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Name: Erin
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Fairfield
Birthday: 1/24/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: BURT'S BEES WAX* Caffeine* New York City* Madison, my neice* Starbucks* Yelling at freshmen (especially Tim Benson and Jesse Peine)* Amber Pacific* Dr. Pepper* My 200SX SE* Dark nights outside my house after band practice* Caffeine* Newspaper* Snow Patrol* Hanging out with Brianna, Ali, Jolene , Kristen and Amanda* Peyton Manning* Relient K* Caffiene* Goodbye kisses* Singing along to 1976 music with my dad* Chick-fil-a* Foo Fighters* My youth group* The Longhorns (Go Vince!)* Starbucks Double Shots (Espresso and Cream) :yum:* Buffet R13s* Cold Play's What If* Fraps* The Steelers*
Expertise: being a machine, duhr
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
MSN: eh_machine@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  erindanielle_07
Member Since:
2/10/2005
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| i miss himit's over, what i once thought was unbreakable, shattered into a million pieces.
i didn't think it would be so hard, but my tears said otherwise and your eyes never lie, so they say.
my body is numb, even as i sit here and think about it. everything reminds me of him, maybe because i want it to.
i don't want to forget him because i care so much for him but i had to let him go.
he wasn't the one for me and by being selfish i was holding onto something that didn't belong to me.
when he smiled and said it was okay, i knew it really wasn't, and he confirmed that by quickly driving away into the never ending horizon.
i finally reached my home, the place that is associated with comfort, and i broke down in my mother's arms. and as she embraced me i realized this: i know what is right, and for once i did what i knew i had to do.
but that doesn't mean i miss him any less.
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| it's funny how one short year can change everything in your whole universe. it has been little more than a year since i left my life in fairfield behind, yet it feels like an eternity. what's less funny is that when you leave people you truly care about and you grow apart. and what's even more serious are the relationships that stick through the trials and distance. those are the ones you can count on, no matter what. for you, i am thankful.
i'm not the same person i was before. i've done things this year that i've always said i would never do, some good, others bad. so as i prepare to begin my life in beebe, i have finally realized that life goes on, even if you're not around to see it moving on without you. honestly, it breaks my heart to hear about life in fairfield without me. i wanted so badly to be involved in your lives because i do care so deeply for you, all the while i've never been happier here. i guess i'm just trying to say i miss you all.
on a different note, heck a different chord altogether, there is a very sweet boy that i care dearly about and i'm not sure if we're going to make it through the summer, which saddens me. we'll see what happens, and for now i'm just living in the moment and soaking in the warm sun on my pale pink skin.
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| two monthspart of me is ecstatic that i'll be graduated in two months... the
other part of me is scared to death of life after high school.
this
is all we've known. for the last thirteen years, we've been forced into
classes we don't want to take, seating assignments where we're sitting
by people we don't necessarily like, and cafeteria food that most of
the time doesn't have any taste. but at the same time, we've grown
close to the people we're forced to share lives with.
i
honestly don't know what i'm going to do without some of you. but then
again i said that when i moved here and i'm doing just fine. i keep in
touch with the important people, and i share good memories with the
others.
even though i'm scared out of my mind, i guess deep
down i know that God will take care of everything and that we'll all be
just fine.
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|  | Currently Watching
Eragon (Full Screen Edition)
By Edward Speleers, Jeremy Irons, Sienna Guillory, Robert Carlyle, John Malkovich, Garrett Hedlund, Alun Armstrong, Christopher Egan, Gary Lewis (III), Djimon Hounsou, Rachel Weisz, Richard Rifkin, Steve Speirs, Joss Stone, Michael Mehlmann, Tam�s De�k (II), Matt Devere, M�t� Haumann, Andrea Fazekas, Caroline Chikezie
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Jolene, I know.... ...that you'll never let me go.
ps. i promise next time i'll have a real post.
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| when people say age is just a number......do they really mean it?
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