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Name: Emma
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Harrisburg
Birthday: 3/30/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: ..4, band, best buy, blue, blue eyes, boys who play guitar, bracelets, brethren, brownies, camp, cars, cats, charming boys, charms, cheese, chocolate, choir, church, circuit city, clothes, clouds, colorado, computers, concerts, cookies, corvettes, cups, dad, dancing, daydreaming, digital cameras, dings, dixie cups, dogs, driving, duct tape, dvd's, food, ford mustangs, gardeners, god, good smelling candles, holding hands, hoodies, hugs, ice cream, jeans, john deere, johnny depp, llamas, loud music, mac and cheese, me, mexico, mmhmm, mom, moons, mooses, movies, mp3s, music, musicals, neon pink duct tape, neon yellow, new york city, penguins, photography, pianos, pictures, pillows, pirates, pizza, prom, purses, queen, rain, randomness, reading, red cream soda, rings, sarcasm, shirts, singing really loud, sisters, skittles, sleep, sleeping, slushies, smoothies, socks, stars, sweetness, sweets, tacos, things that smell good, trees, trumpet, tv, wal*mart, water balloons, you, youth ministry
Expertise: uh.. college... homework... since i work in the business office... folding papers..
Occupation: Student
Industry: Business
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AIM:  dingster4
Yahoo:  emmading330
Member Since:
12/10/2002
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| breaking up is hard to do..Whew.. its been.. quite a ride since i wrote...LOTS of happenings...I don't know who reads this anymore..if anyone does.. but..
Sooo Russ and I broke up...he wanted his freedom..he had freedom.he
didn't mention anything to me about it...galkhdsa;dfklh... pissed me
off to no end....eh.. May..7thish i suppose... past weeks, i was in a
hard deep depression, but i think i am out of it.. or just making
myself.. its really hard to go back to life like nothing happened..when
there was so much lost...and he acts like nothing happened for 9
months.. I am still bitter and will be for awhile.... Being friends
with nat and Joe... its rough cuz we alll hung out and our friendship
started when Russ and I were dating.. and now.. its totally
different..and I am getting the fall out it seems... cuz I don't feel
comfortable at Russ's cuz of practically living there for 9 months....
Everything has changed in my life.. not sure if i want it to or
not..Oh!..
I don't work for the school anymore..they "laid" me off... they didn't
need me... soo over spring break.. i didn't have a job and there wasn't
any prospective ones out there... but the week after spring break,
started working with Nat and Joe...and Russ at the senators.Joe and
Russ work different places than Nat and I do.. Nat and I run Funnel
Cakes.. soo i smell like Funnel cake when the nights are over...soo
work is odd now that Russ and I aren't together..
Then... I am moving off campus!!! with my friend Kallie! She's really
cool, and we can start moving this weekend i think...I am almost all
packed up, but no internet or cable, and no bed till the second weekend
in June..soo i'll still be on campus till then..and that sucks with
Russ being around cuz i have to see his car when i walk to my
house...or even my car..damn...
Leah is coming home June 6th.. the 7th we are looking at bridemaids
dresses for my other sister's wedding.. which i am happy to be
in!!...Then every weekend in June I am going to be running around
trying to spend time with leah before she goes back!.
Now my days are filled with Me being in my room most of the day.. and i
try to keep busy cuz other wise my mind does stupid things....
packing.. maybe some homework..I don't like it that I am this way.. but
i am trying to fix it...
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| its been one CRAZY time...
Lets see.. i dont really want to go back to where i left off..cuz its been a while...
Lets start with this weekend...
It was Closer Look Weekend here at my college, meaning high school kids
come and stay with you over night. I had to be back to get my person at
5pm. Nat, Amanda and I all go to David's Bridal to look at Bridemaids
dresses for Nat's wedding around 3:30. At 4:30, we remind Nat that I
have to be back at 5... well, then 4:51 we were finally thinking about
leaving.... The college being at least 15 mins away.. run to the car, I
did some wicked driving..Got bat at 5:15.. ran down to ATEC to get my
kid. I talk to the person in charge, she tells me that she gave away my
person cuz I wasn't there, but i will still recieve my 10 hours of
community service...Soo..storming and bawling my way back to my
house... I stop at her house, saying: "I was 15 mins late, and she gave
away my person." Left...then she comes chasing me down.. apolygizing
her ass off.. i was like whatever cuz nothing could be done now.. I was
upset cuz i didn't help last year with it, and next year, i won't be
living on campus... I recovered and went to Russ's house to meet up
with him and then walk down for supper and everything esle for the
evening.. We sit down with a mom dad and a kid.. I recognize them from
a campus tour i did a couple months ago. Talked a bit at supper then he
hung around me and Russ all night, played Apples to Apples, and Trival
Pursuit cuz we aren't much dancers.... After about 10 we walked back to
Russ's townhouse, i was irritated cuz Russ didn't know where his kids
were...but he found one.. then the other they lost...earily lost
completely for an hour and a half..but anyway.. we watched Crank..
which was completely a GUY movie.. in Russ's words.."Including Amy
Smart's tiddies, while she's getting fucked in
Chinatown..."..men..arg..I leave around 1 cuz i can't stay..Meanwhile I
later found out that him and Shane stay up till 3 talking...the campus
tour kid...and breakfast is at 9...soo after breakfast, we chat a bit
with Amanda.. about weddings..which pissed me off...arg... anyways...i
lay around from like 11 till 2 trying to sleep alittle..Rochelle beats
Russ.. I totally forgot we were going to work on a project..soo I go...
we work on it from 2 to 5:30..and it still wasn't done, but i had to
leave cuz i was going to cook supper here for everyone and then we were
going to the Hardware Bar in York....soo i cook, Nat, Christina and I
all get ready..looking like respectful hoes...hehe.. grabbed Joe and
Allen..Russ was having a boys night with his friends... Nat Christina
and I drop Joe and Allen off at the pool hall.. we start following the
van of Nat's friends to York...umm.. about an exit before we were
suppose to get off..Nat's check engine light comes on... i didin't
think anything was wrong, cuz mine gones on all the time.. Nat was
like..yea there's something wrong... so we get off at the next
exit...The guys in the van hop out to check the situation... they put
every kind of liquid you can put in a car and we are on our merry
way...ha.. riiight..we get to York, drove past the bar.. the line is
really long.. so we all decide we are gonna go somewhere else....as
soon as we got back on the interstate.. Nat's car acts up again..
she can bearly turn the wheel..infact, i helped her turn the wheel from
the passenger seat... we call the van saying we need to get off now....
and as we are on the ramp of the exit, the car jerks.. the radio goes
off, the heat goes off.. her head lights go dim...and of course we have
to stop at a red light... PRAYING that this car stays on...we glide
into a parking spot at the same gas station we stopped at before...the
lift the hood cuz it was smoking/steaming.. the guys look harder..here
a belt came off.. thinking it was the alternator belt... the guys are
fiddling with it trying to get it back on...soo around Midnight, we
finally establish that they weren't gonna get it fix...and after asking
every guy that went into the gas station if they knew anything about
car... one of nat's friends called AAA and said they she was driving a
friends car and it died..so we had a tow truck on its way.. the key
problem was, only one person could go in the truck and we had two too
many people to go in the van...so 2 of Nat's friends stay at the gas
station with Nat and Christina and I hop into the van to head back to
campus... Jay who was driving SPEEDED SOO MUCH... it was fogged, and
rainy..and Christina was hyperventaliling.... but we got here.. Russ
was back from his friends house..soo i nab him and his jeep equipped
with fog lights and head back to York, to Get Nat's friends to she
could ride back in the truck.. so we arrive at the gas station.. the
tow truck company called and said they just got the call from AAA and
it would be another hour...its now..1 am.. and with the time
change..techinically it was 2..the truck arrived around 3... we head
back.. Russ in the tow truck..Me driving Russ's Jeep with Nat with me..
The 2 friends went in the van cuz the vanload came back... We got back
to campus at 4am..and we were starving cuz it was almost 12 since we
ate.. soo we went to the diner..FINALLY went to bed at 5 am..freakin'
long day.. whew..
IT was the worst night but yet the funnest night...lol
Russ and I are ok.. been rough the past couple weeks, but we chatted
tonight and hopefully things will get better.. Spring break for me is
the end of the month...going to Poconos for a few days.. and to
celebrate my b-day..the big 20..but wishing it was my big 21...Then we
start back the tuesday after Easter....oh joy..
All for now.. check back!
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| mumble, jumbleI am sorta stealing Sara's way of writing in xanga..
But I don't care.
Too much going on
Not sure what to do
Afraid to write my feelings incase people see
Afraid to write in fear of thinking things I don't want to think about
Frustrated with people on so many different levels
Can't wait till the term is over and being done with college..
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| umm.. no clueHey everyone.. I just had the impulse to write, but now i don't..maybe
later this week...anyways.. At home for break till Friday, then to MD
for the weekend..then back in the cove for the rest of break....um..
Got my grades tonight..didn't fail anything..yes.. i was concerned...
but a GPA of 2.52..:) soo whew!.. I miss Russ... and i can't do
anything to see him till friday.. soo i am sad..
that's a quick update.. the end!
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| aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhyea, that sums up how I feel right now...gah..
Lots of homework to do... and somewhat of a time limit to do it.. I
hope I survive till Christmas.. I know I'll survive...not sure if my
grades in my classes will..
Hm...Month of November.. First weekend, went to Russ's for the Pig
Roast at his fire hall...hahahahha...it was all you can eat and then
all you can drink!.. He and his mother took advantage of that...
hahha.. They together finished 6 pitchers of Yuengling Beer... haha..
and like 3 of those pitchers, before they would finished them, his mom
was going home.. but ha.. didn't happen untill after the 6th one. He
said he could of had more, but he was pretty outta of it. He got up and
danced with me..ha.. then his brother came back and said his parents
said he needed to get home before he passed out in the cold...soo His
brother poured him into the car, while I drove Russ's car home... When
I got in the door, Russ took 4 tyenol and was heading to bed.. finally
got him situated, him and his mom were talking across the house to each
other, giggling and such about really random things... both drunk... we
got them to shut up... then I i would say something not even that
funny, and Russ would giggle for like 5 mins!.. ha..it was great.. I
bet him 2 bucks that he wouldn't remember anything... well... I owe him
two bucks!
then Monday, forgot to set the alarm..got up at 7... the bus was
leaving at 7:15 for New York City..I was supposed to be on it.. thank
goodness, i was at Russ's all weekend, so all i had to was take out the
dirty clothes and put clean ones in... Got to the bus ontime.. didn't
really want to go cuz i didn't know who was going..but it got better...
got to NYC around noon, i had a ton of things i had to do for
class..scavenger hunt, but didn't really do it cuz i was the only one,
and my group i was with had their own things they wanted to do.. soo it
was ok, went to Trump Tower, Radio City Hall, World Trade Center site,
Chinatown...hmm.. then Hard Rock Cafe, and Virgin Records... got to bed
around 1.. got up around 9 and got ready...walked to Rockefeller
Center, then to Bloomingdale's.. then high tailed it back to the hotel
by 2:30 to get the bus loaded and to leave...got back around 7..chilled
out for a while.. extremely tired, but had a test to finished...got it
finished went to bed...
The next weekend, I really wanted Russ to come home, but hell, that
didn't happen, and Im sorta pissed about it, but hey, he's busy so i
can't really do anything about it... but I came home to get my dress
for formal...My dress i wore for my Senior Prom..didn't fit..I
grew....soooo Saturday, we needed to go to Altoona to get some things
and meet Jamey to get his money for tickets for formal.. So we went to
David's Bridal just for kicks..hahaha..found a dress for 30 bucks!..
then my crazy grandfather...well, mom and i decided he wanted to give
money away, cuz he asked if Leah needed any...and she didn't, not
yet... then he asked me.. I couldn't lie cuz truthfully, I am
completely broke! I went to New York for 2 days and that drowned my
bank account.. so in the end, he gave me 70 bucks!.. yea.. yay for
Pap...sorta...
Then the formal was the 17...it was fun!.. Before it even started it
was crazy! i worked and i felt horrible that i had to leave to get
ready cuz it was one time they actually needed me.. but oh well!!
Got outta work, had lunch, walked home and worked on a paper, then
really the fun began! ha.... I went to Russ's to iron my dress..which
then I ended up getting water on it..soo two pretty big spots on the
front.. (i edited the pictures so you can tell  )
After i went to 131, cuz all the girls were getting Anne's sister to do
their hair... soo I did half of mine and she curled the back...then
after went to Russ's and started to get ready, make-up and put on my
dress... around 5:30... Russ's Pager goes off and we hear the fire
whistle going off... We listen...Everything was being dispatched to the
school. Bollinger Hall!!..soo Russ goes running, I'm flipping out cuz I
was almost ready and here the college is on fire!..ha.. in the end, a
heater in one of the classrooms, didn't really catch on fire, but
smoked and that's why they got called.. then.. Russ didn't get back
till 6 then, and then he decided to take a shower.. and then took him
forever to get his tux on...soo at 7..when it started, we all marched
down... took pictures, and ate and then the banquet of the awards
happen.. then DANCING!.. soo much fun..:) After a bunch of people left,
we requested songs...er... country songs, 80s 90s,...aka..no rap...
then the DJ played songs that he thought we would like.. and it was all
good.. by the end of the night there were only 10 of us.. Then most of
us changed and hung out at Russ's... till 3 am.. and Russ and I and
Jessi all needed to be up at 6 ams...ha...we got up at 9, left by 10,
and got to Gettysburg for Remembrance Day at 12.. it was sweet, left by
2, Hung around Russ's all afternoon, then they left for the Rodeo
around 7, and I went home and cleaned... by the end of the night, I was
all stuffed up, and could barely talk..it was bad....
Sunday morning, went to church, hung around with Russ then around 2
went to the Rodeo.. good times!:) then the Blake Shelton concert
after!.. I swear he looked at me.. cuz i had my pink john deere hat on
and i was alittle bit taller other than Russ then anyone esle around...
it was sweet.. I had a headache all day, but the bass and the concert
just made it worse.... we went to Hoss's for supper...mmmmmmmmmmmm....
then after, i was beat.. said goodbye to Russ's parents, roamed
aimlessly around the house for about 5 mins... said screw this..
grabbed Russ, and said.. goodnight.. around 9.. i got up several times
throughtout the night, but got outta bed at 9....12 hours of
sleeping..woo!!.. then took a nap in the afternoon... then another one
form 7-9 in the evening... should have worked on homework..but yea..
Tuesday, at 9:30 got up to go to class, but her computer wasn't
working, so went back to bed..till 1:30 said screw class and called
Russ to come down for a bit..then i went down there..then Wed. I had to
work, from 9:30 to 11:30.. then ate at scoozi, hung around alittle bit
with people.. then packed.. I was on the road by 3 pm... got home and
waited for Sarah and mom to get home from running errands, then my
cousins and Aunt were up, so stopped in to see them..
Turkey day, had is advantages, but i was still feeling like crap.. ate
lunch, visited with my relatives, then went to my Aunts and ate,
watched Cars.. and goofed off like usual...
Friday went to Altoona...left at 3..PM...soo not a crazy shopping
person..went to Boscov's.. bras were on sale!... then to Hoss's with
pap and aunt and cousins... then we went back into town to Gabes,
K-mart, Target and Walmart...we were still in walmart at 11...whew...
then when we were unloading the car, the damn cat got out and i felt
bad to i woke up at 3 to check on him..laid back down what I thought
was a min..but hell, it was 5 when i woke up again.. checked
outside...nothing.. then laid back down... 15 mins later, he rattled
the door... i yelled at him.. then headed up to my bed... slept till
11..then mom and i went to crash and dent for groceries..found lots of
them!.. then i hung around at home..slept some more.. did some
laundry.. watched a movie...actually started homework, talked to Russ
then went to bed around 1... got up..11... and now here I am
Russ and I are great.. I miss him terribly.. cuz I am at home and he's
at his house... and I haven't seen him since Wed...ag;kshdgl..Dunno
what Im gonna do over christmas break... We are up to 3 months..and
counting!.. def. Counting.. he can't get rid of me... if he tries..i'll
kick his ass....and he knows it!
I should be working on homework, but im not... Tons of stuff i should
be working on.. Never take 5 classes.. you'll drown like i
am..gakljhdas..
Can't wait for Christmas...but..yet.. to get there.. will be hell..damn it..............
ALl for now!.. Keep me updated in ya'll lives also!..
Miss all of ya!..
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