Last night I had the weirdest dream. Not becasue of what happened in it but becasue of how it happened.
I need to do some back story first.
john and I have always agreed that when God wanted us to have children we will. We both want to have children but we also believe that God has asked us to wait a bit longer. My belief has always been that if it is supposed to happen it will no matter what precautions we've taken. However my hope has always been  that God will reveal the moment to us so it won't be a surprise. I'd prefer it that way just so John would be happy about it rather than super freaked.
So with that in mind....
Last night I dreamed that I was at home sleeping. And John just called me on the phone and said, "we're ready we need to have kids." just like that. The weirdest thing was, I woke up shortly after and I was sleeping in my bed, jsut like in the dream but john was sound asleep next to me.
I have noticed I've been dreaming about having children a lot more lately. I'm not sure if this is my subconsious desire making itself known or A hint from God that the time is coming soon. Either way it would be nice to know! lol.
But I am content to wait till God lets us both know the time is right.

What is really funny about the idea is when we got married My family joked that out of all the churches we'd been in we'd never have thought we wouldn't have a building to get married in. Well I'm sort of scared that that might be the case when I get pregnat too.
I've always liked baby showers. Which I know is definetely not a male thing it's totally female. And it would make me really sad to be pregnant and not have a church home.
John and I have been looking for a new church for about a month now. And while I'm really enjoying the process of visiting other churches and meeting new people, telling our story and listening to theirs, my Spiritual heart longs for a place to call "home" where we can start making friends and become a part of the body again.
So As a result of all that I am really freaked by my strange dreams! lol.
Pray I get some sleep this week that is restful! I really could use it!

Did you ever feel like someone was intentionally pushing you away? Because I have a friend that I think is doing that. And No Lydia it's not you. (just in case you were wondering.) If you are thinking it's you it's probably not.
Anyways this friend some of you know and some of you know of. Either way I'm really sad and worried. I mean I try really hard to be someone that anyone can get along with. I think I"m extremely excepting and loving. Even when I don't want to be! For example in high school there was this one boy who pretty much sexually harassed me and I was nice to him anyway! I mean I didn't have much choice but to be around him but I could have been really mean and I wasn't.
Perhaps it's my own naive fault for trying to see the good in people all the time. But isn't that what a Christian is supposed to do?
Aren't we supposed to love? Not condone but love right? *sigh*
The question is what do I do now? I have stopped commenting but every time I read something written by this person I am noticing she's really really different. I've tried confronting her and she won't admit or even to speak to me about it. I have stopped saying anything. Perhaps she hates me. But I don't really know what to do anymore except worry and pray. I've never been pushed away like this before.
I think the worst thing is this person claims to be a Christian and acts the opposite almost all the time. Now I know this is not a novel concept. I realize that I've worked with people like that and I know that's the way things are a lot of the time. But I KNOW this person and know that the person I knew would not claim to be something she was not. And that's why her acting like anything but a Christian scares me. Every time she writes, there is language, innuendo, and words I wouldn't use even in passing jsut throw out like it's nothing. This bothers me to know end. I have also noticed none of her previous friends are replying and only her new "cool" friends are. This also bothers me. Because I know this person to be very sweet but gullible. and this is why I think she is acting this way.
Would you guys please jsut pray for my friend? I'm really worried and I will never give up on her. But I can't be on my own in this? I need my fellow brothers and sisters to stand with me. Thanks guys!

I received this adorable postcard in the mail saying my materials have been received at Interweave! Now it's a waiting game till February when they say yes or no. Please keep your fingers crossed and me in your prayers!