i guess this is a lost cause. just writing in here hoping that maybe you guys would respond. but it doesn't hurt. maybe although we're not the three musketeers anymore, we still are really good friends. ilove you both very much it's very hard to write down in words. it's not like those other friendships of people, whom you see say "I LIKE SO TOTALLY LOVE YOU! LIKE OMG I'M AFUCKING BUBBLEGUM BITCH LIKE TOTALLY! WHO LIKE TOTALLY FUCKS HER BEST FRIENDS BEHIND THEIR BACK!" *giggles* (pretty generic huh? it's like friendships all over the world or yokosuka). no, it's more like "i cherish you guys' friendship through the good and bad times and as finding a best friend is hard to do, i'm glad i have both of you." it's pretty sad that we have slowly grown apart although we had promised each other that we'd stay together forever. it may be that time for change again.. the one we had dreaded for so long. but you know? it's okay! we still e-mail each other which is a definite good sign. we still talk every once in a while. so then, i think our friendship has survived a trial so tough that many of those would have broken up the first day. but i miss you guys. you know i truly do.

i love you mary kay legaspi.

i love you theresa marie malayan.

HOWDY GIRLS!

well today was okay day! it felt so slow but it was still okay. haha. man.. oh there is this really creepy guy in my geometry class and he keeps trying to talk to me.. it's really gross. =\ HAHA. i try so hard to avoid him but he always finds a way to walk by me. HAHA i'm so mean! but he just says hi to me all the time like we're close friends... and it's not like i'm the only person in that class yano! he just started saying hi to me since i put my name on the board. ugh. get away from me you stalker! hmm.. OH! they're selling snowcones after school now =) it's so yummy! i HEART it! lol.

oh man. you know. one time.. i was looking pretty scrubby and i was scratching my nose and i looked outside and there was this HOTT half naked SKATER kid. i was like "dddddddaammnn" but i looked like i was picking my nose! HAHA how come he was never there when you were here TESSA? agh! SUCKS ASS!

i'm so hungry! MAN it was hott this week... hahah i looked damn sexy all sweaty and shit. DAMN! rape that bitch! BWABAHHAHAHA. hmm haha my friend wants me to go to this show with her to see her sexxxy crush. i wanna go. =) i wanna MEET him.

maann. guys! I MISS YOU ALL!!!!!! of course we'll always be friends and we'll see each other soon =) IN OUR APARTMENT! hahaha HOT SHIT RIGHT THERE! BITCH!!! go us! *kicks*

kay don't worry about moving! i know it's really hard especially if you grown to like it there but MAKE THE BEST OF IT! haha no matter what anyone says.. HAVE FUN! GO BITCH!

tessa haha iw as talking to your nasty ass boyfriend! HAHA. he wants whips and handcuffs. HAHA. mTj SEX SESSION BABY!! we'll work that boy HARD!!! haha jk love.

i love you guys muchos!!! i miss you and all our talks... fun.. and stuff I LOVE YOU!!!

hey guyses... juss finished wrytin in mai xanga so i decided to stop by here n' wryte in this as well... so wutz up?! meeh nuttin much. same ol same ol. juss chillin. waytin foe skool to hurry n' finish up. kant wayte kant wayte!!! hey guess wut marla?! mai mother sed she myte send meeh to cali foe summer. yay!!! myte?! so theres a chance ov no. oh wellz. as long as she thinkin bout it. mahn kay long tyme to talk even tho i see yooh everyday. well almost... seems lyke we're growin apart how sad how sad. how hav yooh been lately?! gewd i hope. well immah go eat now cuz im very very hungry. well before i go juss wanna let yooh guyses kno im alwaize here foe yooh two. dunt be skerd to say *hi* kay . miss chillin with yooh. sorry if ive been a lil pre-occupied. SORRY!!! love yooh guyses!!!

hoo boy. feeling very tired right now. it's 8 a.m. and i'm suppose to be doing my hw.

very crappy weather BWAH

anyways. everything sucks. and i miss you guys. i read that thing you wrote tessa.. it almost made me cry..

mannn soooooo MANY memories! right kay? right tessa? I LOVED THE WATERFIGHTS! even though the pictures of me made me look like i have a pudgy face. DO I HAVE A PUDGY FACE?! lol. then toshimaen. THAT WAS THE SHIT! maann hhaha i'm devirginized! I FINALLY SLID ON A WATER SLIDE!!!!! maan.. i wish i was back there. our memories were what? LESS THAN A YEAR LONG! but it still seemed like we filled it up with everything you guys are the greatest. always cheering me up and cheering me on... when i become mean *devil horns* BWAHAHAHA. and working out? shooottt.. that was fun! i loved it.. because my skin looked better and my arms were "getting there" HAHA so was my stomach lol. but yeah.. it was filled with everything! i remember when tessa got her tattoo. lol i kept saying "oh man! what if we get kidnapped or raped? i think it's closed.. let's go away" lol i was so scared lol. he looked scary like he was gonna kill us! HAHA i felt like a kiddy at a dentist .. man i also love our 'rainbow' moments! we were so colorful and happylike! it made me happy.. and when i wore my cartoon shirts.. HAHA we were so cool. maann it's weird. what i used to do there.. i don't do here anymore i don't like talking as much anymore. BWAH lunch is so quiet for me.. i always feel left out. but i don't know. i don't care. 'everything' bugs me. remember at lunch? i would do so much stupid shit that you guys would look freaked! *eek!* HAHA and i miss the get togethers at tessa's house... HELLO WORLD! THIS IS ME!!! haha that song made us happy huh? you guys are the best sister like friends i ever had i wish we had more time to make memories!!!.. but remember.. OUR APARTMENT IS WAITING!!! muahahahahah

i love you gusy... eM