Okay.

I know I haven't written in practically forever.

Sorry 'bout that.

Now I could fill you in all the details as to what has happened since the last time I posted, but that would take me too long.

Right now, I need to just write what I'm thinking about.  My xanga is pretty much the "safest" place for me to do this because I know hardly anyone reads this.

But if you do read it, feel free to comment if you want to.  I just need to write this stuff down.


Alrighty so I have always been entirely anxious for my first kiss and first boyfriend.
Sometimes it was all I could think about and I would get depressed thinking about it.

Now, I'm a freshman in college and I still haven't had a boyfriend or anything.
You'd think I'd be still "obsessing" over it, but I'm not.

Instead I'm really okay with it.

You see, I've grown so obsessed with the Jonas Brothers, that my first kiss and all is just whatever.
If I could meet the Jonas Brothers and there is chemistry between Joseph and I, I think I'll be totally and one-hundred percent okay.
I feel like I just know that whenever I meet the Jonas Brothers {I am going to it's my life goal} there will be something between Joseph and I and then it will be worth waiting for my first kiss and all.

Does that even make some sense?

I'd rather wait a lifetime for my first kiss if it's with Joseph {and theres chemistry there and we get married and all} than get it right now.

ugh.

I hate it when I can't explain things the correct way.  It makes more sense in my mind.

But it's weird and probably unhealthy or something.

And I really don't think I want to like anyone aside from Joseph {and Kevin and Nick} because I have this thought in my head that if I get a boyfriend, I'll meet Joseph and he'll fall madly in love with me.

ugh.

Okay I'm not making any sense anymore.

But it feels better to have written this down.

So ya.

Basically, I want Joseph Adam Jonas to be my boyfriend.  And I don't want anyone else.

gah.

I sound selfish.

And fake.

And stupid.

And a;lskdjfl;askjdfl.


and
and
and
and
like a Video Girl.

>.<

Well...it certainly has been a while since I last posted something.

And a lot of things have happened.

Yet a lot of things have stayed the same.


In exactly one month, I will start college.
Freaky isn't it?

Especially seeing as I started this little xanga back in like the 7th or 8th grade.

It's weird to think that I'm going to be starting college.  I just can't seem to wrap my head around it.  It all feels so surreal.

I mean, me, starting college?  That can't be possible, can it?

There are a million questions running through my mind.

Who will I hang out with?
Are my classes hard?
Do I have all my materials?
Am I going to be okay with driving to school by myself?

There are so many questions in my head right now.

I feel so unprepared.
Which is rather ironic, seeing as most people think I'm the person who would be the most prepared.

I don't know what it is, but I almost don't feel like I should go to college.
I just want to live my life and not worry about responsibilities.
This summer just felt so nice not having to worry about AP homework or band camp.

I know I need to face the facts and grow up, but I just don't want to.

My gosh, I sound like a two year old.

ugh.

I don't know.

My parents and family keeps saying, "oh you are going to love college!" blah blah blah.

Okay...

I'm sure I will, but right now, it feels nice being able to stay up until 2:30am and wake up at 7:30am and do practically nothing except talk to Stacy and write my Jonas Brothers story.

::sigh::

I guess this is all just a part of growing up.

Slight reluctance to, but knowing you have to makes you do so.

Did that make any sense whatsoever?


;://Lindsey

A wise saying frm the Jonas Brothers:

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

:]

It's the truth.


I absolutely love the Jonas Brothers.

The meaning behind their songs and the lyrics are so beautiful.


Favorite songs:

Hold On
That's Just the Way We Roll
A Little Bit Longer {awww poor Nick!! <3 }
Burnin' Up
Just Friends


I really want to go to a concert, but unfortunately, they are sold out.

::sigh::

Guess I'll have to wait for them to come back to California.

hmm.....



Tomorrow!
Cal Poly Orientation!

Nervous!
Scared!
Excited!

eep!

haha.

I'm worried though, online it says they have not received my Final High School Transcript.  I went to CHHS on June 23rd and asked them to send it....its due on July 15!

If its not received by Friday I'm going to call.

hmmm....


A Little Bit Longer

Got the news today
But they said I had to stay
A little bit longer
And I'll be fine
When I thought it'd all been done
When I thought it'd all been said
A little bit longer
And I'll be fine

But you don't know what you got
'Till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like
To feel so low
Everytime you smile or laugh you glow
You don't even know
No no
You don't even know

All this time goes by
Still no reason why
A little bit longer
And I'll be fine
Waitin' on a cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer
And I'll be fine

But you don't know what you got
'Till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like
To feel so low
And everytime you smile or laugh you glow
You don't even know
No no
You don't even know
No no

Two, three, four!

Yeah!
And you don't know what you got
'Till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like
To feel so low
And everytime you smile or laugh you glow
You don't even know
No
Yeah
Woah!

[Oooohhh]

So I wait 'till kingdom come
All the highs and lows are gone
A little bit longer
And I'll be fine
I'll be
Fine

[Additonal lyrics]

So I'm finally here today
You've touched me here today
And I wish that I could stay
A little bit longer
And I will be fine


;://Lindsey