haha. okay, so for the two of you that are still around to read this and wondered what my "no way" was about... it was a reaction to the news that my little brother is dating someone! i couldn't tell anyone yet because he hadn't told my parents yet but i was busting, so xanga-land was my little squeal of excitement.

in other news... i LOVE community. for real. just love it.

i had a conversation with a very wise woman this afternoon about the difference between "knowing something in my head" versus "knowing something in my heart." i asked her if she thinks that's legitimate or if we just use it as an excuse to not put into practice what we know is true. she said just recently someone called her out on the very same thing by saying the the difference between head knowledge and heart knowledge was rebellion.

ouch.

but isn't that often so true?! not always, but like 99.9% of the time. i know something to be true based on God's Word or a conviction that He's put on my heart, but i don't act on it right away... and i say it's because it hasn't really settled in my heart yet. in actuality it's that my heart is rebellious and i'm letting myself rely on emotions. because i CHOOSE how i will respond regardless of what my 'feelings' tell me. obedience is what the Lord is asking of me. obedience and not rebellion.

hmm. lots of awesome discussion today... God is good.

no way...

if i had to make a sound track for my road trip this weekend it would have to include "bless the broken road" (rascal flatts) and "bleeding love" (leona lewis)... because even though i only listened the radio randomly in between CDs and npr i heard both songs like 5 times each. isn't that so weird? and such a strange combination?

i should totally be in bed right now. well, i am actually sitting in my bed... but i should be sleeping right now. i'm not even really sure why i'm not. i'm tired... i just don't feel ready to sleep yet. maybe. lol. it's one of those nights.

welcome to the colors i decided to paint my bedroom by the way... i'll have to post pics of the new house soon. it's fun. my room is lime green and i'm going with red and yellow accents thanks to the inspiration a fabulous painting i bought from a super talented friend (yay ra!). i'm making progress. there are now three things hanging on the wall and i have started finding places for the stuff in one of the boxes in the corner. it's taking me way longer than i thought it would to "settle". i long for simplicity... i think unpacking will mean purging this time.

i accepted an offer for a new job last week. random but true. though lilly has been pretty good (i'll still forever call it the evil empire) i'm taking a position as a technical writer for a small company here in indy. i'm not exactly sure what all that will mean, but i think it will be challenging, which i'm super ready for right now. the people will be great and it will be a good place to learn. and i'll have benefits and even vacation time! and i'll make more than what i do now... which means i can say goodbye to my friend sallie mae a little bit sooner. excellent.

if you read this on tuesday (in america) will you say a prayer for my brother?  he's in the army, stationed at fort bliss in el paso, texas and he has a super important meeting with the colonel of the base on tuesday... and it could mean big things for him. he's understandably a little nervous, but i'm sure he'll do great. but if you could pray, that would be awesome.

and now i think it really is time to sleep.

Currently Listening Call Me Irresponsible By Michael Bublé see related

weddings...

today i went to a wedding. 'tis the season of life (and year) for such happy occasions... although this is actually the only wedding i've gone to all summer. of course my best friend since 7th grade did have a baby. i guess that kind of trumps the whole wedding scene.

i really love going to weddings though. i love seeing the personalities of the couple come out in how things are structured, what they're wearing, how the church is decorated, what the programs look like... i love watching proud parents tear up as they watch their children enter a new phase of life... i love watching the couple interact during the ceremony and reception- the way they look at each other when the first see one another, how serious they are as they repeat their vows, and all the stifled giggles in the middle of the ceremony when you know they are cracking up over some inside joke... i love receptions with live bands the best, but really any reception with halfway decent music will do... i love slide shows that tell their story... i love watching them share their first dance as a married couple- how sweetly they hold each other as they begin such an incredible journey... and then watching them dance with their parents- seeing the faces of each participant in those special family dances as they share words of wisdom or funny stories or just enjoy 2 minutes of being with each other... i love watching the little kids that always crowd around the bride and groom to dance- and the moment the bride and goom look at each other and suddenly realize that the ability to actually have kids is a new reality. lol. i love the way everyone just lingers at a reception because it's just so good to be together and celebrate.

i just love weddings.