hola,

i am really pissed because i was supposed to go to my freind Rachel's house tomorrow right, and he said i could, but now i cant because i have to babysit my twevle year old lil brother. isnt that SO FUCKING RETARDED? i mean hes 12, why does he need me to babysit him its not like hes never stayed home alone before you know? but anyways on a happier topic, i got 100 dollars today b/c its my birthday on tuesday and my dad is celebrating it today cuz im not gonna see him on tuesday (duh) and i am gonna get more on tuesday from my mom and some on saturday from the rest of mym moms side de la familia. yo estoy mucho aburrido. "i like it when the red water comes out...i...like...it...when...the...red...water...comes...out" yo nessecito una life. yo estoy gonna go...adios.

more poems...

February Third, 2005

"my mom is in the hospital,

the nurse did all she can,

to make my mother comfortable,

as i sit and hold her hand.

i feel so sorry for my mom,

there's nothing i can do,

but to sit there and hold her hand,

and tell her i love you.

it puts a smile on her face,

for a moment or two,

the she turns her head nad looks at me,

and says i love you too.

i lift up my head and begin to smile,

and look into her eyes,

i think of out past and what we've shared,

because of you i can touch the sky.

your the biggest person in my life,

im telling you no lie,

and without you in my life,

surely i would die."

hey read this and tell me what you think:

December Fourth, 2004

as i go to the kitchen,

to get a knife,

i sit down and think...

is this really my life?

i say yes but no,

which one do i choose,

many people will miss me...

i have nothing to lose.

i've lost all my family,

i'm the last to die,

but i ask myself over and over again...

why?

why couldnt i be first,

instead of the last,

the i wouldn't have suffered,

such a terrible past.

i just want to go,

i just want to die,

but i look at a friend,

and see tears in their eye.

why me i ask god again and again

buti end up with a smile,

every now and then.

my life isnt so bad,

i say to myself,

i can live on,

with my friends help.

whats good? im really tired because i was up till like 12:30 with my friend cuz i spent the night at her house and  we were really bored, and hyper!!! now i am at my aunts house with my mom and my baby cousin, she is sooooooooo cute, shes 2. my mom said she taught her to say hola today! it is so cute!!! but i am gonna go tho aight peace out!!!