whew! 1 month nako sa college! kumakapit paren! haha.

**july 10**

waah! i got sick! it's because yesterday evening (july 9), i arrived at the dorm around 11pm! then i got tired of knocking the door for 30 mins! (dorm usually closes around 10pm or something) so next day. i didn't come to class. i missed a lot of lessons and quizzes! argh. hai.

meh nakamiss kaya saken nung nag-absent ako?! haha! kapal. x)

**july 11**

finally i went to class. still the usually routine. filipino (or so called 'pinoy' because of fatima. haha! peace taio.) - socio-anthro - zoo lab.

**july 12**

it was raining and winds blew kinda hard. we only had 3 courses instead of 6: neuroanatomy, math and english. why? classes were suspended after 12pm. haha! i went home (dorm actually) and slept. ako pa? haha. antuking bata as always. x)

yellow cab ang dinner namen sa room. yun yon ehh! (^^)

**july 13**

wuhu! no classes! suspended! nyahaha. bumawi lang naman kami ng tulog nila ate chico and ate bebutch. and we ate another pizza! pizzahut! haha. we ate dinner. miraculously, the food was great! (oi minsan lang mangyari sa dorm yun! haha.)

**july 14**

oww. classes were resumed. whatever. kulitan with p3! haha. so much fun. practiced filipino presentation sa lover's lane while raining! haha! ang kyut. syempre kasama ko sila ja, kat, cristal, die (hi crush!), nicole (koibito koh!), and leah.

huwat?! p.e naka knee socks?!? wtf.

**july 15**

2nd tryouts sa basketball! i wasn't able to attend the first one because i was sick. and finally.. nakapunta din! (kulitin ba naman ako nila ate sheena at ate pebs. haha!) it was tiring! pero namiss ko yung pagod! we had drills and games. i also had fun, especially with my new friends. hehe. they're cool. at astig! galing talaga nila! after that, kasabay ko bumalik ng UST si ate sheena at ate steph. the weird thing about me is, during the tryouts i was really tired. but after that, i felt energized! parang gusto ko pa! haha. oh well. the results will be posted on monday. i'll keep my fingers crossed!

well. that's about it. im kinda tired. pero kaya pa! hehe. ciao! (^^)

i've wanted to disappear to see if you'll look for me, worry about me, miss me. but you know what? i found myself looking for you, worrying about you, missing you more than you might do.

bleed for me, i'll die for you right away.

well well well. here i go again [rhyming! yun yon ehh!] so let's see what happened this past week.

**july 3**

start of another week again. loaded na naman. potek.

ate sheena is recruiting me for the college of science basketball team (girls division)! they found out that i was the MVP in my former school! talk about that. (meh nagsabi kasi eh. haha!) well. maybe i'll go for it. haha.

**july 4**

hai. 1 month na kaming break. oh what the heck! why do i have to remember that one?! maybe because our breakup was just not the typical breakup thing. it was probably the worst. anyway, wasn't a good day either. i'm so damn sick! it gets worst everyday. i can't be absent. so much work to do!

this day was also sam's last day. she dropped the course and school because of personal reasons. she told me she never wanted to take up psychology course. it was a mistake. why? she gave her card during the confirmation of enrollment pero akala niya ibabalik pa yun. she really wanted to go to another university and take up a business course. hai. rash judgements.

**july 5**

started to lose ng voice. damn! it was hard. and i can help talking. argh!

**july 6**

no improvement on my voice. tsktsk!

**july 7**

no classes! wuhu! it's because of the psychology general assembly and seminar. we had fun at the picture moments! (tenkyu sa digicam ni kari! hi kari! haha!) and the progam started eventually. at first i was so damn sleepy with the first two speakers. but after that i was a bit energized especially when the topic was about clinical psychology.

i did not make it to the surviving college seminar because of my p.e. class. i wonder what happened there. hmm..

almost two weeks ago ko nalaman na meh na-aattract saken. up to now i kept noticing kung pano yung mga tingin niya saken at yung mga galaw niya. halata na talaga. ayaw pa kasi sabihin. para tapos na. hai naku.

that's what happened this week. whew! adjust, adjust, and more adjusting to go.

hai. emO na naman ako for no reason at all! baket kaya? maybe it's sometimes okei to be emO. nakakamiss din. masipag na naman ako mag-isip. haha. yun yon ehh!

that's it for now! ciao! (^^)

'kapatid, sa balikat may sandigan, kapit lang. kadugo ika'y lumaban.'

'one day all the things we know and all the people we know will disappear and change forever. we just don't always know when it will happen. if we hold on too tightly, we get rope burn.'

'you know what a broken destiny is? its when two people love each other but for some reasons they can't be together. that's broken destiny. loving someone who could never be yours.'

hai. what a week! *BOOM!* survived another loaded week of college. even though i came from a good school [or so they thought. tsktsk!] that trained me to face college, still i'm adjusting to the new environment. up to NOW.

1st thing about adjusting is: (tadah!) living in a dormitory.

whew! of course it was not that easy! i've been living here in Las Pinas since birth (hmm. even before birth. haha!) then suddenly, *poof!* dorm time! my first 2 days there was.. i dunno. for some reason i wake up often in the middle of the night. but i got over it eventually because of my uberly-fun-and-naughty dormates! ate chico and ate bebots! they're so cool. they treated me so well (although sometimes they also treat me as a kid.) that i never became out-of-place kid! haha!

2nd thing: college itself

well. i needed to BOOST my PR skills because i lack that kind of quality. i'm starting to build it up now. i'm sure it would also help me survive college. anyway, i thought the school i graduated in has the 'edge'. it turned out to be oh-so-wrong! here one scene:

"san ka grumaduate?" -elizabeth seton school.- "san yun?" -sa Las Pinas- "san yung Las Pinas? province ba yun?"

oh please. give me a break. my former school brainwashed us! (or maybe has an edge in la salle. nyak.)

the professors are.. or have different attitudes. some are strict, boring, fun, outrageuos, weird, diligent (masipag magtiro pero..), exotic?!? haha.

though i'm still adjusting, i have no problem with friends. lalo na with my usual buddies now. astig sila! we call it each other 'dudes' now. i thought i'm going to have a hard time trusting with people. but oh what the heck! i just have to be careful.

but for now, UST students are kind. unlike in other universities. that's why i have no regrets entering this prestigeous university. i hope i won't get kicked out! hey! not an easy job didn't you know?!? one can easily enter UST. but maintaining the grade is tough! why do i know? of course i do have a lot of connections! haha! anyway, so much for that.

gotta go now. i'll post whatever-happened-this-week later. hehe! ciao! (^^)

'kapit lang. wag bibitiw. may pag-asa pa.'

'rest if you must, but don't you quit.'

'inde pa nagsisimula ang totoong hirap. wala pa ang lahat ng ito. patikim palang.'

hai. it's 12:52am. july 2, 2006. can't sleep! (naku patay. magagalit saken si bes nito! peace taio bes!)

maybe because of the conference we had in ym with em-em and charles. issues, issues, and more issues. and i discovered something about me. words em and charles said strucked me. i mean, 'no way! i thought i was just an ordinary person-slash-kiddo who enjoys life to the fullest and does the normal things normal people do. you know, just being myself, but then..' whatever they said really surprised me. i never imagined i was something like that. especially now. oh well. (if you want to know what im talking about, hit me back personally. haha!)

hmm. i'd better sleep. gonna be quite busy for tom. whew! sabak ule sa college! aios lng. basta ako, kapit lang. inde bibitiw. (^^)

whew!

**june 25**

finally! meh bes nako! si fatima. wuhu! we call each other dude. wala lang. (^^)

huwaw. i survived another week of college! grabe. tindi talaga. right now im here at las pinas. so DAMN dead tired. and so DEAD sick. shet. ba't ngayon pa. anyway, a lot of things happened this week! both good and bad, lucky and unlucky. 2 weeks palang sa college, dami na agad nangyari. kakaiba talaga! so i'll start right off! wuhu! enjoy reading! (^^)

**june 26.**

badtrip tong araw na toh! i lost my reg. form. i wasn't feeling good that time. i also wasn't able to catch up with fatima, ransel, yzzah, tep and jc in the library. oh there's one thing. (but i rather not tell. haha. alam na niya yun.). katext ko si fatima at ja nung gabi. well at least they made me feel better. (^^)

**june 27**

kinda feeling better na. (shet conyo. eww!). everything was good and i was doing great! (baket kaya? dahil ba 27? hmm.). after class me, jc and fatima end up hanging out in the UST Botanical Garden. haha! talked about that! then i separated with jc and fatima. sinamahan ko kasi si janynne sa org. niya.

around 5pm.. (basta yun na yun! oh happy day toh! haha! alam na niya rin yun. not enough words to say how much i was so happy!)

**june 28**

aww. nagcool-off daw si dude and xai. xai texted me yesterday evening and said 'pakibantayan si fatima saken ah. ikaw kasi lagi niyang kasama eh. thanks po.' so next morning i went comforting dude over that issue. (morning till.. uhm.. actually tuloy tuloy yun eh. ako pa?)

hmm.. im noticing something about *toot*. totoo kaya sinabi ni dude saken?!

after class.. hmm.. somewhere in the botanical garden swing.. (oops! haha. hanggang dito nalang.)

**june 29**

yon! bes and xai are back! hehe. (bes na pala tawagan namen ni fatima!)

oops! baket kaya meh nagreact ng masama sa.. haha! (bawal magspill! pero halata na siya! sabihin na kasi ang dapat sabihin! achuchu..)

later that evening.. (sa text lang yun. pero.. yihee! ang sweet. heehee.)

(^^)

**june 30**

confession about.. (haha. bitin na naman noh?! sorry kayo. if you know what im talking about, good for you!)

kyut daw ako?! lalo na daw yung smile ko! i don't find myself attractive nga eh. pero.oh watta heck! basta sabi nila yun.

si vrenie daw: kyut..

si..*blank*: pretty!

yey! im excited to be hugged! (sino kaya!?! hmm..)

(^^)

**july 1**

UST Psychology Society (also known as PsychSoc) initiation! huwaw! grabe! astig pero parang kulang sa thrill. well its a tradition. i won't tell the details. (para masaya! lalo na sa mga inde nakapunta! sayang!)

kyut kyut ng hair ni bes! haha! oi no jowk yun! walang stir!

oops! sino meh utang na hug saken?!? i'll wait for you.. (^^)

(^^)

what a week right?! there's more to come! (^^)