Like a cloud
a dusty mirror
It disappears
You disappear
All the sudden
all alone
I'm calling

To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever. You don’t get over it because ‘it’ is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made less by anything. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no-one else can fit it. Why would I want them to?

i swear i'm not a comment whore but-

Bus ride
Then i'm cross-town
I take my seat
And watch the streets go by
Traffic lights
Then a left hand turn
I'm almost to the street where you live on

I'm jealous of your legs
The color of your car
Your picture on the page
Dumb and beautiful

What am I doing here
If you're not with me?
What have I got to live for, if it's just my own dream
Take it back to the beginning, back to the start
When gravity's pulling, you're still holding my heart
You come crashing down

Well drop me a line with a hook and some raw bleeding bait

Well I'm uncaught and still swimming alone in the lake

Shimmering under the moon made of anger and hate

I was the one who was always repeating it
Shimmering like a penny out of reach in the subway grate

You're breathing positive, negetive, positive, negetive
I'm breathing positive, negetive, positive, negetive

 Good morning, sunshine, awake when the sun hits the sky.
Look up the sounds that surround the day you died.

are you growing old of my jealousy

or does it fuel the fire

 See i trust you but it's getting to me-

may the innocent walk the wire.

Driving fast
to impress
or not
Words just slip
or trip over
over lips

Day out, day in
recycle bins
cash out, cash in
debit pins
Day out, day in
the paper cuts my skin again
skin again

 Her worlds a blur about her
The girls not green
She’s got no clue
They’re whispering about her
She’s got no clue
She’s never quite sure what to do
With her hands
In social
situations

and sometimes i just get so god damn sick of myself; that the only thing to do is leave as much of my stomache as i can in the bathroom.

Can't you see the sky is not the limit no more?
I can see the elevator crashed the floor
I can still see yesterday sailing away
Seven billion people who got nothing to say

"we were having one of those..moments, you know? the ones you see in the movies. i didn't think much of it.finally he leaned real close to me and whispered, "i've heard love is only friendship caught on fire." so i did the only thing i knew how to do. i laughed and laughed and laughed, partly at the look on his face, but mostly because i realized i was now part of a cliche that i had always hated.Love."

You've got magic inside your finger tips
its leaking out all over my skin

Get off your filthy knees
I taste his skin on your breath and lips
so I suggest that you stop breathing

And if the earth stopped spinning tomorrow
I'm pretty sure that you'd blame it all on me
and tell me I'm the reason that we're all going to hell
and then try to save the world all by yourself

 You come off strong,
And you’re expected to be more than what they said you were
You come off strong but I think you're hiding so much more from me.
How many walls do I have to break to get to you?

This is not my buisness
I don't really want to live like this
In distraction

You've got them on your side
and they wont change their minds
now its over
and im feeling like we've missed out on everything
i just hope its worth the fight

 I keep a note that I wrote on a taxi receipt
It says, "Don't listen to anybody other than me"
I hit the big time for a nominal fee
But you lose a friend in the end for every dream that you see come true

oh, by the way. happy holidays.

lipstick on my face

thunder in the sky

the shades are drawn, but don't ask me why

  Tell me again that part how you didn't feel a thing
 you know,that part about how you never actually really ever did

i would write it on a napkin and leave it at the cafe

i would use my best cursive and leave it in a book

i would stand on my roof and leave it for the birds to sing

i would wave your love around like i had nothing left to lose

i would, if i could.

So I Walk Right Up To You
And You Walk All Over Me
And I Ask You What You Want
And You Tell Me What You Need
Can't You Feel It All Come Down
Can't You Hear It All Around
At The Place Where Lost Is Found

You Could Never Want Me
The Same Way I Want You

I share with complete strangers my most personal of pleasures.
I scribble tidbits of useless mind info- trash, treasure.
Spend hours, at my leisure, like sharpened precise tweezers.