarious for both of us. i haven't had a moment like that in a long time.
so yeah I'm so in love with my friends that I want to list them for the entire internet world to know who they are, and they're not in any sort of order:
-barbie
-kayla
-loray
-spencer
-eamon
-taylor
-sell
lol my world revolves around you guys, thanks for sticking with me through SO MUCH crap. I love you all sooooo so so so so so so so so much. Haha whenever you guys call, a huge smile appears on my face and I get all butterfly-ish because I heart you so much! Now this isn't to say I don't have any other friends, these are just my best. These are the true blue friends that you read about in books, they're the LOTR Samwises of real life and I'd be 6 feet under now without them, so to you seven, this entry is fully dedicated to you, so here are some personal messages.
BARBIE-wow the things we've seen and done haha. "Dr. Farley and Dr. Tamplin, dont touch me I'm sterile, we're losing him!"...and I even remember when Hill drew the rectangle penis on the board. lol I can't imagine experiencing any of that without you, that remains the best class of my entire lifetime and it probably always will be. I love you more than you know. you've never given up on me and i've never given up on you. we've been through boys together, awful test grades together, relationships, deaths at school, and even sicknesses as well as dealing with assholes. "i love you" doesn't say nearly as much as necessary. thanks for being yourself and inspiring me to be myself as well.
KAYLA-hahaha ooooh...kayla where do I begin? where would I be if you hadn't been in marching band with me our sophomore year? you've brought such a difference to band and my life and my entire outlook on life. you deal with everything so brilliantly and you're such an inspiration to me. it feels like I can't ever stop laughing when i'm around you, you never run out of hilarious things to do or say. you're one of the most brilliant writers I've ever met. I love you to death and I'm so glad we're friends because without your influence on my life, who knows where I'd be? the way you deal with things has always blown me away, giving me an example of how I want to be instead of running to my cutting blade everytime something awful happens. I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH!!! <333
LORAY- ha oh...jeebus. we've had our offs and ons as far as how close we were, but there's always been that underlying feeling of complete sisterhood with you. no matter where we leave things with each other, we can always come back a couple of months later and pick up right where we left off. I hope our next off isn't for a long time, if ever, because you've been such a great "sister" to me for all the time I've really known you. You're my muse and my musical inspiration. You're such a beautiful girl, all I have to do when I'm trying to write a song is look at your face and all the words I'll ever need to explain beauty, romance, or love comes straight to me. You have so much to offer, so much talent in writing as well as anything else from twirling a flag to doing my hair (haha). You've always had my back when I may not have had yours, and I love you for that. I love you for being the only one listening and I love you for being the only shoulder to cry on. I love you for writing with me and singing with me and talking with me, going through relationships with me and asshole boyfriends with me, as well as meeting My Chemical Romance with me and rocking out at All American Rejects with me. I love you to death, sister.
SPENCER N' EAMON- since I met you both pretty much at the same time, I'll write one big entry about you two. you guys have picked up my life and put it back together when I thought that was so impossible. I never stop laughing when I'm with you guys, from accidentally stealing shirts to walking to mcdonalds with eamon in his girls pants, having my ass slapped by silly spencer, or singing and writing (or sometimes not writing when we're supposed to be writing) with eamon. you guys are such friends by definition, you've never just left me or disrespected me. you're always there for me when I need someone to talk to or ramble to or even just when I need a big hug. you're two of the most beautiful people I've ever met (and I'm serious, Spencer's so hot he got a job offer at Hollister and everytime Eamon steps outside, girls are drooling over him). talking to either of you makes my day so much happier than if I wouldn't have talked to you. I can say or do anything around you without being judged and i love you both more than you'll ever know. thank you SO MUCH for being in my life and never walking out of it.
TAYLOR- oh my GOSH have we had a year together! looking back on being in the eighth grade, i never thought we'd come to be this close but i'm so incredibly excited that we have. lord knows i love you to death, we've been through SOOOOOOO much together. from losing you know who, to fights with you know who, to dumbass boys, as well as even losing each other for a few days. you've always been here for me and when you weren't, you apologized repetitively and no one i've ever known has ever been quite like you. you know what you're doing, you're decent, you've got a head on your shoulders, and you're so gorgeous, I'm always so jealous of you. through all the tears and the cuts I've put on myself, you've been here for me and you're one of the best friends I've ever had or ever will have. I love you sooo incredibly much, words can't describe.
SELL- you're practically the peace in my life. you're always so forgiving and so....so just...gracious and nice and gorgeous. you've never once disrespected me or looked down upon me. you're always so neutral with everyone, everyone's your friend because you love everyone. you crack me up so much, you're hilarious. you're just such a radiantly beautiful girl and you have so much to offer. you've proven to me that there's life past heartbreak, depression, rape, sadness, and cutting...you've proven that there is something worth living for, you've given me hope for myself and my future when i thought there was no hope left as well as nothing left for me or my life. you picked me up every time i fell and never left me. god i love you so much sell. haha I'm even sitting here crying, i love you so much.
thank you ALL for being my inspirations, muses, brothers, sisters, family, and best friends.
to all of you <3
Kristina |
