| Yes Lord, yes Lord yes yes Lord Hello! I've recently read a book and here's an excerpt (a chapter) from it. I thought it's really true, and I really have to spend more time with God. Having a personal relationship with Him's really important, but I know I've been missing all that out. I haven't been doing things for Him, but for my own benefit and others'. Thank You Lord for allowing me to ever chance upon this book. (: Read it if you have the heart.  The Audience of One Try this thought experiment.
You wake up one morning and prepare to go to work. You go to the kitchen and greet your wife but she does not return. your greeting. "Is she angry with me?" you wonder. You stand in front of her and ask her what is wrong. She ignores you and does not answer your questions. In fact, she seems to look through you. You are deeply puzzled and trouble by this unusual experience.
Deep in thought, you arrive at the office and greet your colleagues. But no one greets you, no one talks to you. To catch their attention, you belt out a song in your best voice, work and notice that you have arrived at the office. But no one acknowledges your presence.
Then a terrifying thought blows up in your mind. You have become invisible and inaudible! No one can see you or hear you. You can't converse with anyone. You can't catch anyone's attention. You are all alone. You are as good as dead.
A voice breaks through your muddled thoughts. "Good morning my child," the voice greets you. "Lord, is it you?" you query. "Yes, it is me," says the loving voice. The following conversation ensues:
You: Lord what's happening? Why does no one hear me or see me?
Lord: Oh, I can see you and I can hear you my child.
You: But the others - they can't see me! Why?
Lord: Do you remember, my dear child, that when you first noticed me in your life and responded to me years ago, you wanted to live just for me?
You: Yes, Lord I remember that. I resolved that I shall live my life, not for the applause of the world, but to please you.
Lord: Over the years, you have forgotten that my child. Your world became crowded with people and expectations. You were trying to please everyone and your life became an unending perfomance to win the approval and applause of the world. You even forgot that I was around. Your eyes were so fixed on the world that you forgot to look up. I know how it feels when you are not seen or heard; I have often tried to catch your attention but you had not noticed.
You: I...I am sorry Lord. I have been living a distracted life. I have been so foolish.
Lord: Cheer up child! Today I am giving you a gift. You don't need to perform for anyone else. I want you to discover the joy of living just for me. I am your audience of one for today. You are free from any feedback except from me. I want you to know how much you are worth to me, and how much I love your child. Come enjoy this day in my presence!
We live in a crowded world. And we often wear different roles, different masks to please the many people who relate with us. As Shakespeare wrote, "All the world's a stage..." -- it often feels like that, does it not? You end up performing most of your life. You try to look good so that you can please the crowd. Winning people's approval and applause on whatever size of stage becomes the key strategy of life. In the process you lost yourself. Your inner life remains unattended to. Somewhere you sense your emptiness and bankruptcy.
It is little wonder then that Paul, when assessing his life and ministry, wrote "I care veyr little if I am judged by you or by human court; indeed I do not even judge myself. My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me." (1 Cor. 4:3-4). These are not words of self-defiant or self-indulgent individualism. Rather, they reflect audience and highest court in our lives. Ultimately, it is God's social approval or self-approval. It is only a person who lives this way who would be true to self and act compassionately in society.
The trouble is, many Christians spend much of their energies trying to please themselves or others more than trying to please God. Whatever others say becomes more important than what God whispers in their hearts. They waste away in front of an audience that is often demanding, unforgiving, and uncaring. What a great different there is when we discover the audience of one - that the God who made us and loves us is watching us.
To live in front of this divine audience of one means that we need to keep our eyes on God. The writer to the Hebrews urges us to run the race with perseverance by fixing our eyes on Jesus (Heb. 12:1-2). That is how one is to live in the presence of the divine audience. I suppose it is like when a runner in a race notices only his father in the cheering crowd. He keeps his eyes on his father's smiling face and lets his legs and arms spell out the message, "This one's for you dad!" Or when a child performing in a kindergarten song item fixes her childlike gaze on her mother's face which is filled with teary pride. That is all that matters to that little girl.
Oh to learn to live this way! How much it would please our Father in heaven if we each lived our lives for Him, if our lives on earth sent a message to heaven -- "This one's for you Father."
But how do we keep living in the presence of the audience of one? It is meant to be a gift not just for a day. but for a whole lifetime. How do we keep our eyes on Jesus, with so many distractions around us? The secret is love. When you are so enthralled by Him, when you notice with awe His glory, when you see His love and goodness, it will no longer be a struggle. You would have found the joy and the freedom of life lived in front of the audience of one.
(Chapter 12, Pages 52-55, A Feast for the Soul - Growing in Holiness by Bishop Robert M Solomon) love  090607 |
