what's this society becoming?

hmm,amath really sucked. ytd,came back fromt rng and tuition and i was totally beat.i couldnt really go through amath properly and i wa sfalling asleep on the table.haha.whats new man.so i decided to sleep,and wake up at 4am in the morning.haha.and SURPRISINGLY,i managed to.whaooo.*applause applause* i actually achieved smth.haha.

butttt,i realised that,IF i didnt wake up,it would be better.cos i think i canught a cold,so i was sneezing all the way during amath and my eyes felt watery and tired.i couldnt stop yawning and my mind just went blank.so i could do the more diff questions,and i couldnt do the stupid easy questions.i dont knwo why,it was like mental block.and freakingly,i could do it AFTER the test.whao,me,whao.

haha.this is completely random,but i was just penning down my thoughts during hist.

i feel that this society has become, one that tests matter too much to a person.and parents think too highly on the results/outcomes, reather than the process. now,why is that? are the results truly a complete reflection on how good, intelligent/smart one is? are the results the only way to compare one's brilliance? i dont know. of course,personally i disagree. but somehow,i dont see why parents get so worked up on bad results. and its merely a TEST.just a stupid test. and it causes so much friction in the family. and now,i have realised,that i am actually scared of telling my mom i got a B for a test.cos she'll just scream. DUDE.I DONT KNOW SINCE WHEN DID A 'B' BECAME SO TERRIFYING.yea, and as time passes,i also realise, that i am afraid,of not getting an A.

why did i become so study/results orientated? is it under the influence of my class,or have i really changed. and as a matter of factly, it MATTERS to me that i dont get an A. i mean,HUH.I THINK I NEED TO SPANK MYSELF.

haha,i think this posts sounds weird and confusing.maybe cos im just typing whatever that actually springs to my mind now.

anyway,i LOVE talking to MS HU.[ps, the one that is always appearing weirdly on my photos.hahaha.] she's so easy to confide into, and you do not actually feel a barrier when you converse withher.

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