| | dear goddear god,
I just want to take some time out this morning because i can't sleep to praise you for making me the person who I am today. Beautiful me. you were really showing off when you made me. not only am i extremely good looking, but i'm well educated, and have tasted pussy of the asian variety...in other words, i have social status etc etc but that's stupid to think about, i'm so over it like how i'm so over my punk rock teenage phase. my friends that i have now are all in good private schools and going to become somebody. I, on the other hand, have an impressive resume at public university, where I studied art, and went abroad for a year on fulbright, and now that i am out of school, I lavish myself with praises and can be as standoffish as I want. I don't understand what's good for me, but I know that being on automatic dialog with all of my contacts and talking endlessly about nothing, is way better than being in a relationship nor dare I have any sort of spark in conversation with anybody because what's the use of having sex when intelligent conversation is bound to be had?
I guess some people would call me a racist, but then, I say, foo foo faw faw to them. I'll ignore whoever I want, based on whatever criteria I deem important, like skin color, race, ethnicity, social class, sexual orientation etc.
anyway, my life is not perfect, which basically = i can shit on anybody i want and have that as an excuse.
while i try and maintain and wealthy lifestyle, i am appalled by my friends who have no disregard to high standards at every meal, where I must chew and chew my food into it's dull flatness if my friend had taken me to a place of his liking, man, otherwise I'd rather stay at home!
anyway, I'm not racist, I'm, how should I say, RAWcist maybe. that is I am a raw human being who doesn't like anything candy coated, and will not take any bullshit or like anything that's wrapped up nicely for the sake of it being wrapped up nicely. Basically, I can see through everyone's bullshit and everyone is really lame to begin with anyway so why bother talking to people?
that being said, I'm not a complete loser or anything, I just don't plan on fooling everyone at social gatherings by acting flimsy and happy because I'm not, because I'm too smart to see things as if they weren't things that are like um not bad or at least make me feel blue because I can agree with nothing and like nothing and therefore everything sucks.
ok, thanks for listening god, i usually don't believe in you, but since i've already lost all my marbles, I thought I'd start with finding someone like you for a start.
thanks
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| | Posted 10/20/2007 6:47 AM - 0 comments
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