Well.. whats a guy to say? Summer in FL is almost over. In about 24 days I will be heading back. So to all my fans I will be home soon!!! LOL jk jk jk... anywho... I just need to say that I love Jillian Elizabeth Donley (cooper) so much!!!! She is my princess but soon she will be my queeen...

Please PRAY for me. I have had an oppertunity come knocking at my door... I have a potential youth ministry position,.... SOUND GREAT looks GOOD... but....

Pray for wisdom and discernment...

love you all

cooper

She makes me very happy.. this morning she made me one of her many fantastic dishes for brekfast... a bowel of ceral.. :) I loved it! She makes me very happy... Her smile her hair (which is getting longer and I am loving it) Her determentation, her passion for ministry and how she is always praying for us as a team. I love her and she makes me very happy. I love how she makes me feel so loved and how she has completly changed my doubts and fears in the area of no woman ever loving me. Because she does. Now I am not calvanistic but I really feel that God has had His hands in this the whole time (inspite of our failures as humans) God has still taken the time to ordain something so beautiful something so real and something that I know will last a life time.

I love her so much.

Cooper

all is well...

cooper

well... whats a boy to say???  I am pretty tierd right now. I was up late not able to sleep and up early with the same problem. I had to call the Dr today concerning my tuomor and head ache problem... its always such a long process. Get this guys referal, go visit this doctor, come back for a test, come back for your results... 4-8 weeks and $10,000 later they finally tell you whats going on!!!! So please Pray for me. Pray that things are going to be alright. Thanks so much. love you all.

cooper

Today I finally got to go to church with Jill and her family. It was really nice to get to spend time with them. I have been working on Sundays lately (not by choice I just started my job) anyway.. it was really nice to get to spend time with them in that church family setting..

I have to say I need to say... that I was always scared that the girl I would marry would have to make her family like or appreciate me. In a lot of ways I see what I am not and I see what Jill is and to be completely honest I don’t really ever feel like I am good enough for her. I am so from sanctification. Ironically Jill’s preacher spoke on us not being perfect today and How all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. I am so far from the Glory of God. But if \I could take my heart and lay in before those around me they would see the passion the desire the intention to be such a good man of God.

have you ever been punched in the stomach so hard that you couldn’t breath?/?? That it hurt so bad that you felt like you were going to die from a lack of oxygen??? I know that’s a funny question but that’s the way I feel when I am away from this woman. Jill that is. I love her so much. (She is looking at me right now and has no idea that I am writing about her.) Honestly... when I am not with her its that same feeling... I hurt. I love this woman. I really never understood Gods love for me. How He could love me no matter what. How He would always be willing to forgive me and always take me into His arms. Jill and I are so far from perfect and because of that sometimes there can be frustrations or annoyances. But in the midst of this I can honestly say that no matter what ever happens that I found the woman that I want to love for the rest of my life, That no matter what happens that I will always be there for her, and no matter what NO MATTER WHAT.... I WILL ALWAYS love her.

My love for Jill in a very shallow way is the closest thing I have ever experienced in a human relationship that is like Gods love for me. As humans we tend to get frustrated with one another and sometimes be driven to the point of not really wanting to continue a relationship with certain individuals in our lives (I don’t speak personally but humantistically) we do that as humans... we shouldn’t but even the church does it. But loving Jill!!! O MY STINKING GOODNESS..... my quote for her it always has been and always will be and is from my heart "nothing you do will make me love you less, and every think that you do makes me love you more" I love this woman so much. Next to God she is the most amazing blessing in my life. I am so excited about a future with her. Ministry with her, Children with her, and growing old with her. There is no other woman that does what she does, nor will there ever be.