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| The past...bout' to finish my stuff, Andrick kept complaning on MSN said i'm not giv him comment so i log in to surft for update..heh
sumthing i realise after reading his blog, we used to make same mistake...as an end of a RELATIONSHIP...how long we should take to forget sumone? a relationship? and we never regret da we've actually wasting lots more time juz to get rid a relationship, and quite proud of it....="= guess this is y we'll never get improvement how to control ourself in a relationship.
most of the time when i update my blog, almost sad story less happiness...making buddies worried...aih..i'm 27 yrs old this year..still i'm seems like a kid who always makes ppl's worried..received a call from Andrick, a msg from met met..i'm so sorry aa...i'll be alrite after being emo emo act...hehe..kayz?
non of once i'm thinking to playing a relationship, but it always seems not so smooth...wonder is my charactor prob? or i'm juz not suitable to planing for long term relationship yet?
i'm kinda upset to asking myself why, why , why?
kayz.....no more emo emo....i shall go..it's quite late & i'm alone in the office now =) take care buddies ^^
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| Whre should we go further?"we're not happy"
This is how i feel...if u noe the' ulu yam dinner with bby', how is the story continute...i guess u'll said " u think is drama meh?" but it actually a sad ending....
it wasn't too long rite? if i remember? how long ? guess bout 6 ~ 7 months only...how could it seems like we been together bout years? still i remember how tender is the touch and how warm is the hug...whre it is now?
no expectation so no dissapointment...but it this still call a relationship? I've learned not to ask, not to wish, not to hope...as long as we wun fight.
sumthing get wrongs and i dunno wat it is? Thre is once, i'm thinking of going back to pg..the place whre full of sadness but also happiness..guys kept asking when I'll consider to go back? yes, thre is once when me & him having bad argument, tho i can't take it anymore and i'm really tired...guess? I love this person as i dun even noe how much i luv him..lots lots lots is lots......
once, i tho we should giv both a space to think of wat do we really want for both furture? but it failed.
definately, if i ask sumthing too sensitive then we will fight again...can't tell how exactly how i feel now..i hope to change and make it good but it juz stuck here..here..he..re...
i dunno how to talk so da not to make him feel gulty, feel bad and understand my actuall meaning is wanna solve and telling how i really feels...
it's not rite to talk i guess...and i'm started to worried how we should continute with this stuations?
guys..how long all of us not updated the blog ? once in a blue blue moon? Joe wasn't here, T2 wasn't here, Andrink, u not free to update i guess, sem not here, kim not here,..everyones juz busy with own biz ..
but i noe u guys care even we were 3 hrs from distance, not meeting each others like we used to be, no yam char no compaints, no drinking....damm i miss u guys and i miss our old school time's .
jokes, sharing..drinking weekdays/weekends...crazy ppls' like us...wonder y sum ppl's admiring our lifestyle?
i've forgot y i wanna leave pg? maybe i'm not too sad for it anymore...so time do really cure & heal from the bottom of my sadness. so whre is the next station i should go? ...further? same,yet.. not the rite timing to be back to our home town..not to said the same old story, juz i've not yet ready to be back ...same 2(if u guys were here i can imagine "...me 3, 4..5 then i 6..." funny) i'll miss everyones like always. next station, ShangHai?
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| Waitting for Dinner with bby at Ulu Yamkayz is Friday nite, leaving my customer place around 6pm...then back to Ampang hse to cleaning and collected sum cloths..It's been how long never dinner with bby? I can't remember dee...so i decided go straight to Ulu Yam to giv him a suprise..cuz he's really workaholic.
As usuall when i called him said i'm around..."Y are u here ar? wasting petrol only wor...tupid u" haha..same old same..well, bought one coke while on the way to his factory...ofcuz i brings sum Dunkkin Donuts too...he's busy busy busy...is already 10:54pm but i'm still waiting...haiz..i'm so hungry er...can eat an elephant dee wor...since he is so hardworking, nvm le..i wait for another while. called Andrick last nite, but he did not answer the call. Then called back this morning when i'm in office busying on paper works and rushing time, "hi" "hi" "who is this?" "who is this?" .."emm...who is this" " ur lao kong...="=" (i almost hang off the phone, suddenly i regonize this voice" "...u Andrick izit?" "gahahhahah ....ya la" damm he was so free to makes this joke while working..hah guess been month nerver hear of him dee...i was wonder how is his revenge plan? he sounds good. also received another called from Avelyn, wow is a good day...2 of my frens missing me..hehehhe while on the way to ulu yam, Ming Ann called me too, same Quetion " when u coming back to pg? so long never see u dee...." haha i missed them so much too. Cousin back from Canada, saw him once at mother's day at Aunt hse. getting mature is good' .......i'm so hungry dee.......gu gu gu~ .....hehe so take care everyones!!! miss u all so much. | | |
| it's been 3 weeks ++ in the new enviroment, new collegues and new culture...although ablyian's is tough but I've enjoying...new co. not bad but not as wat i really expected for..but seems goods Juz bit tired on traveling and "enjoying" sun bath daily.
woke up in the morning of 6:30am...makes me really tired cuz work start at 8:30am in Shah Alam...woow...guesss i'm stilll tuning the timing to wake up every days...but i like this job too anyhow ehheeheh...
Recently having a great argument with Bby, i tho it was our last dee....seriously i can't tolerance of any little blame, complain, misunderstanding, shouted & quarrel anymore..i've been tho of break off ( this is the shortest & easy way ) to live an easy life....i love to be single too sumtime, freedome, no pek che, no sorrow, no upset, need not to worried of other's, no complains, no blaming & most is enjoying workerholic life & frens. Too bad, I love him....we're happy , fun, enjoying each other accompany while we not having the quarrel...i asked myself should i try again and giv both of us a last chance, we seems non-stop arguing weekly and now almost daily?? I think, I should.
I've been thinking of when is the best time of married and having kids? cuz i'm worried of i can't really take care of the chidrens if my age gap was too far with them. So that, i've been set the bottom line at age 28, i shall settle down and planing for future. no suprise i'm 27 now...haha..i wonder he is the rite one to be with? although i love him so much....but as if his not the one, wat should i do? I've no time to waste for another few more yrs of few more months to be upset and sorrow then find a new one to be husband...i'm quite pek che....guess is bcuz i set the time limit at age 28..and it was so so soon. aaa..AAhhhhh...crazy.  New office Hartamas, Coffee Beans terrible jam in morning 7 am, MRR II highway
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| a week without workingI can't believe i'm quiting the Job in Ably after 5++ months, i do really love the job and thinking of to grown together with Ablyian's, juz sum inccident happen & makes me feel uncomfortable to stay again. so i leave & take another offer which actually better than existing co. ...the better offer definetly not the 1st reason of leaving Ably, believe me. Juz i dun like sum politics and sum attitude & little culture..this simple
But i wan to thanks for those who been helping me lots & so...thre's so many i wanted to said..i'm happy in da co. although i'm feel stress, i love the collegues although sum not trustable but no ones is perfect rite...hehehe Anyhow I already rest for one whole week, my New Job should start by next coming monday. The new company shos they sincerity to ask me to join they co. so I believe is a good start atleast. Went to visit Kim these few days, cuz dunno wat to do for the 1 week vacation period..hah..her son is so cute hehe..I reliased it's been so long me, Kim & Sem we never sit down & talks, i means gals talk. It seems lots of things happen on Sem recently. Perhaps she will tell me or talk to me when i meet her, guess very soon. I'll probably be back to Penang for next weekend with Saw Nee if she driving. She is my new superior also fren. If u wanna ask me how is my relationship, well, if thre is no argument the day's itself would be heaven...hah..we still trying to adjusting ourself to makes both comfortable. I love him anyhow. ^^ Have a nice days everyones...it really bored without working....
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