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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 22:27:36 GMT

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 22:04:16 GMT

I normally do not do these things - but thanks to Krista - here it is! :)

10 years ago:

I was becoming a teenager. 13. geesh
Living with my parents and 3 brothers in Lee's Summit
Going to school........JUNIOR HIGH
began smoking cigerettes

5 years ago:

Fresh out of high school
Planning a wedding to Kevin. Good god in heaven.
Working at Firstar Bank and Minsky's Pizza
Doing the show Godspell. Where I met so many amazing people!
My dad had a massive stroke and we learned ....A lot.

1 year ago:

Shawn Moulin was my new boyfriend
I lived in a house in Grandview with 7 other people
I was the maid of honor at 2 of my roommates wedding.
I was working at PH call center (DAMN IT!) and UMB ugggg
I became good friends with the Flanders. I LOVE YOU GUYS

Yesterday:

Worked..all damn day.
Found out the roommate that is supposed to move in tomorrow...ISN'T!
I cried A LOT
I prayed A lot.

5 songs you know all the words too:

Bless the Broken Road-Rascall Flatts
Any Man Of Mine- shania Twain
The Woman In me- Shania Twain
Beautiful Soul-Jesse McCartney
Let It Be- The Beatles

5 snacks you love:

Reeses' Peanut Butter Cups
Cheetos
Hoho's
Ice Cream
Nacho's

5 things that make you happy:

my friends...my real friends.
My relationship with God
Music, and singing
Cheesy romatic movies that make me get all teary eyed!
Laughing and the sound of laughter!

5 people that you would want to go on a fictional date with:

Matt Damon
Orlando Bloom
Shane West
Kenny Chesney
Ryan Gosling.

5 of your favorite T.V. shows

ER
Extreme Makeover:home edition
CSI the original CSI
Desperate Housewives
Friends

6 people you are taggin to do this too:

Dan
Lucy
Brandon
Dehmer
Nic
anyone who really wants to.

Fantastic. Wonderful.

Back to my tears thanks.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 22:08:12 GMT

A dedication to my Mentor. Dan Flanders.

Dan you taught me so many awesome things. How would I ever begin to thank you. Now I have even earned a nick name after you in your honor. Dan Jr. Yes life is good.

So on a side note..can I ask some opinion's here. The old roommate Joe, has apparently decided he doesn't need to pay bills anymore. I about lost it last night when I got the new bills for the month to discover they had NEVER BEEN PAID last month. I don't know why I bothered believing him, I should've known he would do it again. What do I do now?

awkward moment at work today. I flung lasagna on my boss. That can't be good.

Do you ever wonder why it seems friends can't stay friends forever? What happens? What comes between everyone? Why does everything have to turn into a competition when it should just be ...what it is!? What has the world come to?

I am going to sit and ponder now, and listen to some sad and depressing country tunes. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Carrie

Monday, September 19, 2005

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 18:38:00 GMT

Hello.

Here I sit in the hole with my dear friend Matt. That sounds creepy says Matt.

Here we are sitting in OUR office at pizza slut. Ahhhh...sigh. It's good to be here...again.

I am so happy that Matt has met someone. she's so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Especially when he does something sweet and she blushes. awwwwwwwwwwww!!!

So..it's been a minute since I've posted...what to say...

I found a new roommate and his name is Harley. Yes it really is Harley. He's way cool! I am excited. My new job is going good. I like it a lot there and all of the people get along really well and it's fun! The bosses are good.

I can't seem to think of anything to post here...so I am going to continue sitting back and chilling with Matt on the down low. keeping it cool and quiet.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 09:20:11 GMT

I miss fall. I dislike this hot humid crap.

Does anyone know anyone looking for a place to live? Apparently my roommate is moving out this weekend. So nice of him to give me the essential time I need. I've not found someone yet to replace him. I am really hoping with Summer.

Dan is leaving me. Pizza Hut will simply not be the same. After arguing with the boss yesterday it occured to me one can do nothing right at pizza hut. You're either grading too hard, too light...but never right. I shouldn't care right?

anyway..not a whole lot to say. I am sleepy. I have 2 days left in the hell hole I call UMB. Believe me I am ready. I am nervous, but very excited.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 19:09:44 GMT

Life is interesting.

So this week....My big gay roommate, informed me he's moving out. How does one respond to this lightly? I ask you? He, who pressured me to move in with him....before I was really ready...2 months later suddenly can't afford it and is "moving" out.

Interesting.

Tonight will be a sad one for me. My very old and good friend Anthony Mazzerella died in Iraq last week. I've been dealing ok with his death, but truthfully I am pissed. He was such a good man. I know he's in a better place now but damnit it isn't fair. His visitation is tonight and I am not sure how I am going to handle this. I really miss him. He was one of the few people in my life that really make my heart smile.

As it turns out at the call center...high school bull shit rumors continue to fly. One day they will push the wrong button and see the real me. In the meantime i will say this in my own defense...I didn't ask for that. They asked me. It was not a reward. More importantly, if you think it was ...grow a fucking pair and say it to my fucking face. IF you know me at all...you know i am not a back stabber, nor do I lie. Thanks for your friendship and moral support.

On a side note..I'd like to say Thanks to those people that actually do care about me, and actually are my friends. Thanks for your support while my dad was in the hospital and through Anthony's death. It means a lot to me.

Carrie

Friday, June 24, 2005

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 16:41:18 GMT

weird days these are!

i am at work...surprise and another big surprise. Guess what? our computers crashed again. I love staying late so much at my job and then rushing off to pizza hut to deal with the friendliest people out there. Man life is good.

For those of you wondering why i haven't been speaking..yes Something has happened, and no i don't really want to talk about it. I think i am going to be ok now though.

peace-

carrie

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Thu, 26 May 2005 09:50:11 GMT

i'd like to title this speechless.

Lots of days i don't write anything on here because i'd rather just read what ya'll have to say. This time i am speechless.

There is someone i see all the time that i used to respect a lot. To think he could do something that cruel to someone he wanted so badly is upsetting to me. All i really want to say is that you aren't always going to have options. you lost out on the best end of that deal and i think you know you did. there won't always be a prize behind door number 1 and door number 2. If you're happy, then i am happy for you, but i have to ask do you have any idea what you did to her? you took an already vulnerable heart that had grown to trust and take comfort in you and you broke it. You lied to it and twisted it. Did you mean to? no. You never mean to....I am sorry if this hurts you, but open your eyes. I think people make mistakes all the time. People can be cruel unintentionally or very intentionally. To be accepted into your group one has to be a certain height, weight and appearance. You've made that obvious.

Ordinarily i would take your side and stand up for you, but you were wrong this time and i feel bad that i encouraged you because she's a good person and you threw her away. I know how that feels and being a piece of garbage hurts like you can't imagine. she pushed you away because she knew you'd hurt her and you proved that you wouldn't then threw her away.

I am done.

Friday, May 06, 2005

Fri, 06 May 2005 11:05:11 GMT

Sometimes in life things happen for an unexplainable reason. Very few times in my life have i been really surprised. Last night was the surprise of the year for me. have you ever had someone totally touch your heart in a way you never thought possible?

Of course this will only lead to more confusion, and more stress in the long run, but why not enjoy it while it's there

TGIF! so glad it's friday!

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 18:12:57 GMT

done.

done being nice to people that want to be jerks in return.

yay. going to cook out. have a great night ya'll.

today i feel like heavy metal is appropriate for my mood.