| | Alright... well... no one comes to this site anymore which is just perfect. (no sarcasm there) I really feel like writing without worrying that someone will say something about it.
Life is incredibly screwed up lately and yet, I don't seem to care. I'm alot happier than I have been in a long time and I think I finally like who I am. It just stinks that I had to go through so much pain to get where I am today. I've been single for almost a year which is shocking because I used to hate being single... I'm actually enjoying it right now. I'd rather be alone then in an unloving relationship like the last one I was in. I may have loved Lucas, but he never loved me and worse, he didn't respect me. I'm not about to get into another relationship if that's the case. I need to be with someone who not only cares about me, but who also values my opinion and takes them into consideration before making any decisions. I'm sick of being the only one in the relationship who puts any effort into it. So anyway... being single is just fine with me if it means I can date around! As far as friendships go... I've lost quite a few of them. (if you can even call me that) I guess it's okay because it just means they were never really there for me anyway. I'm glad I'm finally learning how to just let things go and let things be. And as for family... well... that's always a different story. I don't have much of one anymore. I only see 2 of my brothers and my mom now. I really only miss Brennan. It stinks... I probably won't be seeing much of him anymore. It's sad to think about that... I mean you spend a huge part of your life with your siblings then you grow up, move away, and start losing touch... Yes, they're your family which means you can never really be rid of them. lol. But things are never the same. I wonder if this is how he felt last year when I moved away.
I guess that's all I wanted to get off my chest. |
| | Posted 10/6/2006 7:41 PM - 5 comments
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