The Great 2007

2007, I would say, was a great year for me, with great rewards, great moments with friends, family, Roy and great changes to my life.

It started out with the promotion which I have worked so hard over the past years to achieve. So, mission completed and I could finally put an end to my life with L'oreal, which meant I could then embark on a new journey. I took up the linguistics masters programme and joined Cartier. I realized my wish to start a whole new life in 2007. I finally finally got over my 'parent' phobia and introduced Roy to my parents after 5 years. Towards the end of the year, I was lucky enough to participate in 3 weddings of my greatest friends.

First, it's Cissy--> one of my best friends at shu who recovered from cervical cancer last year, and thank God, she got pregnant this year, when her chance for conception was so small, and got married to her high school lover who proposed to her at her bed in the hospital when she had no hair, and her skinny like a matchstick. And thanks Cissy for having me still as one of your bridesmaids when I could only help at your wedding reception in the evening. Your wedding has been the most touching wedding that I have ever been to. Like the other guests who were there, I couldn't help crying when you shared with us your love and gratefulness towards Yin. Really excited now for the arrival of your baby. Oh yah, and I have to continue working on your son's 'name search project'. Then, it's Lydia, my very best friend. We could only have 1 bridesmaid meeting before her big day and I was not there!! I'm still feeling guilty for not being able to show up and helping so little. (I actually discussed the rundown with her over the phone in my office at 2a.m., 1 day before her wedding.) Thanks Lydia for having me as your maid of honour, despite my 'well-known clumsiness'. Just wanna let you know that I enjoyed so much the process, and having had the chance to 'escort' you here and there, I felt like I was in the best position to share most of the joy. THANKS!! Luv ya!! Lastly, it's Anissa, a friend whom I've known since P.2 from DGJS, who got married to Peter, her first love. Another admirable couple. Thanks for inviting me still to play for you at your church wedding when you know I haven't touched my flute for so many years. Just wanna let you know  I feel so honoured to be part of your wedding and thanks for giving me the opportunity to play a duet with Bessie again after...mm..10 years, I think. And it was so nice to see so many old friends from DGS at your banquet, not sure if anyone told you, or you might have already seen from the pics on facebook, but we exploited your backdrop at the hotel for 'class photos'!  HAHA..

Apart from the weddings, I also had some very nice buddy gatherings this X'mas: hot pot with mao, henry, kit, abbie, a relaxing & happy trip to Disney with bessie, psyche and emily on boxing day, countdown party with shu buddies: veron, angel, virginia etc.

AND!!! Towards the end of 07' I heard all these good news from friends who have been single for sometime...Congratulations for having found someone you truly love and who truly loves you!!  Plus! Engagement news from you & you... :)

Thank God for all the wonderful things that have happened to me in the year 07'. I shall work harder in 08' and hope it's another fruitful year to come. :)   

Life With Friends

I have always enjoyed my life, one so surrounded with genuine friends, while I was day-dreaming today, I imagined enjoying different moments in life with just the right friend who serves the role better than anyone else:

-working with b, winnie biala & doris: inspiring, supportive, harmonious  

-playing music with norma: enjoyable, fun, comfortable, although strictly speaking I've never played music with norma, I can imagine she's the best partner

-eating out with my sis: we've got the same taste on tastes

-shopping with abbie and mao: i can just walk in a store without worrying whether she likes it or not

-chilling with chan hoi kit, henry, florence and veron: very mo liu, and gau siu, and all my worries are gone instantly

-sharing problems with lauren: she's the only friend who yells at my face when she thinks I'm wrong and for 90% of the time, she's right

-sharing problems with cissy: she's the one other than Lauren who gives me the feeling that she 100% empathizes with my situation

-sharing my goals with roy: he's the one who supports me in whatever I do, even when it's something against his own values

-helping kafei and flora: this is the time when I feel I'm serving the role of a 'good friend', a good listener: they always appreciate my effort in helping them although not every time I'm successful

-eating with Lydia and her family at her place: never so sweet and warm

-fooling around with Katty: dun know how to describe it...really happy and worry-free lor

If it so happens that you see my message here, just wanna let you know I just feel so lucky to have all of you, my favorite buddies and I wish you can fill up all the moments in my life...thanks for being there! :)

P.S. this is not in order of your importance to me ar har...dun be mad ar har..

A lot to write...

I have been wanting to write for the past few weeks, but never been able to settle myself in front of the computer. Actually I was just thinking too much..really, I guess way too much. I have done 'something' these days..1) talked to my boss and HR about my wishes although to no avail, 2) finally made an appointment with a counsellor, hopefully to help fix my emotional problem before Mon's b-day, 3) had an interview. Dun know why I'm still feeling very very insecure and stressed. It's like there are problems everywhere to tackle and I miss school days a lot. I miss the time when there was almost NO STRESS. People were saying that I was trying to escape from the inevitable agony that you come across as you become an adult. I totally agree. I HAVE TO BE STRONG. . Nothing, not even a word of praise from my perfectionist-boss, not even a promotion or salary raise can convince me on my improvement in having more courage, only I myself can tell.  I have come to a point where I dun even trust my own feelings, what I see, what I hear. And I was scared. I have to win over that coward self inside of me, or I'll be a loser for the rest of my life. Thanks Lauren for yelling that phrase at me.

 I saw this poster saying 'If you want happiness that lasts for a lifetime, help someone.' I heard a calling from up above that I should fully utilize my potentials to help those who are less fortunate. I have to work on it.

Random Thoughts

Have been wanting to write for some time..A recent family issue changed my views towards my career or what I should take up as a means of making money. I am always for the notion of developing a career based on my true interests and abilities and money is always placed at a low priority. Actually I used to hate people who work only for prestige and money. But then, I was put in a situation where I have to eventually resort to solutions which will enable me to make more money. Pathetic. 

One lives a life not only for the sake of oneself but one is also responsible for the well-being of its family. Maybe I shouldn't say 'pathetic', I'm willing to take up the responsbility, really, as it's my duty as a daughter. For this reason, I applied to jobs with a higher pay, which does not mean they demand higher qualifications or more experience, but rather for the industry they are in, but I haven't received any good news so far. Maybe God knew what I was thinking and he decided to pull us through this hard time and give me what I deserve. Now the situation was improved and I can pursue my dreams again, but this time, taking into account the impact that each of my decision will have on my beloved ones.  The reason that I like about Will Smith in the Pursuit Of Happyness is that he does not try to become a stock broker just for the sake of living a better life himself, but rather for giving his son a better life. His happiness does not come from what he possesses but from his son's contentment.  

I love friends who share the same values with me but I realized that many of my old friends have changed in the past few years and are getting more and more money-minded--- in a selfish way.  :(  

A day of meaning

Today, I took a day off for the purpose of seizing different opportunities which would lead me to a more gratifying life (u know what i mean...he). In the afternoon, I went back to CUHK for a chat with Tom Fong. We had a one-hour talk and his thoughts are very inspiring I would say, and with someone whom I look up to, who share the same values and aspirations and the same sense of mission with, I felt so happy, excited and motivated. I began to tell myself to stop telling everyone around me my plans and dreams, which means I started to doubt whether I can eventually be able to realize them. It's the lack of self-confidence issue again. I regretted that I admitted this weakness of mine in front of Louise this morning. Well done is better than well said. Tonight, I promise myself to work hard towards my goal. I wish to live a colorful and meaningful life.