things that have once again happened in my abscense from xanga;

1) fbg tour-kickoff at danielpayne's house?! talk about awkward, especially how sam was there and being a dousche and such things. and how andrei, brianne's ex-boyfriend, was sitting about 2 feet away with us smoking cloves with billy bombthreat thompson. hoes. among various other things. the cops ended up coming because the set was too loud and they could hear the music all the way on the other side of town XDDD so yeah. the show itself was actually pretty lamez, [i mean srsly, who has a tour kickoff at someone's HOUSE with only them playing?! -_-] but i did get my hands on a lovely 'dear monsters' cd, so it was all worth it i suppose :]

2) hung out with sammy first at her house and then at mine for the rest of that weekend - we made the biggest cookie everrrrr, and it was quite fun :D then after that, heidi came over and we toured the ridges dressed as superheroes XDDD

little boy: whatcha doing?

us: saving the world.

little boy: *wide-eyed* you mean like superheroes do?!

us: yup!

little boy: *excited* for my birfday, i'm gonna get a batman costume, and my grandma's gonna be robin!

XDDDDDDDDDDDD

anywho, then after heids left, liz came over. she and nate had broken up at the fbg show, so we had a girl-fest, complete with watching a cinderella story, eating double chocolate chip frosting straight from the jar, drinking bubbly peach water, and coloring in my little pony coloring books =D <3

3) i've been reading and stuff a lot and have finished several good books - The Center of Everything (Moriarty) and Water for Elephants (Gruen) were my favorites. right now, i'm delving into a pile of about 6 or 7 jodie picoult [author of "my sister's keeper] books from sam's mom, and so far they've all been quite good as well. :]

4) my glasses just randomly busted the other day, so i went and got new ones :] they look almost identical to my old one's, though, so no one will probably be able to tell =P

5) i've taken more pics with my holga :]

6) this random girl from waverly that i've known since about seventh grade messaged me today on facebook. her name's heather, and while i don't exactly like her, i don't exactly not like her. she's kind of preppy, kind of fake, and, according to boys, kind of easy. i don't think she's actually done anything whore-ish; but this girl was so determined to go to waverly prom this year that when her boyfriend slept with another girl, she waved it off and "gave him a second chance" just so she could go to prom. [they broke up after prom. =P] anywho, heather messaged me today to tell me that she's COMING TO NU FOR THE REST OF HER HIGH SCHOOL CAREER! DX *cries* and even if she doesn't move to cf by the time school starts, she's going to drive here to come to school anyway just because she's "sick of everyone at waverly." gah! i don't want her to come here and pretend that we're all buddy-buddy, which is exactly what she's going to do. i'm perfectly fine with my place at nu, and i don't want her to come barging in and mess it up by pretending we're best friends because we used to go to school together, when in reality, we both really can't stand each other and we know it. ghisgyrbwrvxrwtybd. sorry. i know that i'm ranting, but i just can't help it. have you ever had two worlds and lived in both of them at the same time, but never had them overlap? that's what i have. and i like it like that. and when heather comes, she's going to throw my balance of my worlds all out of wack, because i never wanted that world that i used to live in to interefere with the one i live in now. it'd be so much different if sam or brianne or heids was coming, but no. instead it's heather. well, piss on that. gah. this probably isn't making much sense and is coming across as a little bitchy. -_- sorry.

7) today...er, yesterday, was 4th of july, so watching the fireworks and lounging is what i did all day :] also, it was my dad's birthday, so we celebrated that and stuff :] i also watched this way sweet movie called vantage point, which shows a scene of the us president getting shot from seven or so different perspectives. srsly, go watch it. it was awesome.

well, i suppose that's it for now.

yay summer?

i've gotten really good at saying goodbye over the past few years; i've said goodbye to a lot of good friendships (some by choice, others not) and to even some of my family members. i've said goodbye when people move, when they graduate, and when they just plain decide to leave. but i've never had to say goodbye like this before.

sam and i broke up last night, slash perhaps early this morning? i don't even know. the point is, it's what i wanted. well, of course i didn't *want* it to be like this, but it was like that. beforehand, i had had a long conversation with one of my very good friends who helped me realize a lot of things, one of the most important being this: i was sad more than i was happy. and that i deserved better than that. i told sam that the reason i wanted to break up was because of "not communicating well" and "other problems like that", but i would never tell him that the real reasons were much deeper and hurt a lot more than that.

so in case you were wondering, yeah. that's what happened. and i'm fine. i wouldn't mind a hug, though. i could always do with one of those.

summer is so close, yet so far away!

at this time of the school year, everything kind of falls apart with me but seemingly comes together at the same time. everyone is nice to everyone for the first time all year, because face it; we're all going to miss each other just a litttttttttle bit over the summer. but then we come back everyone will return back to the normal hating of one another XD but tis a nice feeling while it lasts, i suppose. on the other hand, i get really stressed out with homework and tests right around this time of year, which makes me pissy and irritable XD but i try not to focus on all the work, and instead how only a mere week separates us from summer and NU for a whole three months! =]

i think i'm actually going to miss it, though. i'll probably spend a good part of summer wishing i was there just so i could see everyone. i'm going to miss laughing and having a good time with people that are actually nice. and talking to people who actually understand. and in a strange way,  i think i'm actually going to miss christian's random "WHATITDO"s and trai's "OKAY"s. o__O strange, i know. it's just that right now i get all reminscent and sad about the year ending...but i guess it's okay to feel like that right now. everyone does in a way.

now, i must be off! i need to finish a buttload of homework so that i can pass the ninth grade XD