| | When it all started, you were what i wanted
And I, you
So perfect, too perfect
Like ice cream without all the fat and calories
With the good comes the bad
and sometimes the bad is worth it
I kept telling myself that surely this was it
But its not
When you don't get your way you pitch a fit like a child
Although you are a decade older than me, and call me the child
You yell and berate me, tell me how ungrateful and selfish
Foolish and unbelievable I am
There is no reasoning with you, regardless of who is right or wrong
But I think I love you so I stay
Because all after that, I can't believe anyone would have me.
You dont have to tear me apart and make me feel like I'm nothing in order for me to stay with you
You deserve amazing, and, most of the time, I feel like I am that person
I used to be so strong and sure, outgoing and fearless
And you loved it, love it
So why would you want to kill that part of me? Don't you love me?
You come back the next day after you have stomped off like a three year old
Apologizing, telling me you want to do better, and avoiding any sort of resolution in discussion
Just assuming since you are over it, I am too
But I'm not
I've told you I don't sleep or eat when things go wrong between us
but you don't seem to care
You turn off your phone, ignore me, do whatever pleases you at the time
Regardless of what I need, don't you love me?
I tell you the things I struggle with and you turn them around and use them against me
Or tell me I will just have to learn to deal with it on my own
Or that I weigh you down....
Am I not enough?
Of course not!
I will never be enough for you
Ever.
It is a realization that I have been slow grasping
Because when things are good, they are good
But of course never good enough....
You always want more and more and more....
And when I ask something of you, you can't find any middle ground
Thats why we don't work.
There is no compromise. Not that you should have to compromise on some things
But really. Its just not enough.
You are like a poison that I breathe in unconsciously
Sneaking up on me like a vampire
You make my heart pump faster
and then squeeze it as hard as you can until you break it....
I'll not put it in your hands again
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| | Posted 7/6/2008 3:05 PM - 9 views - 1 comments
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