HIATUS

Will be back "soon", prelims here I come. Unless there's something exciting/important/newsworthy.
Oh, now YOU can take a break from spying on my life.

Last words,

1. Holland V Chicken Cutlet + John's birthday party + Shots + Guitar Hero + Mahjong
2. Saturday Study-School + Emms Jamie Loks + Dover Chicken rice + Goodies from Billy's
3. Hokkien Mee + KBP + Nata De Coco + Clorets

Pictures credits to PAM

Math @ NL

PCCG @ 6.08

Haha some boygirlband

Mahjong Fest

Happy Birthday John Jacob Jingle Hymer Smith! My GP articles are better than yours!!!

Spicy Shots

Loks pretending heh and Jamie playing with her eyebrow

Perfect hairrrr!!!! Hahahaha, laugh all you want. Curses, Elvin!

P.S. Can't wait for Christmas, yet again!!!!

Kay, off to BE STUDIOUS

xoxo, byeee

Be careful what you wish for

Feeling: Disappointed

Hehe

1. HOG FINISHED :D Loved it soooo muchos
2. Hub with Emms and Shu + Mango + Grapes + Pear + Almond Jelly + Petit Brunch + Honeydew
3. KAP with Emms + Tuition with Gina & Loks
4. My revision checklist appears to be a diminishing curve

LURVE IT I wanna watch Moonlight Resonance nooow

WHUTEVER TO YOU you are soooo childish I think you're only 3 years old. I can't be bothered with you and you anymore I hope after today I won't have to bring anymore of this shit up.

Anyway, I have a biology test on friday!!! I've started studying since last week and I can't seem to get the terms and analogies into my head :( Ahhhhhh Stupid organisation and control of the prokaryotic and eukaryotic genome is confusing me with all the different subtopics!!! :S Isolating cloning and sequence isn't so bad I hope I do well for this test!!!

Oh and I think I'll be coming here less :S I'm trying to stay away from the computer and spend more time with my notes instead. Heh, kay I'm off! xoxo

A + G tmr!!! :) Can't wait.

Starry, starry night

Feeling: Peaceful and Nostalgic 

Currently listening to: Vincent - Don Mclean

For they could not love you, but still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight, on that starry starry night
You took your life as lovers often do,
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

This song is so sad but I love it to bits. <3 It depicts sacrifice, faith, regret, and a whole lot more, with lots of love.

1. Tom yam macaroni
2.  KAP with Emmsy + _____ with Chicken Pie Salad and Sushi
3. Ouch
4. BK onion rings with Emmsy + Genome
5. More Heart of Greed :D Gotta love XB missed CSI :(
6. "Sesame Chicken" + Durian
7. CHEER UP YOU FATTY<3

Omg my list is more and more to be FOOD! Die.

On a heavier note, I wish you'd stop criticising me, you've been doing that since the day you knew me, in every possible way, though I don't know if you do it to others as well. But if you're not tired of doing so, I'm tired of watching and hearing you do so. You always think you're so smart, maybe IQ wise you are but you have zero EQ. ZERO, hurry on and go home!

Gosh this para is so not connected to the rest of my entry, but urgh some people really don't know when to stop.

Starry starry night, paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills, sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills, in colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for you sanity How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how, perhaps they'll listen now

Starry starry night, flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colors changing hue, morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand

Roar dread school dread school dread school. Want to roll around in bed. Want to eat scrambled eggs and ham. Want to watch Nigella and Jamie Oliver and HOG. Want to sleep forever. Can't wait, for lots of stuff. :)

Ah love this song so much, HOG ftw! :D I feel like I'm in ____. So nostalgic, omg wake up! Okay, I think I better crash early today I'm sleepy already. Goodnight y'all. :)

You always know me so well, and I know you always will. Still, your love was true

They would not listen they're not listening still
Perhaps they never will.

When it all falls apart

Feeling: Calm

Currently listening to: When it all falls apart - The Veronicas

I'm having the day from hell,
it was all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
'cause baby

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
'cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
'cause baby

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
'cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again

Falls apart
Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up

I remember wanting to blog about a bad thursday I remember typing the whole shit I remember it closing down on me but I remember feeling better after pouring out. I don't want to remember anything else

I met Jamie to run or somewhat after htht-ing in Holland V and it felt good to finally caught up with her! Ever since she's been mia-ing hahaha, Jamie you need to study more with us! :) So I got home and hurriedly changed into my comfy running attire and made my way planning to meet Jamiepok along bukit timah road. I ran to Apple Center and it started to pour cats and dogs! :( But still I decided to carry on running since I was already drenched so I continued to run towards sixth avenue. The lightning kinda freaked me out so I stopped by the bus stop to seek some shelter. Though it was not much because the rain still came pouring into the bus stop and I sat there continuing to get drenched. So my hair was a wet mop, my white mg pe tshirt making me look obscene and my shoes soaked with water enough to fill a whole jug. The feeling sucked so bad, when all I wanted was to run, as it had always helped me to think things properly and it made me feel loads better. But I couldn't even run proper! Okay but sitting at the bus stop waiting for the rain to stop for a reaaally long time was kinda enjoyable. I liked it that I was finally alone from everything and I didn't need to bother about the people around me because I don't know them.

The funny part was when Jamie came with Fairul in the car looking for me! Haha, when Fairul drove past both of us pointed at one another! Haha that scene was really funny, I'll never forget the expression on Jamie's face. Jamie and I were so disappointed we couldn't get to run cause the rain refused to stop. So she dropped me off home :) I was lazy to dry myself instead I went to have my dinner with mou and I told her everything. Thanks so much mou :D Everything you said made so much sense and I'm so glad that I have such a clever sister like you. Even though some people like to compare us both and ask me why am I so much less intelligent than you are "jokingly" (hm maybe they're not even joking), I know it is only cause you really are. I love you <3

I don't want to keep thinking about such things anymore. That thursday I learnt that as long as I keep bearing the grudge in my heart I will never move on. It will remain there forever until I let it go it will only obstruct my way and it will sink even deeper more than ever. It's like I knew this, all the long, it was just that I refuse to let myself know that I did. I just didn't want to let the grudge go because I was being selfish. But it is just so difficult for me to, especially right now, after so much has happened. I'm so tired of trying to put in effort in everything I do, when no one cares that I do. I'm so sick of telling people what has happened when they ask me what's wrong because I feel foolish saying such an immature matter that is sucking energy out of me for no fair reason. I know I'm being unfair to some of my friends who really want to know what is going on but I really don't want to talk about it. I'm so tired right now and I really have other things to care about more.

I just want to do something right for once in my life. Still, at least the past two days got better :) Though my puffy eyes are still kinda swollen it is kinda freaky that I have fat eyes :S

1. Hubbing with Shu and Emms
2, Golden Rooster with Gina 
3. KAP after school with Jamie
4. Fish noodle soup
5. Thank you Rach for friday
6. Economics Mock Exam
7. Sexyloves + Val + HollandV Crystal Jade Beef La Mian and Xialongbao + Frolick + Studying in school
8. Bakutteh + Tom Yam fish Yum

Gosh, my list talks about food more than anything :S Anyway, econs mock today was _____. Okay I only had a few pieces of the jigsaw to my essay answers and it was very much less complete :S Crystal Jade with the girls was really yummy and fun :) It had been so long since we ate crystal jade :D I managed to do quite a bit of work today :) Well, at least much more than my usual saturdays. :D And the girls made it much more fun <3 The school was really quiet and breezy real conducive for studying, and we're thinking of coming back every saturday to study! :D The ruggers had a match today vs republic poly and I think some of them looked kinda ____. Preggers came to pick me up :D

YAY I HAVE HEART OF GREED DVD im going to finish watching EVERYTHING! hahahaha it's way too exciting I really love xiaobao <3333 Shuwen have you removed shuibaibai from this world! Hahahaha oh and if you watch somemore cherry's really pretty haha her nose looks fake  

REALLY tired from today gonna crash soon! xoxo

Up and only up from here

ONE TWO THREE FOUR

Feeling: Everything  but

Currently listening to: We all need - Esterlyn

And we all need faith- the faith to love all that you
We all need love when there's no hope beyond the door
And we all need hope- the hope to live for something more

I see the fear that's in your eyes
Feel the pain you try to hide
It's all right- its all right
I can see you on your knees
Don't give up cuz it will be alright alright
And You'll be alright - You'll be alright alright

I finished a hell of an entry and the window just closed on me. Today is officially the worst day in history for me ever. EVER. I started the entry with a hope that the last two hours of the 10th of july 2008 does not screw up anymore than it has since 12 a.m. last night. And looks like I spoke too soon. I wanted to type it all again but I'm too tired and frustrated and upset to type anything already. I will not try to hope for a better day tomorrow cause I know things will not be better because I never do anything right. I just want to ask for air so that I can breathe properly again.

The rain drenched me inside out. My eyes can't puff anymore than they have. They swell and hurt so bad I hope I can see tomorrow. I'm too tired to live

Stop twitching

On a lighter note,
Happy 18th birthday Bernice and Kahhwee

If it isn't worth it, it isn't. Thanks A, mou, jamie, emms, enshen

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