i'm a believer in God giving chances. God gives opportunities. He gives us little hints that show us the right path to go. It's just up to us whether we choose to walk that path or not. Take the hint. Receive the opportunity. Take the chance.

So why does it seem like every chance I get I seem to screw it up? Why is it that hurting someone is sometimes the best path? Why is it that the right path is never the easy path? All of these questions seem to bring me down. Make it seem like life.. it's just not worth putting up with it. If I have to go through life with agony and regret, that's not how God wants me to live my life.

Then there's those moments that truely oushine the bad ones. When I come home and am welcomed with a hug and kiss as I walk through the door, I'm grateful for my mom. When I forgot my fork to eat and someone jumps up to run and get one for me, I'm grateful for my brother. When I cry until I can't anymore and someone hugs and comforts the tears away, I'm grateful for my dad. When I go through a tough time and just need a listening ear, I'm grateful for my sister. Anytime I hit rock bottom and someone stands by my side until I reach the top again, I'm grateful for my friends.

These wonderful moments after a long, horrible day keep me going. They make each day worth waking up to. They make each breath worth taking. And every moment worth living. I love you all.

havent posted anything in a while so i thought id share something thats been on my mind lately..

plus i thought it was good because it kind of goes along with september 11.
May God bless the many families who have lost loved ones this day in history.
Because God is definately with those who were lost.

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ok i went to a memorial service a while back. this service was for a girl who died 5 years ago. so many people came, sang songs, played music, and said many kind words.

afterwards i was thinking wow.. this girl made quite an impression on everyone.
it makes you want to live everyday of your life to the fullest.
it makes me want to always be sure people think well of me.
not in a way where i have to change for them, because you obviously cant please everyone.
but i mean..
after that service, i was thinking on the way home, "If i died right now, who would remember me?"
not in a suicidal way.. haha xD dont get the wrong idea.
i mean.. who have i really touched?
if i died.. in five years, would people still remember many good things about me like this girl?
who would come to my 5 years memorial service?

i want to give off a good impression for everyone.
not a false one.
but to truely be a good person.
to make others around me happy..

it makes me think.
want to be a better person.
continue waking up everyday with a smile.
and live everyday like it were my last.
making sure everyone i love is happy...
live everyday for them.
live everyday for God.

    so today my family went with another family in south carolina to Lake Murray. (sp?) haha

we went for a bbq and to go fishing

we go all the way to get a fishing license.. and rev. hwang forgot his fishing rod (_ _) then when we get to the site, we forgot to bring like utensils for cooking.. we ended up using two sticks on the ground as chopsticks for cooking. =P

anywyas i took lots of pictures of the hwang family and my family. enjoy!

sister and the car ride there

baby sonoe<3

poor papa. we didnt catch anything.

me, sonoe, mari: sister

tonchan (^-^)

mmm that food was delicious too!

mama and rev. hwang

me and my mama!

papa!

sisters is crazy

i dunno

mari took this one.. ehh.. =/

well i all in all had a good time. and im glad i got to spend time with my family along with rev. hwang's family. it truely was a great experience. hope everyone else had a good 4th of july as well!!