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fattie123
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Name: you'll never guess..
Gender: Female
Interests: dying to be skinny, and perfect. one day i will be. i just have to stay concentrated.
Expertise: ...not eating
Message: message me
Member Since:
4/26/2005
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| prom countdown...19 days.
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| well, today was a new day..ate a little, got alot of running in..
still have a long way to go, but im willing to make it..every moment i think about how i will one day be beautiful..one day..
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| Today it hit me. im done with this. I am done being fat. I am done being jealous of all my friends that have those toothpick legs that i envy. I am going to try harder than i ever have now. suprisingly on a day of fasting, this came to me. I no longer feel good and full off of food. I will feel good off of the weight and FAT i know that i will lose. my endurance will be better than ever. I may put on a good front, but nothing can hold me back now. i am sick of feeling like the fattest kid in my school. i am sick of waking up every morning and not even looking in the mirror becasue i am so disgusted with myself and what i have become. i will strive for this, no matter who tries to stop me, i will achieve it. i will be thin. i am starting tomorrow. tomorrow is a new day. i am forgetting all those calories i used to eat. and the feeling of full no longer feels good. it feels like horrible, dead weight, that only makes me look worse. I can not do it without you guys. i need support now more than ever. when i feel like quitting, dont let me. i will not be this obese, heinous, atrocious looking thing anymore. it stops here. | | |
| I dont know what to do with myself. no boyfriend anymore. we're "working on it"... friends just arent there for me and dont understand a thing im going through. they all complain how their lives are so horrible, how they didnt get drunk that one weekend and cant live without it. their nagging on me is so annoying. people dont know me anymore and I dont know what to do. im a ball of utter confustion..a FAT ball of utter confusion. I find myself sleeping all the time. no energy to go out, laugh, anything. it feels good actually, sleeping all the time escapes me from this horrible world and people that i call my "friends". Friends? i feel like i have none. honestly.. i need help.
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