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i sat tonight and chatted/listened to a friend and roommate...   we chatted about life, struggles,  patterns.   and the entire time i found myself aching to get to a keyboard to transpose some of these thoughts.  i have always felt that the world's most profound mysteries are solved or dissected in the hallways of dorms..or houses...late into the evening. 

i came to this..    when we are told to 'surrender our lives to Christ' the predominant image in my head is that of a circle with the word GOD filling the middle.  we are told that He is to touch every aspect of our lives...He should be the center to our lives...not the first on the agenda, but THE agenda.   but i think there is something very much missing in this picture.   because, previously,  when i thought of this model and how i was to live my Christ- centered life i never factored in the 'ugly' areas.  to be very vague i guess i could use the word 'sin'... i mean sure,  i could let Christ touch, even gently place a hand on my 'sin' like some cheesy drama you would see in youth group.  but i never imagined nor did i want for Him to snuggle up with my sin... 

but there i was tonight realizing how much 'sin' i had let Christ snuggle up with in the past months...   i had let Christ crawl into bed with my darkest parts...and rest there.   that is what surrendering is all about.  it is more of an exposure really...catching you unguarded, awkward, on the defense... and letting Him enter that realm. 

on a side note:   it is finally outdoor season again in AZ.  like the first few days of spring elsewhere in the United States when everyone emerges from their homes.  the hiking is better then ever.