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Name: Sara
Interests: i have a very wide range of interests. books, movies, music of all types. art--mostly stuff that's labled "morbid" or that goes against the traditional. not necessarily modern, by any means. friends. i have an unfathomable range of types of friends. and i'm beginning to become terrible at keeping up with all of them. it's nearly impossible.
Expertise: procrastination. i'm the world's leading expert on that. i didn't get my title of "queen of procrastination" for nothing. played soccer for 7+ years and god do i miss it. i'm pretty good at making my life 10 times more difficult than could be imagined. also, i'm a perfectionist when it comes to screwing myself over financially. damn whoever it was that invented credit cards!!
Occupation: Unemployed/Between Jobs
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
MSN: saramarie26@hotmail.com
Member Since:
11/18/2004
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| ok, nobody's using xanga anymore so if you wanna know what's going on, go to my facebook or myspace page. p.s. you're not gonna want to miss what happens on new year's to me... | | |
| 24 doesn't feel any different. just a different age for me to remember for the next year. it was a pretty good b-day, despite having to work yesterday. my man comes home from training in chicago tonight. only one more week to go and he'll be home everyday. didn't think this would be so hard to deal with 3 whole, horrible weeks of having john gone. feels like months. but i am picking him up from the michigan city station after i get off work tonight. i cannot wait. the next 12 hours couldn't go any slower... i'll be completely moved out of the dreaded apartment after this weekend. that will be a huge stressor ending. then i have to deal with a bazillion other issues right now. i hate bills. and job hunting. dammit. | | |
| that which doesn't kill me makes me stronger. that which doesn't kill me makes me stronger. that which doesn't kill me makes me stronger. that which doesn't kill me makes me stronger. that which doesn't kill me makes me stronger. eventually... one of these things is going to kill me. i have to say, if it weren't for the new, amazing boyfriend in my life (who is not a douche bag, eleven years older than me with 4 children, and a loser) i'd already have gone off the deep end. it's hard enough even with john's support. so props to him for putting up with me thus far and holding onto my sanity for me. there's not enough time or space on here to explain all the craziness that's been my life the past 3 months alone. that saying that goes something like "when you're down, up is the only way you can go..." yeah. fuck that. there is no proverbial end to what can go wrong in my life. so, i'm on my guard waiting for the next tidal wave to come thru. this year needs to end in a hurry. i think i'll skip new year's this year. cuz the previous one, well, it made me think that this year was going to be a major turning point. what a disappointment. i would never wish a year like this one on anybody else. | | |
| let the amazement and exploring and great times commence! what a difference from the previous time i posted. got a job at a gas station. not exactly my ideal career, but it's something different, lacking in responsibilities and it provides at least a little income. met a guy... we work together at the said gas station. within minutes we were both interested, come to find out a week later. it's so funny how things work out sometimes. i'd recently sworn off all men for the next year or two of my life. need a break from the drama and need to take care of myself. but, that proverbial man, that everyone talks about, walked into my life. i cannot believe it. i couldn't ask for anything better right now. we're taking things slow, which is ideal and very nice for a change. i never knew a kiss could be so amazing. (no, i don't know about anything else. yet.) *sigh* everyday, i cannot wait for what's next. i can't wait to hear new things about john and his life. i've never been so devoted timewise to anyone. i want to spend each and every moment with him. i want to be a great lover to him. and it's especially wonderful that i'm with someone that's a "giver" and not so much a taker. i'm not going to make any promises or absolutes here cuz i don't want to jinx a good thing. all i can say is, i continue to hope for the kind of relationship i've always dreamed of. | | |
| the fear and desperation and anger has set in... | | |
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