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Quotes: [[[ALOT!!!]]]

 "Nothing is unsignificant"

"Never ever rest until your better is your best"

"So take a look at me now."

"You never know what you've got till its gone."

"One who has never made a mistake has never tryed anything new."

"Why do I bother, why do I care,  why do I see you everywhere...Why am I sad, why do I cry, why don't I just let days go by...why do I love you as much as I do, when you don't love me as I love you...it breaks my heart, my sould inside, it seels as though as I have died...I hide my unhappiness, my uneasiness too, I feel this way because of you. "

"You know, the worst part about having to fall asleep when you have a broken heart is having to wake up, because right when you start to open your eyes you are about to feel happy until you realize your life is terrible and the pain nearly swallows you whole.."

"i coulda met you in a sandbox .. i coulda passed you on the sidewalk .. could i have missed my chance, and watched you walk away .. "

"The b.e.s.t and most  b e a u t i f u l  things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with your heart."

"You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending "

"It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done "

"How do you know?
Everything I’m about to say
Am I that obvious?
And if it’s written on my face. . . "

" needed someone, no one was there... I asked for help, no one answered... I begged for forgiveness, no one cared... I screamed for attention, no one took notice... I cried for you, no one dried my tears..."

"A CHANGE This morning when i woke up, I sensed that something changed. But it was nothing i could see, Nothing was rearranged. For some unexplainable reason, When i looked into the mirror, Even though the image was the same, i could see myself a little clearer. My hair was just as frizzy, But it didn't matter, it's just hair. And i still had curves in all the wrong places, But for some reason i didn't care. Then there were my braces. They beautifully shine in the light. And for once i liked my freckles, Though i never imagined i might. For once i felt just perfect, Like i finally looked the part. And i realized the change wasn't outside, But,rather, in my heart. "

"And after all the heartbreaks, and the fights, and the tears, and the anger, true love will be waiting for you at the end.....and it will be worth it."

"You say you want to "just be friends" You dont want me to cry But you cant even bring yourself To look me in the eye How can I be friends with you When I love you so much And every time I close my eyes I remember your soft touch Why did you say you loved me If you knew it would end like this? Then I hear myself ask you For one last goodnight kiss As you lean down towards my face A tear falls from my eye I remember all we'd been through Now I have to say good-bye How rage flows through my veins Just as your lips brush my cheek You broke my heart in pieces Now I see that I was weak I've changed alot since then Sometimes I still think of you Now I dont feel love or hate For the boy who broke my heart in two"

"at one point in life..the people we love forgot to love us back."

"We live in a dream, every single one of us, we're all dreaming, and thats what puts us out to where we belong in life, the ability to dream"

"Waking up from this nightmare. Hows your life? Whats it like there? Is it all what you want it to be? Does it hurt when you think about me? And how broken my heart is."

"Hate is baggage...Life is too short to be pissed off all the time"

"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before"

"Look... I guarantee that we'll have tough times. And I guarantee that at some point one or both of us will want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine I'll regret it for the rest of my life. Because I know in my heart, you're the only one for me"

"Don't be afraid of death, be afraid of an unlived life. You don't have to live forever, you just have to live."

"You asked...if i could go back...do it all over again...have fun--be with him...and live life with no problems...but know my heart would be broken and i would be miserable...i would say yes..."

"Dance as if no one were watching, Sing as if no one were listening, And live life eachday as if it were your last. . ."

Looking in your eyes I see paradise. This world that I've found is too good to be true. Standing here beside you I want so much to give you this love in my heart that I'm feeling for you. Let them say we're crazy. I don't care about that. Put your hand in my hand baby. Don't ever look back. Let the world around fall apart.

yeah, i still have feelings for you but -
n o t  e n o u g h to want you back
j u s t  e n o u g h for it to hurt`

its gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet.

i must be a pretty good liar for you to
honestly think that i just want to be friends

im gonna walk on the beaach

&& lay in the sand;

flirt with some surfers

& work on my tan

&& sometimes you need to walk alone
                      - just to show that you can

 "Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith, and in purity"
1 timothy 4:12

be a dork
cause being cool is overrated `

drama-lies-and tears

cheers to the teenage years

its not up to me anymore-
   if you want me in your life..
you'll find a way to put me there

"Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone. And do not be troubled about the future, for it is yet to come. Live in the present and make it so beautiful that it will be worth the memory."  --One Tree Hill

&& we're so cool
       - ice cubes are jealous =]

Close up your eyes & try hard not to cry again...
you deserve better then your being treated.

it's cute how guys can be such assholes and then when your hurt, it actually seems like they care.

LAZY days && BEAUTIFUL nights
         BEACHY hair && WATER fights
                  HOT guys && SUN-TANNED skin
                         schools  o u t. and summers i n

Those sweet cheesy lines
that us girls secretly love,
I know I do at least.
When he tries his hardest
to impress you. You just
gotta admire the effort

there are just those things...
that keep me going on.

Any guy can love a thousand girls.
but only a real guy can love one girl in a thousand ways

Once you have something it doesn't mean
anything at all, but when its gone..
its the most important thing in your life

When she smiles, you know something's missing
Because her eyes don't shine like they would
If he were here.

THERE'S A DiFFERENCE
BEtWEEN l0VE&liKE,
WR0NG & RiGHt.
NEVER RUN iF Y0U'RE N0t
READY T0 StEP,
& NEVER F0RGiVE iF Y0U'RE
N0t READY T0 F0RGEt.

you we're there for me for so many years .. making
me laugh while i was in tears; i will never let anyone
take your place because you're the best friend i've got.
you laugh at my stupidest jokes; put up with my worst
moods. go along wth my crazy ideas. and you still
manage to see the best in me

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will worry about itself. 
Each day has enough troubles of its own."
             Matthew 6:34

people are going to want you, need you,
exceed you, take you, beat you, love you, hate you,
play you, rate you, save you, & break you--
but thats not what makes you.

don't be afraid of change
you may be losing something good
but you'll probably end up
gaining something better

when i walk by you
or talk to you
or laugh with you
i just want to know; to ask
do you remember all the memories
that you left with me

»she is the prom queen / i'm in the marching band / she is a cheerleader / i'm sitting in the stands / i get a little bit / she gets a little more / she's ms. america / and i'm just the girl next door....

There's a big world out there.
Bigger than prom,
bigger than high school...
and it won't matter if you we're the prom queen
or the quarterback of the football team,
or the biggest nerd in the school.
What will matter is to just find out who you are
and try not to be afraid of it

remember how in kindergarten
you'd meet a kid, walk up to him
know nothing about him, then in
10 minutes, playing like you were
best friends.. because you didnt have
to be anything other than yourself?
thats how i feel when im with you
++ High School Musical

im going to walk away. its up to you how far.

In every relationship, the one who cares the most
hurts the most.Don't bring up old memories
with me unless you plan on
making them again with me.

you're not friends because you sit with eachother at lunch
or talk on the phone.
or wear matching flipflops.
you're bestfriends because when she smiles,
a grin forces itself across your face.
no matter how mad you are.
when she cries. you instantly feel her pain,
&& want to cry with her.
when you look her in the eye,
you know there is nobody you could ever trust more.
regardless of how many broken hearts you've had.
that's what it means to be best friends

every thinng is beautiful...
just not everyone sees it

i want someone to lay with me under the stars
and not want me to go further
than a kiss

I'm fine without you
I just want you to know that.

Its no use searching for love...let it come to you...if you have to try hard to make it work, maybe its not meant to be

In The Worst Of Times
Remeber What Has Always
Gotten You Through.

& the reason why we never seem to like the right person...
is because they arent the 'right ones' for us...
our 'soul mates' are out falling for the wrong ones...
hoping to find us somewhere along the lines

people hurt me, criticize me, tell me I'm wrong,
lie to me, turn their backs on me, kill me slowly,
and they wonder what the fuck my problem is?

So he called me, he didn't sound right, and I asked him what was wrong. He told me I should know and I told him she's just one girl don't let her ruin you, you know she's not worth all this trouble. He said but to me she's not just a girl, she's the girl, she's the girl that means 'everything' to me. My heart stopped, not because I was shocked, but because that's exactly how I feel about him

Someone will always be prettier.
They will always be smarter,
Their house will be bigger
&& they`ll drive a better car.
Their children will do better in school,
And their husband will fix more things around the house.
So let it go.
and love you && your circumstances.
Think about it.
The prettiest woman in the world
can have turmoil in her heart
&& the most highly favored woman
on your job may be unable to have children.
&& The richest women you know,
shes got the car, the house, the clothes,
but she might be lonely.
Look in the mirror in the morning
&& smile and say "Im blessed"
Winners make things happen.
Losers let them happen.

You have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince charming <3

We're all a little weird
& life is a little weird & when we find someone
whose weirdness is compatible with ours & we
join up with them & fall into mutally satisfying
weirdness & call it love ;; true love.

giving up doesn't always
mean you're weak, sometimes
it just means that you're strong
enough to let go..

If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe; stronger than you seem; and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart.. I’ll always be with you.

Lifes too short for drama and pretty things,so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly, and forgive quickly.

You'll never know the true feeling of
pain until you look into the eyes of the
person you love.. and they look away.

during a relationship, things will happen. there will be alot of mistakes, and you might break up.if this happens, remember this.. remember why you fell in love in the first place. remember all the times you spent, and all the times you held eachother close. remember that you two were brought together for a reason. it's fate.

if you can wear an ecko hoodie
on top of a tyedyed tshirt with
hollister pants and dc shoes
youre not a poser; you just have
enough common sense to be yourself.

that fight. that is the reason why were here now. passing each other in the halls without even a hug or a hey && it tears me up inside to think about it being like this for good

heard that you aren't mad at me, we just dont talk.
Everyone says we just went our seperate ways.
All i can say to that is, i hope our seperate ways intersect again one day.

drama is a situation girls create
themselves based on jealousy

walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair
is in place. she sees a friend and waves. wearing a smile
on her perfect face. friendly, smart, beautiful.  everyone
adores this girl. seemingly content her head in a while.&
inside she's unhappy and she doesn't know why. she lays
in bed at night & cries she doesn`t know what causes the
tears. how could this princess have insecurities or fears?
she has it all. a pretty smile, many friends, a great guy, the
newest trends.. her family has money and she gets good
grades. has her own car and her make up never fades ..
always looking happy every single day .. but inside she's
feeling a different way. this wonder girl. she's everyone`s
dream but things aren't always; what they seem

wait for the boy who will be your bestfriend, the boy
who will drop everything to be with you at anytime of
the day no matter what the circumstances, wait for the
boy who makes you smile like no other makes you smile
& when he smiles you know he needs you. wait for the
boy who wants to show you off to the world when
you are in sweats and have no make-up on. most of all,
wait for the boy who puts you at the center of his
universe because obviously he'll be at the center of yours

Summer Love
The sweet, rustic smell of the rain
fills my nose, my head, and my brain.
The springtime showers soak my dress
and toes tingle with a grassy caress.
The beauty of this day is lost to me
as the deaf man hears not the melody
For all nature's wonders seem so dim
when i am here, standing next to him.

true friends will be there even if you refuse to talk to them
because they know deep down inside you can't stand the silence.

Do you ever miss me? I know we see each other every day but do you ever miss the way we used to be? When we used to talk and laugh and flirt? When you used to purposely bump into me in the hall just so you could see me look at you and smile. Do you miss our conversations? And what about our dumb sarcasm that only you and I understood? Do you ever miss any of that? I think that maybe you do, because sometimes when I look at you, you'll randomly look at me and stop what your doing just so you can look into my eyes like you used to... and even though it only lasts for two seconds, you miss that. I cant be the only one who does....

we fall for boys who give us pretty words and false hopes.</3

when you asked me who i liked, i said no one. but i meant no one but you.

She's been everybody else's girl.
Maybe one day she'll be her own.

sometimes the love we are looking for is the one right in front of us - too close
for the eyes to see. So close your eyes and let your heart see for itself.

so i round up my friends,
we made it through another week.
we may not have much, but we've got what we need.
so we go all night, until i see his face;
then the party's over, this drink has no taste.
he makes me lonely when he comes around.
i tried for years to beat this one down.
i've got all my friends;
couldn't ask for more, but he makes me lonely
when he knocks on my door

when you really love someone. You're willing to let them go even if it hurts. And when they come back, then that's true love because it will be worth the wait.

Oversized sunglasses and a string of
pearls around her neck.
She's devistatingly beautiful,
in a L.A. kind of way

waiting for nothing, hoping for something
always kept giving, that's why I'm falling
never stopped loving, always kept dreaming
thought nothing of dying, always kept trying
knowing there's nothing, living for something.
always smiling.

At the end of the day
all you can do is..be
there for each other
               - The OC

sometimes you just gotta
look on the bright side because
think about everyone that
would kill to see you fall.

and in the end, everyone ends up being exactly
the person they promised they never would be

there's a good chance that you don’t like us,
however theres an even better chance
that we don’t care

& some times you just need some
one to be there to make you smile

thats what love is taking a

chance.... Love can cause

people to not be their self

           maybe the best thing to do is stop
           trying to figure out where you are
           going &just enjoy where you are at

in spite of everything,
i still believe that people are really good at heart

THERE IS NO USE WAITING...
If his feeling`s aren`t there...
there is no use in trying...
when you know he doesnt care...
let him know what he`s missing & show him how strong
you can be...
because eventually you will be happy...
&& he will finally see

everybody has difficult years but
alot of times the difficult years end
up being the greatest years of your
whole entire life;;

never lose hope in the guy that
walks past you in the hallway
& turns around just to see you

My theory is if you look confident
you can pull off anything. Even if you
have no clue what your doing

& slowly as the years go on,
you lose friends, you never
thought you would

Everyone keeps tellin me…to dump you, and get on with my life;; they’ll never understand how you’ve been there for me when I needed you…there’s no one else<3

Shut your face. .
your just jealous cuz
My friends are cooler
Than yours will ever be

Our song comes onn,,and i just want to cry..thinking of what we used to be..and how we've grown so far apart...it breaks my heart...you were my everything

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

We said we'd make it work and prove everyone wrong..but the show's overr. stop pretending..i mean who did we think we were kidding?

waiting for the R i G H T one doesn't seem like such a big deal now
i'd rather wait instead of rush into s.o.m.e.t.h.i.n.g & experience
that little thing called {{heartbreak}}

I listen to a sad song...that is describing my life, and start to feel better...knowing that I'm not the only one going through these feelings.*

It's only after you've lost everything
that you're free to do anything.-Fight Club-

 I want nothing more then to be in unconditional sweet call-you-everytime-I-think-about-you love, but hes not the ...one.

Sometimes letting go is hard
              but it's easier than holding on to
                            something that isn't there.
                   so talk down to me again
               remind me how pathetic  i am
                                       & how perfect you are.

&& the truth is
we hide so we can be found
we walk away to see who will follow
we cry to see who will wipe away our tears
&& we get our hearts broken to see
who will come and fix them

i'm not the jealous type that doesn't sleep at night
you got your karma, i know i got mine
and all of my tears will air dry with just a little time

its almost like you had it planned; its like you smiled and took my hand and said
"hey im about to screw you over big time"

to all u hoes that like to run ur mouth
my name isnt cock so get it the fuck out

drama is just another
word for
a bitch's fun

Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way

You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to

you've taught me that love sucks,

that feelings can change, passion will fade,

 partners will come and go, but through it all,

 one thing remains sacred ; friendship <3

i dont need someone standing up for me
i know how its done.
the world. the drama. everything.
so. i can speak for myself

dont lose a friend over a fight,

if anything, lose them in a war

All these scars you left on me
all these memories you've gave me
all this pain, all this sadness
keeps running back to me when I look at you

when all is said and done, i really hope you look back & wonder if maybe falling in love with me, wasn't such a bad idea <3

I wish I didnt care
why do I miss you soo much when I told myself I wouldnt?
I wish I didnt know how to love you anymore..

your best friend listens to you when you don't make sense.
stands by you when people call you things.
argues when you're not right at all.
trusts you when she knows you'll mess up.
when you cry shes there helping you out and
thats how i know she's truly my best friend <3

Stay close enough to have fun,
yet far enough to not get hurt,
and when you start to fall for him,
just remember who caused that dent in your heart

let's start over.
let's put our past behind us and
never bring it up again.
we can live or love the past.
let's throw all our problems away.
i'll give you my trust if you give me yours.
so let's fall in love the right way. <3

The truth is, I gave my heart away a long time ago.
And I never really got it back.

why doesn't she just give up on him. it's not like he cares. but there's something that's got her still holding on. like there's still some kind of hope that she's good enough for him <3

I just need to say no & break myself away from him.
I need to forget what we had & how much I loved him.
& How much he meant to me

i don't hate or despise you..
i call you a backstabbing bitch
because it describes you

Because it's over now.
Whether I like it or not.

so crank up the volume ; so we can sing like superstars
&& dance like were famous cause thats just how we roll

Hating me
Won't make you any prettier.

Last night we were on the phone, & I told him I
was sick of him hurting me, & I thought to myself
"This is it, dump him right now." And then I heard
a sniff on the other end of the phone. He was crying
because he didn`t want to lose me. And I knew  ...
right then ... I didn`t wanna lose him either.  <3

BiTCH iF i WANTED DRAMA..
iD SiGN UP FOR A PLAY

lately i spend too much time
thinking about things that
will never happen & dressing
up for the boy who will never care

passion is knowing what you want;;
and never stopping until you get it

it's like half of me really wants to
be with him & the other half just
wants to be over him <33

Dont wait for the perfect moment
                  make the moment perfect

Dont let anyone ever make you feel like
           you dont deserve what you want.

&& there she goes again falling for the one
boy she swore she would  never fall for again'

She laughs at all those rumors about
                     herself;;  because she loves all of the
                     desperate attempts to bring her down.

its crazy how people can act like nothing ever happened

& it hurts so much to see you move
on so quickly. so tell me..
have you promised her
forever, yet?

one day you'll look at a person and
see more than you did the day before.
like a switch was flicked somewhere
and that person who was just your friend
is suddenly the only person you can
imagine yourself being with <><

Teenage sluts aren't born.
They're made.

I don’t miss you..I miss us

i don't want to be just the girl you love to kiss.
i don't want to be just the girl you run back to.
i don't want you to fall back on me.
i want to be your one and only.
your first choice ; the girl you're scared to leave<><

I promise.
I cry over you, every night
I don’t care if you’re a jerk ..you were mine and that’s what mattered
you’re the one I love
and I miss you.

He dialed her number;
but it's too late now - -
her voice will NEVER `
kiss his ears again;

women are like apples on trees.
the best ones are on top of the tree,
but most guys don't want to reach for them
because they are afraid of falling & getting hurt.
instead they just take the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good but eaiest to get.
the apple's at the top think there is something wrong with them,
when in reality they are amazing <><

I want things to be
the way they used to be
I want you to fall back
in love with me

And it breaks my heart to see how much
you’ve changed I miss the real you... i miss the real us

I wish things between us would just go
back to the way they were when we first met

I look in his eyes,
The gorgeous bright blue eyes of his.
He smiles at me,
With the unique mischief smile of his.
Oh, how I dream to be with him!

How soft his touch is,
How warm he is,
Oh, how I dream to be his!

How fun he can be,
How serious he can be,
His sweet personality.
Oh, how I dream to be by his side!

Im scared,
I fell for him.
I feel partly the same with him,
That same feeling I have for
My first true love.
Or do I?

In the morning,
I wanna sleep,
But my motivation is
To see him.
The one I fell for!

But now I see,
It's impossible to be,
With that guy I wish to be mine.

He is shy,
He says he likes me,
But he doesn't know what he wants.

He's never had a relationship,
Besides a friendship.
He's scared and shy,
I don't really see why.

So I've given up,
Till the day,
He's not scared or shy,
So I can fulfill my dream,
To be with him.
The one I want to be by my side!<><

& nothing can
break;;this feeling

Some people are only alive because it's illegal to kill them

 What if i said you never mattered,
  that i never lost a moment of sleep. 
     What if i crushed all your dreams,
 broke all the promises  i swore to keep. 
Tell me how your life would be if i did what you did to me.

i hate the fact that your
not mine anymore

and yes, i've started to realize
you're not worth it at all
your just another person
trying to lead me on to another lie

i am me. thats all i can be.
no more. no less. don't 2nd guess
i l a u g h . i < 3. i l i v e. i c r y.
&. sometimes i wish that i would die.
somedays i'm funny. others i'm not.
sometimes i'm in overdrive & i can't stop.
you may not like me. thats okay.
cz this is me & how i'll always stay.

When people come into your life for a season, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

All you have to do in life is: go out with your friends, party, have fun && look twice as good as the bitch standing next to you

I guess what hurts the most isn't that I don't have you.. It's that at one point, I did. It's that I can go to sleep missing you, dream I'm with you, then wake up, and realize once more that I don't have you. Maybe what hurts the most is not that I'm no longer enough, but that at one point, I was.

Finding the love of your life may mean
changing the life that you love.