In what ways are you similar to your mother?

I'm not even all that close to my mom..but what from my dad tells me how we are very much alike scares me. I could go on and on...but here's a few... I share her seem odd smile..and some of her strange habits... like biting my nails..and having horrible sinus/allergy issues all year round..

Been a while.

Alot on my mind.

I have done some thinking for the last few days.  I think I have come to a conclusion about myself and relationships...  About the deal with me and James Stark... I figured that it wouldn't work out.  *Hell..I always feel that way to start off with.*  My dad nor my family would approve of it.  And it was very UNLIKE me to date someone such as him.  I'm not meaning anything mean by it.  It's just that, when it comes around to me and relationships.  I can never bring myself to open up and express how I feel.  And I can't stand it when I would have some guy hovering all over me each and every minute of my life.  I like space, and I mean alot of it. I'm always reluctant and hold back on so many things.  I have been almost always like that since I was little.  I always felt insecure and that I could never 'fit in'  But I never tried to do so... I was a bit of a shy quiet little girl when I was younger.  Ask some of my friends that has known me since elementary.  Like Madison, or Kim. Perhaps it is because I'm afraid of hurting myself and the relationship that has already started to begin with.  It almost feels like my heart is locked up in some kind of shell that I created to only protect myself.  It's weird I know, but that's just how I am. 

But for now, my thoughts are mostly focused on my job and in hopes of saving up money in time for college.  I'm hoping that within a year in half, if I have enough money saved up.  I can take a course of interest.  Like Astronomy, Geology, or maybe just becoming a writer.  I recieved a Compliment from Mrs. Johnson about how much my writing skills has dramatically improved over the year.  It kinda striked me as something I could shoot for in life.  I dunno... just whatever catches my interest.  I want something to do with traveling, and discovering new things.  Just anything that could make a difference in my life and the people that are closest to me.  Hell...I can see myself being a hard working independent woman and nothing more.  It's kinda weird when I look back on my life.  How much I can remember and how I'm beginning to understand myself better each and every day.  Outside I'm opptimistic and always smiling, but inside I'm kinda numb, to afraid to open up my true inner feelings to others.  Iv'e been like that since I was a child.  Oh well...I'm just rambling nonsense that no one would even bother to read, unless everyone is just to busy now a days.  That's ok, there. ^.^  But whenever you guys have some time and like to hang out, than just give me a call or whatever.

  Bleh... >,<  I'm such a dork!  Till than... Laters

~Jessie

*MAJOR FREAKIN UPDATE*  ~Ok...the problem with my default xanga has been FIXED!  So that means I'll start doing most of my posts on my default once again.  I'll update on this one every once in a while. So...at least I have 2 now. @.@  So check back on this one every once in a blue moon whenever your up to it and comment or whatever.~  {My other site is... whisperer_enchantment}

Pirates of the carribean. "The Dead Man's Chest."

Yea.  One of my friends and I went to the Cinemark Theater's to see the movie.  For a sequel, I would have to say that it has so much more action and humor than the first.  I would end up in a fit of laughter every ten to fifteen minutes.  I'm not gonna spoil any scenes for those who wants to see it and hasn't seen it yet, so I'm gonna keep my lips sealed for the time being.  However, there's gonna be a third movie!  It's so obvious in the very ending when "someone who dies in the first movie comes back..."  *hint cough hint*  That's it for now!!!  WATCH THE DAMN MOVIE FOR THOSE WHO HASN'T SEEN IT YET! 

~Jessie

Yea... Since I can't get my original site to work... "Whisperer_enchantment"  I have decided to come up with a second site for now.  So..this one is only temporary. lol.  I"m such a dork and can't figure out why I can't get my original site to show up on my desktop screen.  And I'm kinda bored and I feel a little bit better than I did yesturday.  I'll probaly want to go swimming later on with a few of my friends until when I have to go to work. Yay!  What fun!!!!

~Jessie