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okay so everyone has told me "follow your heart".  when i finally do... what do people do? they cruicify me for it and give me ultimatums.  i cannot believe that two of my best friends told me that they would not support me in my decisions, told me that i was stupid, called me an idiot, and told me that i need help.  im going to follow my heart no matter what anyone says and if that is to a certain someone then thats who its too and im sorry if people dont agree with it but to be honest i dont give a shit anymore what other people think.  if people wanna hate me for a decision that i am making then so be it.  i've made my final decision and nothings going to change that. 

for those of you who were there for me today and understand me thank you so much.  i wouldnt have been able to make it through the day without u guys!! dani, meg, lisa, and sarah thank you guys soo much.  you have no idea how much you have helped me.

heres a quote to think about...
"the truest friends are the ones who walk in when the rest of the world turns its back and walks out on you"

idk what my thing with horoscopes is lately but this is my one for today...

Someone may be acting confusing, but you've only yourself to blame if you allow yourself to be deluded. Some serious honesty cuts through the ambient noise.

goodness.... im going to school now lol!! getaway from this creepy stuff... why are they seeming so close to acutality right now?  grr.....  ill write more about whats goin on when i get home! love yall! muah!

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okay so once again... looking at my horoscopes.  this is really creepy.

You're rediscovering a part of your heart that you'd hidden away from yourself for a long time. Welcome it back and let it grow -- you'll be pleasantly shocked by how good you feel.

now...  ive said it in the past and ill say it agian... HOROSCOPES ARE CREEPY WHEN THEYRE RIGHT!!! lol  i hope its completely right case i wanna feel good again

school was awesome today.  i didnt do anything!! in history all we did was take notes, dance class we watched center stage ((best movie ever)), in ethics were watching John Q,  math i talked to kels an george the whole time ((we figured out that we all need to study for this exam)) , english we talked the whole time about nothing, and in spanish she tried to make us learn but it was the last class and there was no hope for me! lol 

then i went over brians and jus spent quality time w/him.  quality time is the best...  it makes me smile...   grr... i want my horoscope to be right.....

alrighty well nothin else really happened so im gonna go!!! ill talk to you all later!! muah!!

oh yeah!! before i forget... tomorrow i have a job interview at subway right after school.  megan just got a job there and now i might be getting one!! im so excited!!! ahh!!!

alrighty so now im leaving!! lol later!!

3 DAYS TIL OC W/MEGAN!!! SOOOOO EXCITED!!  were gonna have a blast girl!!

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okay so yeahh.. .this weekend... the only word to describe it was amazing.  well... except for friday... which still wasnt all that bad. 

Friday i went out to dinner w/my dad an jess to Fridays.  hehe... Went to Fridays on Friday... ANYWAY! lol.  umm... then mrs. suzzette and mr. dave came and met us w/my mom. Then nothin special happened and i jus went home. 

Saturday was awesome! lol.  Well, saturday night was awesome. lol.  Saturday morning i worked... it was just me and kendal but we busted our butts an got everything done... and we got everything done good! lol.  Then i went and picked brian up and we came back here.  we jus chilled for a lil while.  Then we decided to go get meg and nick and some.... CRABS!!! lol... first time this year i had crabs and they were amazing! lol.. then... we all went swimming... i became a human rag doll... i've never been thrown around so much in my pool the entire time i've had it as i have these past two days lol.  so anyway... after we got outa the pool an dried off... we watched ladder 49.  or at least we started to... before we had to leave.  i took everyone home, but me an brian got dunkin donuts! lol... i love their coolatta things... the mango one is to die for! lol...  so i dropped him off an went home.. got home around 12 and i was asleep by 12:30 ((after i got off the phone))... lol swimming takes a lot outa you!! lol

Sunday was awesome too! lol.. once again, i had to work, but i was supposed to get off at 4:30, but we were so slow that Jason let me go at 1:30 lol... amazing! lol i was so happy... so i picked brian up from work and then we went back to his house.  we waited for everyone else to get home so we could go to Woz's grad party but we got impatient after waiting like an hour and a half so we jus came back to my house and swam.  we were gonna leave to go back over there but my mom needed hamburgers and buns so we went to bj's lol.  fun stuff! lol  then we took a drive. 

i had sooo much fun this weeked... but tomorrow... its back to reality.  god i dont wanna go! i hate reality... fantasy is so much better.  only 7 school days and 3 days of exams... then its summer.  god i hope this summer rocks.. it needs to! lol idk... we'll see how it goes. 

ocean city next weekend w/megan... were gonna have fun! lol its lk 4 school's senior week.  bel air, perry hall, cmw, and tech.  gonna be mad fun.  i need to get outa bel air.  if i dont im gonna explode! lol.

cheerleading is goin good... got varsity captain.  there's 6 of us but i think it'll be good.  we all will work together to make the squad better.  we're gonna rock this year.  theres gonne be 6 captains for fall.... but by winter theres only gonna be 3 of us.  me, mary, and christina.  jen, alex, and chrissy arent stayin thru the whole year.  im excited... im not gonna put up w/the drama we had last year tho.  no way! lol there was wayyy too much for any of us to handle.  im surprised half the girls came back it was so bad.  idk.

well im gonna go write my dance critique and see what i can do the last day of my 3 day weekend.  love yall! muah!

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okay so its 6:50 in the morning and im checking my e-mails.. yes i kno im a lil on the weird side but hey.... YA GOTTA LOVE ME! lol... anyways! i was lookin at my horoscope and this is what i got for yesterday... its kinda creepy..

pay attention and you'll suddenly see a way that a friend can help you out in the realm of romance -- or vice versa.  When it finally occurs to you, you'll be surprised at how obvious it is.

horoscopes have been right on the money for me lately.  hmm....

so then... heres my one for today... STILL extra creepy....

Work, status and leadership are in the stars, leaving little room for love, or so it would seem.  However making an effort to re-envision your role in the romantic sphere can give you the kind of direction you need.

GRR!!! things are soo weird lately... why cant they just go back to normal??

on the other hand... cheerleading is going pretty well.  im having fun.  its the only way i can escape everyday reality.  unfortunately tonight is the last night until we start up again at the end of summer.... idk what i'll do then.  i need to find something that will help me get away from my life... any ideas lemme know