it's been damn near 2 years since i wrote in this thing. but since i have a laptop now i'm finding it alot easier to write again because i have alot more time to myself. granted i haven't been on here in awhile but i figure it could use one last one before i disappear again. so here goes.

sometimes you just gotta roll with it. shit happens, roll with the punches, you gotta adapt. if there's one thing i've been able to do, it would be i have this ability to assimilate with just about anything. as hard as things get, i never let myself get that far down. i'm incredibly self sufficient, and yes, i know i go to the same people for the advice but sometimes i just need to hear it from someone else and then i'll pay attention to myself. but more often than not, i'm on my own. kinda like now.

i just feel like some things won't be the same anymore. as much as i wanna tell myself they will be, as much as others will tell me they will be, as much as i want them to be, i can't help but feel like something...something changed. we'll see what the new year will bring. it definitely will be a test that no amount of studying could prepare me for. but going into this holiday season, i gotta stay positive, like i always do.

holler when you see me.

we outside the emergency room, room,
you can feel my heart beat, beat, beat,
if she gonna pull through we gonna find out soon,
but right now she sleep, sleep, sleep...

hey chick, i'm at a loss for words..

if anyone still reads this old thing, i'll be going MIA for a little bit. i'll come back when i feel the time is right. till then.