well, it's been a LONG time since i last blogged here. i haven't really been around a computer much of late so i'll do my best to catch everyone up on things. since February i've gotten a boyfriend named Eric. we've been together now for 7 months. so that's fun and that's all i'm going to say about that. I got fired from the wonderful Burger King in March, started working at ACS (Affiliated Computer Services) in May and quit there in June. since then i've come to Kansas once to stay for almost a month in July, and got to see my family over the 4th weekend, but no friends :( . we shot off well over $200 worth of fireworks. wewt! and then we went back to Ohio and started.....PACKING! and packing and packing and packing for our family's move to Kansas. man you never realise how much stuff one family can have till it all has to be put in boxes. so yeah got that all finished about 3 weeks ago. got a U-Haul about... 2 weeks ago and then the fun began. first day we got the truck, there were NO break lights. so we had to get them fixed which took a total of about 4 hours. so much for loading the truck that day. then the next 2 days it rained and poured. so much for loading the truck those days. so on the 4th day we finally got everything in the truck and planned to leave the next morning. (last saturday) so we're all up at 6, ready to leave by 8. we head out and wouldnt you know.. as soon as we got on the road that stupid truck breaks! we had gotten 15 minuted out of town and the alternator belt broke. so we sat at a rest stop till nearly 2 pm. so much for driving that day. so we made it here sunday afternoon after all the mess with the truck. finally able to unload the truck and relax, right? uhm no. the apt. that my mother had for the household stuff has cracked in the foundation and walls and is not suitable to live in. stupid drought. so we got a storage bin in Newton and got it all unloaded the next day. bah. so now we're on the hunt for places to live. Eric and I have pretty well decided to rent my Uncle's late Father's home but before we do that we've got to get everything out of the house and clean it! my brother and his girlfriend will be staying there as well until they get enough money saved to get out on their own. fun fun.

so here i am in Kansas sitting at my gramma's house helping to take care of her today, playing on the computer. i hope this move works out, but i've already got my doubts. for some reason it feels that as long as i live close, i'll always be under mom's wing. being asked to taxi here and there, and volunteered for things i can't exactly bow out of gracefully that i'd really rather not do. i came here to go to school and get a decent job and yes be close to the family, but not to jump whenever they ask me to. .. yeah that all sounds rather harsh and dont get me wrong, i dont mid helping my mother and the family, it's just that i want to be able to live my own life and make my own decisions. to be overly dramatic.. i want my freedom!!! :P oh well. i suppose we'll see how it all goes in the long run. much luv to all!

Ellen