i am back.
will i actually begin posting again regularly? ya never know with me. ha. probably not. but i mean hey, after [almost] 4 months of not updating this thing, it's either time to shut down your site or write something, ya know! 
so while in the midst of working on my senior seminar thesis paper [that i know everyone is sooo tired of hearing about], i have chosen to find yet one more way of prolonging my [somewhat attempted] writing process and express my thoughts on this here xanga.
as of late...
my brain has been in overdrive.    .because.
my real thoughts. they are quite restless.    .yet.
the ["scholarly"] side of my head. it has to keep thinking.    .and.   
my eyes. well, they are just simply tired.    .while. 
my seat. uh, it's tired of sitting in this chair [researching.analyzing.typing.]    .furthermore.
my fingers. they are tired as well [unless somehow, used for other measures such as this.]
and my heart. well, let's not go there. [ok.well we kinda will.]
it's just kinda .excited.
                       .confused.
                          .hopeful.
                             .anxious.
                                .peaceful.
                                   .prayerful.
                                      .and.yes.somehow.all.at.once.
my little heart has [a bit of] anxiety that needs [a bit of] peace.
many decisions must be made before may 13.
much will take place in not much time.
we'll see what God just might have in store.
i'll let ya know where i'm headed in 55 days and counting.......
until then, i press on.                                     

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!!! :) I definitely did because I was back home in the SOUTH! Let me hear a shout-out if you agree that there's absolutely nothing like good 'ole Southern hospitality... waving to every person you see on the street regardless if you've ever seen them in your life before or not... personally knowing the person sitting next to you on the plane before you even land (haha, we actually drove to AR this time, but it's still true)... practically losing your hearing when you walk in the door of loved ones because everyone is talking so loud and all at once... being able to look at gorgeous colored leaves on the trees at the end of November due to the 69 degree weather... now that is the South!!! Ya gotta love it!

But, on the other hand, my 2nd home in Chicago got its first downpour of snow the day after we drove to AR... and I have to admit I was sad I missed it. And there's nothing like the lighting of Michigan Avenue that I got to watch last weekend (along with the other 49.86 million of us!). The stores are all decorated for Christmas now and playing wonderful Christmas music. I can't wait to ice skate and do many other "Chicagoan" things I have somehow managed yet not to do! So in the next 5 months before graduation, I may be quite the busy tourist...

Until then, I also may remain torn between two entirely different worlds... my land of Chicago or my (home) of the South. OR, as I have a strong feeling of as well, I will probably end up living in neither place but somewhere far, far away...

And any option is just fine with me. 

Time for a quick update with only two things to say:

*I think the infamous Chicago winter is officially on its way... it dropped 20 degrees in the last two hours, and now I am hearing the wind hooowling outside my window as it's about to majorly storm! Ohhh, am I ready for this again?!

*Do you know how hard it is to try to sit down and write a paper that is worth 20% of your grade after just getting out of 9 hours of classes all day?! Ugh.

.........But I must march on. I know the Lord will continue to give me the strength I need somehow.