shit fuck.

Currently Listening Everything in Transit By Jack's Mannequin see related

Have you ever felt alone in a crowded room?

I'm caught somewhere between the dream world and reality, not sure really where. but I'm there. It doesn't seem like I'm going anywhere.

Old Habits Never Die

The smell of smoke and sulfur linger like consequence

a cool chill comes over me; the kind of chill that sparks curiousity

like a newborn, it intreigues me, pulling me closer, even closer still...

this is it, this is where i stood, i can feel it, i just can.

my legs stiffen, my heart is the timer of the explosive that is me.

thumping beating, churning faster and faster

yet i am still.

I've been here before

This used to be my home

Many months back... 8, 9, 10 months at the most....

Beauty in  Car Crash (In This Together)

Cold, desolate December nights

(Oh Dear God) You've had too much to drink

You've had too much to drink

Empty Bottles

Empty Promises

I see the light coming ( Oh Dear God)

This can't be happening to me

This can't be happening to me

(Not here) Not now

I'm losing the one I love

I don't want to see you like this

My hands are broken, You held on too tight

Theres beauty in a car crash

(I'm a man of my word, when I said I'd die for you

Just never thought it would be like this) x 3

The lights and sound are coming near

I look and smile, close my eyes to open them back up again

to see you staring back at me...

We're in this together (but never again) x3

Cold, Desolate December Nights

Oh dear god! You've had too much to drink

You've had too much to drink

We're in this together (But never again)

Never Again...

2 songs/ poems i wrote awhile ago....

Currently Listening Tales Told by Dead Friends By Mayday Parade see related

And I thought it would be funny to keep me hanging in suspense
Then I'd run over to your house and I'd scale the chain link fence
That borders your backyard and then I'd climb through your window
And I'd whisper that I loved you as you fall out of your clothes

And we'd lay there in the darkness like the dream of you I had
Where we captured all the fireflies and knew what time we had
Could be counted on our fingertips
That almost made you cry
But you let me hold you tightly as we said all our goodbyes and

May I say I loved you more?
May I say I loved you more?

And it must have been an hour that I clutched you in my arms
And I must have said the right things because you instantly felt warm
And you heard my heart stop beating and you wanted not to cry
As your sympathetic whispers, they told a tale of bad goodbyes

And you swore you heard me laughing and I swore I saw you smile
As the time we've spent together was meant to last us quite a while
As I take this piece of you with me I'll carry to my grave
And knowing that for someone you're an angel sent to save

(Keep breathing, my angel)
May I say I loved you more?
(If you go down, I go with you)
(keep breathing, just keep breathing)

Let's drink to the memories we shared
Down one to all the hopes and cares
Here's two for being unaware that you're gone
Because before too long you'll be a memory
 

Ditto.