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 Yes, it's been forever since I've visited the xanga world. What's that line my listtlest sister once proclaimed, in all of her four-year-old wisdom? ...  ....  .... Ah, yes - "Life is life!"  And that it is. Mine is busy of late. I've not completely given up on the anga world.... just mostly. It needs reviving.... Once again I"m juggling two jobs and various other things. Relationships, family, yada-yada. To answer an inquiry, yes, the warm rays of summer sunshine are pouring over my life once again. God's blessings are evident. Looking back, I see how decisions I made here and there drastically affected my life... and hindered my happiness and well-being.

My roomie (sister) and I have a lovely apartment, with hardwood floors and lots of sunshine. It's so much fun making it feel and look like a home. New bookshelves. An old trunk rescued from the Goodwill and turned into a coffee table.

It's been a lovely summer. Spending as much time as possible at my mom's by the pool. That's where you'll find me most Sunday afternoons. Visiting with the fam, doing laundry, hanging out, working on my tan... ;) My siblings have all ceased to be children and are now teenagers and young adults, rapidly changing and growing up and maturing. It's fun to watch, and scary all at the same time.

I'll leave you with a picture, or two, or maybe a few, that will update you on the happenings of my life.

Memorial Day. (Gel, Sis, PJ, Mama, Christy)

Juji, Me, Christy, Mama

My backseat crew.  (Christy, Gel, Juji, PJ)

And last, but certainly not least....   my sweetheart. (some of you may know him...)

Liz & Ryan, June 2008

Life is just plain confusing sometimes. Rough. How is it that my life circumstances seem to correspond with the actual seasons? I thought the edges of spring were surfacing and that all was going to bloom and sprout into beautiful new life. I made a choice, and the beginnings of it are quite belak. The path seems to lead to more cold and dreariness, and to go along, we got an actual snowstorm. Go figure...  Yes, I know that spring and summer will come again. My faith in the goodness and trustworthiness of God hasn't shaken. Just.... when?

You can listen to the song here.
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I remember all the times, the good times and the bad-
I'm still holding on to You.
Some days I wanna run and times I come undone,
But I still belong to You.

Thats how I know that...
When I feel like caving in,
My heart, my soul is wearing thin-
I just want to give up, nothing seems at all to add up...

Can you hear me Lord?
My face is down upon the floor.
 
Its then You whisper in my ear:
"Be still and know I'm here."

...It's hard to feel alone, and this world's so unforgiving...

Is that You? Is this me?
It's sometimes hard to believe that I am not alone.
It's not just you, and not just me,
We all need to believe that we are not alone.

We are not alone.

Its then You whisper in my ear:
"Be still and know I'm here."
-Be Still, Storyside:B
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Yes, it's kinda lame to post song lyrics. However, sometimes song lyrics just happen to say it the best.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c07yjxe1evY

I LOVE this song!!

Currently Listening Between the Dreaming and the Coming True By Bebo Norman see related

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It's oddly funny how life seems to go in circles.

Here I am again, almost where I was a year ago. Another new apartment. Winter feeling like it will never end. Figuring out to do work-wise. Trying to find a niche. Frustrated by my own impatience at how slow life moves ahead. I know where I want to be, but it's not as if I can snap my fingers and have my dream life magically appear. Often I find myself wishing that I had a set of fairy godparents who could grant my wishes... Like Timmy, on the Nickolodeon cartoon. Life doesn't really work that way, and while he may be able to learn lessons of right and wrong and better judgement through fairies, I don't think that would really work out in real life. But while so many things are the same, a whole new set of circumstances and situations surrounds me. Relationship. Family. Friendships. Someone close to me often tells me that I overanalyze things... most things. This is very true. I have taken pride in the fact that I am quite laid back about life, but when it comes down to things that are important to me, my struggle to remain calm and chill are tremendous.

I feel like I'm in a rut. There are decisions to be made that I don't want to face. Isn't that always the case in life? And not only do I not want to face them, I don't really know what to do. Every day I pray for wisdom. I've asked people wiser than me, people who can be objective, for advice. And you know what? The opinions conflict, from one end of the spectrum to the other. I should be able to take all that info and make a balanced decision. It's hard though, and I am wrestling. Deep in my heart, I know that God is faithful, that He loves me, and that, in the end it will all be ok. I know that He is with me each step of the way, too, holding my hand and wrapping His arms around me. Sometimes it's hard to keep a cheery face in the middle of things, even with knowing that.  

This is rather a downcast post, but that's where I'm at right now. It's not all gray skies and rainclouds though. Every day there are things that make me smile. Crazy happenings at work. Valentine cookies. Unconditional acceptance from friends. Feeling great accomplishment at hooking up our new internet and wireless router. Chocolate. Three sunshiney days in a row.