| Alive - I am indeed I've not written a xanga for-ever. Tonight the five of us: Father, Mother, Brother, Sister-in-law, and I cram into the family vehic and head up to the Franklin Graham Festival. Pretty cool. I'm reading a book by TedDekker right now (the lack of space between d and d was intentional ...for ...no apparent reason) called "Blessed Child" and this little boy who has a ton of faith in God is able to heal the public's ailments. But, because of this - his guardian exploits him, setting him up in an old theatre to perform his gift for many. A many who have paid a hefty sum to the guardian to see the show. Anywhoo - it reminds me of this festival. But - this festival is free. And Franklin Graham isn't being exploited. And i'm not counting on the mass healing of the parapalegic population (that was an excellent use of "p" if i do say so myself), though I believe it's possible (another p), i'm not expecting it. So, therefore, there aren't that many similarities after all. Oh...nevermind :) Ted Dekker's a pretty good author. His trilogy Black, Red, and White is inspiring. Aaand Frank Peretti is great as well. So, the cut this random rambling short, ...I...will cut this random rambling short. Sorry for the lack of insight and the profound for this one. I know everyone asks everyone for prayer requests all the time - to the point where it becomes as common as the ever-popular: Hey, How are ya? Good how are you? Good. (hoi) and half the time when people flippantly say: yeah so please pray for that...do they expect you to pray? Maybe this is a complaint not deserving of much attention...and it's not really a complaint, but...prayer is potent...it's powerful and it's personal (wow, when you become an SLD i guess....nevermind). I think i'm rambling. But, the bottom line is - sincerity, handling our faith with sincerity. Does this make any sense? Should I just tap my backspace button a bunch of times? Nah i guess i'll leave it. ANYWAY - my faith has been doing backflips and somersaults lately. I don't know what's going on. I've been thinking through a lot of things...and, i have a lot of questions. They are not doubts. They are questions. Things that don't make sense to me that I want to understand. I don't think as Christians we have to shut off any question in our mind because we think our questions are blasphemous. Is Christ not able to shine through our questions? To stand up to any barrage our mind may throw His way? It's because he IS the truth. Our questions don't change the fact that Jesus Christ is the way, the truth, and the light. So...shouldn't we ask? ...uhm, anyway...please pray that these questions and these rocky times will end me up firmer on the one true rock, Jesus Christ...so that I may come back to the good ship 19 and be the best Jesus will me to be ( hmm). So many times myself and other Christians - our lives look like this fearful shifting...a panic, instead of a victory march. Mine seems pathetic sometimes. And i dont want to be pathetic. I will end it here. I said that a long time ago. I hope my verbosity (is that a word?) makes up for my lack-a-posting :) I love you all, and I point you in one direction only for all sense-making processes; Jesus Christ... |
