One of the best friends I have ever had, died a few years ago around this time.  It always hits me a little different each year that goes by.  I actually just found a letter that she had written before she moved back to florida, today.  She always told me that no matter what happened in my life, she would always be here for me.  So much has happened and at first I was very angry at her for leaving, but I know she knew what she was doing.  I just wish she was still here.  Man, it hurts.  In the letter she wrote she didn't say goodbye to me.  I think she knew that we were ok.  Some days are just harder than others, because everything is connected.  She really helped me find myself, in all the chaos in her mind and life, she helped me find who I was/am.  God Rest her soul. To B.

Wow where did the year go!  I just had the best spring break...and I was not ready to go home.  I got to go to Mexico and San Antonio, TX.  It was so much fun.  It's really nice to be loved.  Only 3 more weeks of school left and summer school starts!  I will (knock on wood) graduate SUMMER OF 2008!!  Jesus LOVES ME!!  He lets me screw everything up and when I'm ready to give...he puts me back where I am supposed to be.  God is Good.

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Why do you get up in the morning?  In the past I really had a reason to get up.  Now a days it's just to go to work and pay my bills. Wow!  That is really crappy.  I am going to start waking up with a purpose again...to make a difference in this world.  I heard a wonderful man speak last Sunday and it moved me so much.  He was talking about how we all pray for wisdom and a path to go on when times are hard...but what do we do WHEN He tells us?  Along with wisdom I need to pray for courage.  Because without courage I can't do what He told me.  No one ever said this was going to get easier.  Life is tough I have to have the Lord walking beside me to make it through this life.

Well my birthday was good.  My best bud gave me a surprise b-day party...really when everyone shouted Surprise I said "surprise who?"  Ha it was me and I was surprised.  Ronnie sent me beautiful roses to work they were 12 yellow long stem roses.  I have never gotten anything so beautiful.  God and I are doing really good.  He is so amazing and it all is truly all his timing.  I cannot wait till I can goto Heaven and see the face of the Lord that truly loves me unconditionally.  I just want people to see him in my life and I want to help people see him. 

Everyday gets a little bit easier, but some days are pretty hard.  Through it all I know I wil be a better person and God is ruling my life now and forever no man will stand between my Lord and me.

Currently Listening Firecracker By Lisa Loeb see related

God is soo good!  How great is the Lord to let us stray and be waiting for us to come back.  How great is the Lord who doesn't hold a grudge, who opens his arms to the broken hearted...when ha, we did it ourself he looked at us and whispered maybe even yelled I wouldn't do that!  And we do and He is the only one there to pick up the pieces.  How great is MY LORD.  It is so funny I start to freak out about life, give it to Him and he fixes it and I am so surprised!  How silly am I to be surprised that is his job to fix all that I screw up!! LOL  And oh boy am I really good at messing everything up I touch look at and think about looking at!  Thank God He watches over me. 

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