LAIDE vs LIGHDEH: The life of an extroverted introvert. ( I asked my brother-toye, is my personality at home different from when am outside and he was like At home ur just a witch,outside ur a shy witch and i was like ill show u how much of a witch i am when i put some
dried pepper in d coffee am going to make for you.) I am an introvert first before any other thing, alot of people tend to misunderstand introverts , and when I meet such people they will usually either write me off as aloof and uninteresting, or get offended that I don't want to talk to them, or regard me as a weird and fascinating specimen in which case I will have to fend off endless questions about why I'm so quiet.which i absolutely detest because i know i am not quiet i just don't feel the need to yap consistently unless i have something to say. And there's also the fact that i am extremely shy,i know it doesn't come across in my blog that's because when am online and when i write i am LIGHDEH...the more extroverted version of myself.In my case, I've actually got both introverted and extroverted tendancies. Most of the time, interacting with other people is draining (though usually enjoyable), and being on my own is relaxing. Spending time on my own is usually good, but too much time in that sort of company starts getting to me after a while. It's just that the ratio that I'm comfortable at is still on the introverted end of things. Nevertheless, I enjoy surrounding myself with people that are more outgoing and extroverted than myself,because they make me talk and bring me out of my shell(more like cocoon).An LAIDE(introverted part of me) i find social situations draining, and i find being alone gives me energy whereas LIGHDEH(extroverted part of me) finds being alone draining, and gets energy by interacting with others. Being shy is about being uncomfortable in social situations, especially those where you're meeting new people.When i meet someone new i am LAIDE because am still very shy am still trying to figure out what the person is all about,what the person wants from me,if i can trust the person and theres a tendency not to want to open up to them till i feel very comfortable in their midst and then fun LIGHDEH comes out and that can't believe i am the same person.Introverts are not boring people,i know many introverts that are fun to be with. In my first year in university i only made like 5 friends out of 165 people in my class some of which i pass everyday and don't even bother to holler at.People mistook my introversion for being a snob and therefore thought it best to let me be and you know an introvert never makes the first move so i guess thats how first year ended and i never really got to know alot of people.It probably was also because i have to know someone has my best interest at hand before i show u all of me. I enjoy my alone time i really do,but i also enjoy having some fun once in a while.I've always felt like i had this dr. Jekyll and ms hyde thing going on.For as long as i can remember even way back in sec. school(boarding house) id be the only girl at the back(love the back seat) quiet,shy and reserved watching all the heffers trying to gain all the guys attention and the guys acting the fool as usual..And then back at dormitory its almost like on my way to dorm i stumbled on someones stash of paraga and shacked the hell out of the thing...Cause in dorm am wildin out and making everyone laugh with all my stories..putting toothpaste in people's eyes when they are asleep.causing wahala ...doing things you would never think i could and a totally different person from class.I used to feel i was pretending,and was disgusted with myself but ive come to realise that both personalities are me.Its all a process and when i meet people for the first time am LAIDE.Analysing,studying and when i feel comfortable with the person or the people that surround me i let my hair down and LIGHDEH comes out but that doesnt mean am still not analysing and studying.So when people start telling me,why cant u be more like ur online personality quite frankly it saddens me cause i cant even compare to my personality-how insane is that..Laide and lighdeh are two sides of me. So will people quit telling me to be more like my online personality..am an introvert first and you just have to accept me as that first before i can show u my extroverted side. And introverts are fun,study people before you assume.Not everybody likes running around like a chicken with their head cut off and being talkative and all..Introverts aren't boring or weird..they just love some alone time.
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