Desparately alone.

Everybody's in trouble. No helping hand. No comforting words.

Stressed.  There's no one you can depend on after all.

Weakness shows. Do not hide; do not shirk.

I shall conquer it. I shall.

試用期

原來就是這樣了嗎?

山雨欲來的平靜。

＜思路跳掣＞ 

世上沒有事是無條件的。再親近的人對你再慷概也總會有"合理期望"。

姑且來一個暫無限期的試用期。當感情取代理性，就是試用期完結的時候。

＜思路再跳掣＞

總而言之，珍惜身邊人，不要濫用他們對你的包容和遷就。

工作真的太累人太煩人了。我想得太多。

TThis evening, I was left alone at home with a washing machine which had gone very wrong.  It washes, but doesn't drain.  After a few hours of patience restarting it, I decided to open its front door, even though it would flood the dining room. 

And at 11p.m.  I conquered it with 2 towels, a mob and a broom.  All I am left with include 1) a basketful of soaked laundry, 2) an exhausted self and 3) a washing machine which still doesn't work.

I would say my decision is rather stupid and I can't imagine what my parents would say when they come back from a long trip, can't wait to wash all their laundry.  (I sent them an sms to notify them....just hope father still remember how to read it)

I prefer flooding myself in laundry water to piles of MA/AA of BVI/Cayman Islands SPVs... which are now all waiting for me....

This is exactly what I need - bring me to a new perspective and let me be inspired.

There are so many gorgeous people out there; can I ever be one of them?

Valuable input, coaching - can I deliver what they expect from me? In turn, can I deliver what I expect from them?

Security, recognition and reassurance.

Gosh, too many mental needs.