i keep thinking about you. it hurt so much to say goodbye to you buddy. everytime i close my eyes im transcended back to the service. i can smell the incense burning and remember the heaviness of grief that filled the air. i remember the pain in the faces of all of your friends, i remember the pain in the faces of your parents. i remember the hollowness of my heart and the lump in my throat that would not go away no matter how much i attempted to supress it. it seemed that the more i fought to keep the tears away the more i had to stop feeling. finally it dawned on me that i was tired of fighting ----- i wanted to feel this pain----i realize that emotions, happiness, anger, and even pain--- these things validate me. these things validate life. this pain i felt was a testament of what you meant to me--what you meant to all of us. you have touched so many lives in your time here and i am blessed to have the privilege of knowing you. your friend huy couldnt have said it any better--to know you was to love you.
ive always found humor to be therapeutic and i hope that it will not fail me --
you are the most dependable and consistent person ive ever encountered. i realized that i met you when i was 5. and since that time, there are three things about you that have never changed.
1. your hair---ever since that first day i met you, your hair has never changed, the little boy with the bangs. always the same haircut....
2. your height--out of the 17 years that you have been a part of my life --- i dont think you have grown an inch. just kidding---you grew, but so did the rest of us. 
3. your heart-the size of your heart was incredible. the love for your family, friends and life has never changed. the size of your heart is what made you a giant among us.
theres no words i can say nor is there any list that we can compile that will do justice for the person that you were and the life that you lived. in a way this attempt at saying goodbye is my own way of making myself feel better. thank you for being my friend. thank you for giving us the best of you.
love,
kat | 
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