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| My New Theory.  
Alright... My new theory. I'm always thinking...what makes me wanna not eat. What makes me want to harm my body, by starving myself? It's only when i'm unhappy. So, all you starving girls out there... I think you're all unhappy. Unhappy with someone or something. Not just because you are unsatisfied with your bodies..but, something deeper. I wish everyone would stop starving themselves, and just be healthy. I admit I went through the same thing, but I just want to be healthy now. You can still be thin and healthy. Who wants to die with a tube feeder down there throat? It think it's pathetic, not strong willed. I think that everyone should help themselves, and stop thinking about what everyone else thinks about you. It's not about them in the end, right? It's about god. Anyways, I'm going to eat healthy now. You know, if I want to have a little ice cream...what the hell, I'm going to have it. If I feel like working out a little extra that night...well good. I'm just being normal. I'm tired of feeling out-of-place with people and food. There is only one life, and why not make the best of it. Being healthy, and not starving myself. Please, I don't have any hates out there, I just wanted to say whats on my mind. So, please help yourselves. Anorexia starts as a lifestyle, and ends with a disease. Don't get too far. | | |
| Its Monday. I start school again. Boo! I liked having two weeks off. I really need to start eating seriously. I'm just not caring right now. I know as soon as I lose a little weight for halloween, it's just going to go right back to where I was before. Eating unhealthy. Grr. I'm frustrated with myself. I woke up and had oatmeal, which is good. Then, later I got into the Ice Cream cake! Gosh! I'm going to workout every single day this week for an hour or more! I'm upset about the stupid Tigers winning...That pitcher is retarded! Anyways, we will win tomorrow! It's here! Okay, well I'm gonna get going. Good Luck. P.S. I need some advice! | | |
| Woah, I'm excited!   
Yey! The Cardinals beat the Tigers last night in Game 1!!!! I ate really good up until last night. That always happens! Seriously, I have to look really good in 1 week! I have a halloween party to go to!!!! My costume isn't in yet, that I ordered from EbAY. So, I have to make sure it fits!! Dang. I have to work out everyday. I'm so going to have to be at least 130.5 . Then, I can treat myself to an alcoholic beverage. lol. I havne't drank in awhile. Anyways, I'm so excited to watch game 2, if it's not canecelled. I'm also excited that school starts back up this week. I have no excuses for being bored.
Ohhh the new CHRISTMAS victorias secret catolog came out. I'm VERY Excited~ 
 
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| Made some goals.    I just love the October weather here. Ohh...so, my team the ST. LOUIS CARDINALS won the series division!!!! We are playing the DETROIT TIGERS tonight in the World Series!! I hope we kick some ass! Anyways, I've decided to make some goals, and really dedicate myself to eating better. I've been eating high fattening things...I don't normally. Me and my BF's 1 yr anniversary is coming up soon. I made reservations to a VERY nice (exspensive I might add..lol. Last time we went it was $170 for the bill. I didnt pay of course..lol) restaurant. Then I made hotel reservations at the Embassy. I'm really excited, and It's around Christmas, so I want to drop some weight for it, and for Christmas time. So, my goal is to be 127 lbs by the 3rd week in December. I'm soo excited Halloween is next week! I have 2 costumes, but I'm not sure which one I should chose. I will take pictures , and post them protected so, you guys should choose for me!!
Well, I will tty guys later! Love yall | | |
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