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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Tue, 23 May 2006 14:48:40 GMT

This is absolutely crazy. I never thought that i would grace xanga with my presence ever again, but here i am.... completely humbled by my immense boredom. Lol so i'm really not that bored, just umm... well it's a long story. Being home is a completely different world for me, and not having a car to be able to get away from it for a while is driving me crazy (haha no pun intended). I know home is my mission field right now, but it's such a burden because i feel like i'm the only one who can make a difference. I really miss my fellow HPU-ers.... i never realized what a huge encouragement they are to me! It's hard not having anyone here to pray with me and keep me accountable. BUT i will keep on trucking! Anywho, for those of you still out in the xanga world, keep me and my fam in your prayers...! Besides the home life, everything's going pretty good. I'm working at the gap and i really like it.... the people are really fun and energetic (perfect for this girl's personality).... and i also met a girl who's a new employee, AND she's a christian! Yay.

Well, i think i'll end this random post with a new discovery of mine: Rascal Flatts was not the first group to record "The broken road" song! Crazy, i know. I was listening to an old cd from the 90's the other day, and all of a sudden that song came on. My first reaction was, well, of anger towards rascall flatts for stealing the song that would eventually make them famous.... but then i realized that they probably got the song license from the original writers.... so it's all good. Anyway... if you're intrigued by this story, i think the name of the original singer was Jamie Slocum. You should check it out.

Can i get an encore?

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 01:24:55 GMT

So get this... the Fresh prince of bel-air is now on Nick at Nite! How crazy is that? I remember watching Nick at Nite when i was little, and shows from my mom's era were on (ie: Laverne & Shirley, Happy Days)... gaw but now, it's all the shows i watched as a kid! This is almost like a mid-life crisis for me... but... not. I came to this realization when i was randomly staying up late (RANDOM, i know ), and watching the show... and then when it went to commercial, the little nick at nite icon popped up. So scary i must say. We're getting old, college peeps.

Anyway, to continue on with my FP of BA discovery... that show was tremendously Grrreat (said in tony the tiger voice)! Sadly, i ended up watching the last show, or the "finale" as so they say... it's when all the kids move out for college/career, and the house sells to the Jeffersons, ironically. Despite the fact that the last show was extremely funny, i felt really emotional when it ended! It was gone. There will never ever be any more FP of BA. No sequals, no nothing.... happy birthday. So sad... there isn't even any season DVD's that i could reminisce in for thoughtless hours. But there will be no tears for me, no sir, i'm going to tough it out like Uncle Phil would.

FP... Come... home!

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 21:41:58 GMT

Have you ever watched the advertisements that stream across the top of your xanga? That's a rhetorical question, obviously. But really... today i was on my computer and i kinda zoned out and started to get *hypnotized* by watching those things! One of the ads said "Are you jealous? Take our quiz to find out!" Hmm... you know what... i'm pretty sure i'm not, in fact, jealous, and if i was, why would i take a stupid quiz to confirm my raging jealousy? Argh. Then the next banner comes on... "Are you depressed?"

My answer: Why so many freakin questions?

And yes, to answer your question mr. computer-banner-thing, i am depressed. I'm depressed because ad executives can't even come up with a hint of creativeness for their ads. I'm sure they brainstorm in their cubicle for hours and then excitedly jump out of their leather chair, yelling "I got it! I'll ask a question!" Then the whole office erupts with singing and rejoicing, while the "question" genius is taking a victory ride on his colleagues' shoulders. Oh life.

Why can't all ads be like Geico's? They are made with pure genius! They make me laugh, they make me cry, they make me laugh and cry simultaneously. Ohhh world... that is it. When i grow up, i'm going to be an advertisement critic. Hopefully one day i'll be as cool and smooth as Ebert and Roeper... one day, one fine day...

Friday, December 30, 2005

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 22:01:21 GMT

Man. I lost all my e-prop-ers when i got a new xanga! Oh well, i must suffer the consequences of having stalkers. JK. Anywho... I hope i'm not the only one who misses brownwood like heck! I never thought i'd miss Bwood, the town that has only 1 walmart. I guess i got over that fact. When i get back, i'm going to hug every single one of you for ten seconds... and then move on with my life lol.

So i have this to-do list, you know, of things that need to be done before i leave SA. Well, it seems like hardly anything ever gets accomplished, even though i've had nothing to do in the past 5 days! Argh. I think that's going to be my new years resolution: never procastinate, and never be lazy. Someone please wish me luck with that one!

Oh and i have some news that made me excited for some odd reason... I was driving past this street & saw a new little building being built. It was the most hideous building i've ever seen! It's walls were orange and teal, which made me want to sneeze or something.... but then i realized that it looked familiar, and it clicked... it looked just like bahama bucks! Yeah, and then another thing clicked... Brownwood is not the only town that has bahama bucks... So yes, a few seconds later i saw the construction sign on the other side of the building saying "Bahama Bucks coming soon". At that a moment i felt like a genius and an idiot simultaneously; A genius for putting 2 & 2 together (orange + teal = what in the world? Oh yeah... bahama bucks) and an idiot for not realizing that fact in the first second of seeing the hideousness.

Well, my friends, that's my awesome life summed up in a few paragraphs! Now all that's left to do is to leave a fabulous e-prop... i know you have it in you to do it. So just do it. Nike.

God Bless the new year!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 01:25:49 GMT

I'M SICK.

Sad times... and i know i got sick from some random kid visiting santa. Hopefully i'm getting over it pretty quickly, i only sneeze like 44 times a day now.... ARGh.

But besides the cold/flu thing i have going on, i'm superbly relieved that i have nothing to do! No job. No homework. No tests! Heck yes. But i do need to get on the ball with buying/selling my textbooks.... hmm... oh man and i also have to finish that Go now missions application (Dum dum dum)! Ok so i have some things to do... but i can still sleep in forever.

Sleep... sounds good... i think i'll do that right about... NOW.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 13:27:20 GMT

With this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let you know
How much you've touched my life because
Here is where you're finding me
In the exact same place as New Years Eve
And from the lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I wanna be

And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 21:57:46 GMT

So a weird thing happened today at the mall.... an old guy (probably in his late 70s) asked me where Victoria's Secret was.... umm yeah... a little awkward. That's all i have for today... cuz i like my life and would like to live it on somewhere other than my laptop! Adios

Monday, December 19, 2005

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 22:07:10 GMT

AHHH. HOME.

Too bad i'm working my buttocks(sp? lol) off... and haven't been able to enjoy the break... and i randomly want to go on a retreat... But yeah... I already have a buttload of new year's resolutions planned in my head. Don't ask me why every sentence has the word butt in it...? Ok this post is way too random. I'll stop now.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 04:41:13 GMT

Ahh... a brand new start.... or a new xanga.... same thing. I'm sorry for my obnoxiously long SN. I'm really not sure if it's called a screen name or a site name... i just dont know, and you think i would, only because i've been a faithful xanga-er since umm junior year. So anyway, back to the "SN"... i've encountered a few problems with it. I learned that it takes 40 years just to type it in, so thus no one will want to read my posts, cuz HELLO, even I wouldn't want to waste my youthful vigor on such tasks such as typing a highly feministic SN in the URL address bar. Wow, that's alot of computer lingo... i'm a nerd (feministic nerd, may i add).

Anyway, to update on my life: I'm back home. I was able to leave tuesday night. You must be thinking, "Lucky girl!" but here's my story... I dont have a car, you know, I'm one of those underpriveledged college students who must find a ride with whoever lives in 30 miles of the hometown. Well i live in San Antonio, and not to mention that there's 10 people from my church who go to HPU... lol so i shouldn't have a problem with getting a ride.... but the thing is, i really don't hang out with the people from my church anymore... so it would be a little awkward... at least I think it would be. But anyway... my mom and my grandparents decided to be spontaneous and come pick me up (aww how cute)... lol too bad they got lost and went past abilene! Anyway, the trip back home was really random... but that's another story.

So yeah I'm home... i realize how thankful I am for the time i've had at college. For some reason i always forget about the way things are at home, it's kinda like i had expected things to change... but it's the same. If i could describe my family in one word... well that's almost impossible, but the best word would be dysfunctional. I think my life could be a sitcom because it's randomly upsetting, yet a tragic drama, because the sitcom part actually happens in real life. Somehow i'm normal in the midst of all the drama... i guess it's because i try to avoid it all if possible. Ugh I dont know how i'm going to survive the Christmas break, i dont even know how i survived highschool lol. I think i'm going to get a job... hopefully that will keep me busy.

Spiritually... i feel like i never learn. Sometimes i feel like i just repeat mistakes that God has already taught me about. Right now i'm yearning for an intimacy with Him, but i feel so incompetent... before i came to this Christian school i promised that i would not become complacent... so for the first half of the semester i was growing with God like never before. It was amazing, and i didn't worry about anything... God provided amazing friendships, and they were friendships that existed because of the pure foundation of Christ. Then in the second half, i guess life got at me and i slowly slipped away from His touch. Things got more hectic as i depended on myself, and it seemed like my friends were slipping at the same pace i was, so it all seemed ok. But it's not ok, and i knew this all along. How many times must we go to sunday school in order for us to atually take action in our Christian walk? Dont we ever get tired of being in the same place as we were the year before? Christians have been getting fed from churches and bible studies for too long... when will we realize that God is our source of nourishment? Those are just some questions to chew on... i know i'm guilty of it all. I know God is forgiving and always has open arms, but i dont want to break his heart again. However, i can't do anything on my own, so i'm going to have to trust in him to help me trust in myself (if that makes any sense).... basically if I re-word that.... i'm going to trust that He'll use me in a mighty way, even though i feel incompetent and unworthy of his grace.

So I hope that long story encouraged or blessed somebody out there... and if i don't update in a while... Have a great break and a Merry Christmas! Remember that the greatest gift of love was sent to us as a baby, and had to struggle through the same things we do... yet lived a sinless life. That, my friends, is amazing. I'm definitely going to try to follow his example in living a life filled with love, even in the midst of my crazy circumstances! Love you guys!

~Kelsey