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| Finally watched the " Kite Runner" at the moive theather tonite. Although it was a great moive that could really brings me all the pictures regarding the unfortunate and brutual things happening in Afghanistan . I was speechless and sad after the moive as I had absorbed every single emotion from all the distrubring and loathing scenes. This is the 2nd moive that I had watched regarding how wars had torn a country physically and emotionally apart in Middle East. The first one was " Turtles can fly" a foreign moive that filmed about war in Iraq. Once again the moive reminds me how blessed and fortunate I am that I 'm not just safe and healthy, I could really enjoy what God's created for us (family, friends, the earth, etc ). Although I always support the idea of withdrawing the troops from Iraq , today I kind of having different feelings about the importance of fighting the terrorists. I prayed that God will have righteousness and mercy on all the innocent middle east citizen, and those who really fight for justice. | | |
| I thought that I will never write on Xanga again as I was trying to discipline myself not to spend too much time on the net before yet I really need to vent it out. Just found out this morning that my grandmom has passed away in HK and I was so shocked and sad that I didn't know how to react at first. I was just discussing with Ah Wai that I am hoping I will get my green card soon so that I could resign and go home for two months to spend more time with my grandmom and preach gospel to her. Now it's too late ! My schedule is so packed this weekend. I supposed to lead part of the program for Harmony fellowship and I had prepared a wonderful gift for the exchange gift activity tonite, have to do two evaluations in Brooklyn, go to fellowship and a birthday party for my homecare tomorrow and many other things on Sunday. Yet at this point I really have no mood and strength to do anything.
Now, my mind can't really function ...so should I go to Hong Kong ? I called the travel agent they said most of the airlines are fully booked. I could take Cathy for $ 1688 ? Yet I am in the process of switching job, many plans for the next two weeks that is very hard for me to leave NY given I really don't have days to take off from work !
Lord , please help me and guide me !
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| My ex-supervisor called me after work and told me a child that I have been working for 1 1/2 year passed away last night. I was shocked and heart -breaking. As we were talking and I found out that the child's grandma who used to come to school very often and gave out red pocket money to all the staffs had passed away a month ago. I missed both of them. Although I always get hurt by this child unintentionally, she was a good child and I always complain that she should be in a higher functioning class so that she can learn more from her peers. And Grandma was always very sweet. She was old and skinny but then she tried very hard to take care of her grandchild. I remembered their first year in school, since they were new and they didn't know much about the American birthday culture. I helped grandma to buy birthday cake, party favors and setup the party for the child.I still had the unused birthday bags in my house. I still have the special vest that I made for the child to try so that she can walk on her own but then I didn't get a chance to finish it as I am now working in another school. I feel so bad for mom to have lost two important ppl in such a short period. I remembered my cancer patient died when I worked in a long term care facility years ago. I was very sad and shocked. I 'm now even more sad as I would never thought that my pediatric patient will die.
Lord, May you comfort and give peace to this family !
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|  A plant from my Department for my new home and the butterfly stain glass from the art teacher
 My coworker made this with a student for my farewell party
So It has been almost two weeks that I had started my new job in Queens. At first, I really hated it as I have to commute from Brooklyn and the principle is very strict and controling that she had made alot of unfair rules. So I have more meetings and more work but same pay. I wanted to go back to my old job but then I don't know how to handle the situation and face the principles as we are under the same agency. The students here are more high functioning so my job is less challenging yet now I can talk to them and some of them are really cute and funny. I also thank God for providing me a place to stay in Queens, a lovely, generous and caring sister and her brother to make me feel like home ! | | |
| UnbeliveableThree days after I moved into my new place, Kin Wai and I thought each other have the keys so we accidentally locked the keys inside my room. It was very embarrassing to call my landlord for help. Yet when I called my landlord, he kept hanged up on me as he thought that I was someone calling about the room for rent due to my poor Mandarin 
Yet he didn't have the key to my room so I couldn't go home until 9 pm.
Thirteen days after I moved in, the ceiling lamp in my room went out ...my landlord was not home..I asked myself where can I go ..after living in NY for over 11 years first time I feel like I don't have a home ( now I only rent a room and have to share kitchen and bathroom with other ppl). So I took the night lamp in the bathroom and tried to put it in my room and then the night lamp went out again...I wasn't sure it's just bad luck or it's my hand ..
Later, I tried to cook when I opened the drawer of the cabinet. The knob fell off and hurt my foot for no reason.
Thirty minute ago, I called my Grandma in HK just to see how is she doing...of course she couldn't hear me due to her hearing loss so I have to yell as usual given the poor reception of my phone...so she told me a big secret--
that my Dad got married in Beijing and she told me not to tell my sister and my mom...as they might be very upset and sad. Isn't it wonderful ???? All these years and just last nite I prayed that my parents could get back together.
Anyway, while I was still talking to my Grandma my sister went online so I told her...as I felt I have the responsibility to tell her. I also told Kin Wai and he asked me how I feel. So I told him I just have to accept that I have a broken family. But I guess this is the trend as most of my colleagues' parents got divorced, too. Then he said this is not right. At that time I thought it's not necessary for him to point it out even though he is right. But I just feel sad. I guess it's hard to maintain a relationship without God's presence.
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