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Friday, October 14, 2005

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 21:25:50 GMT

Its not the best thing to come home to. I walk in the door and find all my dogs things gone. At first i thought mom moved him upstairs with her so she can take care of him while i was gone. I thought he could get better. He was for awile so mabey he just isn't feeling good right now. And everyone told me it will all be alright. Buddys gone. My mom had to put him down. Everyone called and told me they were sorry he had to go.

I don't feel it. I just don't seem able to believe that hes gone. Like hes on this long vacation and mabey i won't see him for awhile but he will come back. But I know that isn't true. But I feel like he isn't even gone. My aunt said that when i finally axcept that he gone I won't feel like he is still here. And even if in my mind he is only on a vacation i still miss him. My dog drove me crazy all the time. Anyone who lives with me knows. But it just dosen't seem as bad as i thought i was now. Not to get mushy but isn't it funny how the things you thought were the most important thing can seem so insinifigant later on.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 22:01:39 GMT

I must of had a burst off good luck but now its all gone. I am having a pretty bad day. My dog is not getting better anymore. He started to but then just stoped and just got worst faster. My dog is a skinny dog he can't aford to lose weight but he isn't eating now. Hes like skin and bones now. My dog never barks. But he barking now because he is in pain. I feel like a big meanie not being able to help him. Plus all this rain isn't helping not only is it making him feel bad with his arthritus but it is making me depressed.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 21:25:31 GMT

About 4 enterys ago i talked about this guy who i liked but could go out with cuz he was moving...well thats all changed. But let me start from the begining. At gym this guy who i have know for a few weeks wanted to hook up with me and i was like well since i am not doing anything with guy i like (Anthony) i might as well get involved with other guys. But i told the guy that we'll see. I go home and go for a walk to Pick It Deli but instead Anthony finds me and we start talking. He just happens to ask about the guy going on in my life. I told him about the guy that asked me out. He told me he didn't want me going out with other guys. But i told him he isn't my boyfriend so he has no in what i do. So in the end he changes that by asking me out and ofcorse i said yes. Today was a good day i was asked out by two guys. And one just happen to be the exact guy i like. Later on when i went home i thought i was just going to do hw for once. But i ended getting a call from Pauly that she wanted to hang. I guess i am just going to pull another late night of work. But my day was so good it dosen't matter.

Friday, October 07, 2005

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 11:39:19 GMT

He is ALIVE!!!! My dog can live. There is a way to cure him. It going to take alot of work but we can do it. We have to keep giving him medison and make sure he drink enough water even if we have to force him. I feel mean having to get all stricked on him but if it is what i have to do to keep him alive then ill do it. I never knew how many people cared untill i went out on the street the other day and everyone was there wanting to know how i was and how buddy was. I want to thank everyone who was there for me. I hope i can return the favor.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 21:36:47 GMT

I am so SCARED. My dog Buddy is sick. We took him to the vets and whatever the test say will tell us if we have to put him down or not. I can't take it. I don't know if I want to be there when they tell us or not. Mom said if they say it is something serious they we have to put him down. And i know this because it was what we did with our cat but it dosen't make this easier. Mom almost put him down today but i stared to get so upset she decided to wait for the test results. Bit if the test results come back bad I am going to feel bad that i made him suffer longer. I don't know what i am going to do. I think I actualy want to go to school today to keep busy and not worry. But I don't want to start crying in school either. I also found out my dog has gone blind and death. This is so much to take i am going nuts. Mom kept asking me what I wanted to do. Whether or not we should put the dog down. What was i aspose to tell her. Kill him so he isn't suffering. I know it wrong to want him to keep living. But I couldn't say it so i let her make the decisions.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 21:11:41 GMT

I am going to a consert on wednesday don't ask me who playing because it a whole bunch of different bands. My sis is taking me which is cool. It will be fun. Went to great Adventure but i almost passed out. That was a crazy day. I have been faling behind in Language arts and i think i am already failing history. I think speech and drama is my favorite class so far. We get to do some awsome crap there. Life is getting bussy and i'd like to know when the day got so short? It use to be long enough for me to do everything i want now it can bearly get one thing done. I blame my loss of time on school. If it wasn't taking up so much time i could relax every once in awhile. Can't wait untill the weekend so i can sleep. even though i might not get alot it will be more then what i am getting now.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 18:57:57 GMT

I have a problem much. I am sick. Thats a probloem for me. I am going to great adventure tommorow. its isn't going to be all that fun if i don't feel good the whole time. It isn't contagious. I ain't even really sick yet. But i feel like i am going to sick. I feel sleep and lose my energy before i get sick. Plus all i can thick about is soup. And when ever i feel like that i get sick in a few days. So i have been doing everything i can to fight it off. I have eat health, start taking vitamens, get my sleep..well most of it anyways, and i have been drinking tea which help sour throught just incase the whatever i am getting comes with a sore through i am getting a head start. It isn't even like i can miss school. I already am way confused about whats going on. I don't need more by beeing absent. Not that skiping school isn't high on my wish list.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 21:12:45 GMT

I am going to be an aunt again with is some really good news. but i also found out my cousin dog died and loved that dog...proboly cuz i didn't have to take care of her.

I like this guy. He knows and he likes me too. but he doesn't want to get involved with anyone because he is leaving to california or something next summer. its so odd being together. It like we are always tring to spend time together but its weriod. cause we don't want to get to attatched or... I don't know it seem really complicated. Why could it be easy. He is one of the nicest guys i know. Why does he need to move away? But he has this great job oppertunity if he does so of course i am not going to compalin to him. Its so frustrating. Like tonight he walked me home and instead of going inside he wanted me to sit on the porch so we can talk.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 21:00:44 GMT

Can some one yell help for me i am to busy sleeping? I just had what was the most boring day of school. Were we just sit and the teachers go on and on. they just didn't seem to want to shut up. I think i might need to bring a pillow. Plus in the morning it like 10 degrees below zero. The temputer was like screw you i am going to be cold.

I think gym was the unforgetable subject. since my friend decided there isn't a beter way to say i've missed you there throwing me over his sholder and walking into the gym. It was his unique way of saying hi.

I have homework alread. I have to read and take notes. How lame is that? well off to go get it done.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 23:58:30 GMT

I have been really busy. Tomorrow is the last day for summer. WAAAAA! There is so much i want to do still. How do i cram it into a day.

I think some guy on my street likes me. Which is kind of odd because i think he has a girlfriend but there are in a time out or something. But speaking of the guys on the street. They made me play football with them. it was really fun and all but they actually tackled me so i was kind of afraid of the ball. Its isn't fun to have a bunch of people crash into you....well maybe that a lie. It was a bit fun.

mom had me go with her to this spa thing. It was torture. The massage lady tickled me more then relaxed me. Plus the put this thing that smelled like seaweed on my hands and some green goop on my face. I felt like a sea monster.