Secrets and Lies¹

        “How do you hide the truth? Secrets, like sweat – get secreted.”

         “Lies are endless justifications about who, what, when, where, and why because it never existed  to begin with. Truth is infinitely easier to tell. Truth stands alone but a single lie needs an army of lies to defend itself.”

               

There is still the pain that comes from finally (finally!) knowing the truth. But I cannot cry anymore. Why should I cry for someone as foul as you?

               

            Sociopathy¹

            “Living in this century should expose us to the soulless. And yet far worse than someone without a soul is having one so foul.”

 

You knew that, deep inside, you have a dark and rotten soul. You were so insecure when we were together. It’s because you knew that you did not deserve even half of what we, all the women you caused such pain, could give.

                No Karma?¹

                “How easy it is for hypocrites to commit unspeakable crimes, apologize, pay lip service, seek redemption, and walk away as if nothing ever happened. Victims carry scars they cannot forget.”

 

The only mistake we women had made was falling for the illusion that you created and being blind to the truth even if your true foul colors were slowly being revealed. You’re not a typical playboy. You are an ego-seeking freak and a pathological liar! YOU MESSED WITH OUR HEADS. You made us fall for you with your innocent veneer and played us against each other with your lies. You told your ex –girlfriend that we already broke up last November 2007. You got back together with her but in front of me (in person!) I was still your girlfriend. You still said, “Baby, I love you.” to me. You still spent time with me. You kept on lying and this setup continued until we broke up for real last December 28, 2007.

 

After abusing her (financially – you pretended that you bought the digital camera that she actually gave you, emotionally, physically), you dumped the woman who is having your child. You want only her child???!!!

 

            “Anyone can be a dad. But it takes a man to be a father.”

 

You’re no man. You have the mind of an insolent little boy. You can’t be a good father. You’re a weakling!!!

 

You made a second Friendster profile and told her that I was able to access your old profile. You also lied that I was the one who uploaded our pictures there but all of that isn’t true. I only knew your e-mail address but not your password (and I never tried to figure it out) so I never tampered with your profile.

 

You made us hate each other when you actually hated us. But now, I have forgiven her. I can understand her situation. I don’t know if I’ll ever have forgiveness for you. We can never be friends. I cannot stand traitors.

 

You didn’t have the guts to abuse me because you were afraid of me. You’re such a coward. I am smaller than you and you are stronger. But if you struck me, you knew I would strike back and I could really hurt you. You knew that I trained in martial arts.

 

                Gossip¹

                “Reality is the moment unfolding and everything after that is merely a story of a story of a story. There is more  damage in a half-truth. Better to make an enemy of lies and prejudice, to shoot the message, not the messenger.”

 

Gossiper!!! You have so many secrets but I couldn’t entrust you with mine. Yes, you were not the first to get to me. I was molested by our neighbor when I was a child. But I’m not ashamed because that happened when I was still an innocent.

 

                Hypocrites!¹

                “This is hypocrisy: when we remember to point a finger but forget to look into a mirror.”

 

Oh, you think you’re Mr. Perfect!!! Well, I’ll give you a reality check:

1.        You’re not that good looking. You’re just tall, dark, and “ahem!”

2.        Yes, you have a job but it doesn’t pay much. And you have to distribute your meager funds between your girlfriends.

3.        You’re not that smart.

4.        YOU WEAR FALSE TEETH!!!

5.        YOU’RE NOT THAT BIG. (Come on! You know what I mean.)

 

Yes, I did say once that you were perfect. But, did you really know what I meant by that? The only thing that is perfect about you is your body that you use to conquer every woman that you desire! But after you’re through with us, you dispose of us as if we were trash.

 

My bad temper served me well in the end. My rage made me start seeing you for who you really are. You have no sense of respect or consideration whatsoever. There is an underlying misogyny in your character.

 

MISOGYNY – Look it up in the dictionary, will you? That isn’t too hard for you, is it?

 

                Truth and Rage¹

                “The truth is a very powerful tool; a weapon of unlimited force, speed and magnitude. All truth is power. Through it, I believe that God reveals Himself and puts every man and all things created in their proper place and time, whether it be revealed in currents swift and slow. All of life leads us to the truth and all truths lead us back to God just as all rivers flow into the sea.”

               

Do you remember this SMS message that I sent you?

                “Between love and truth, hold on to the truth because love cannot last without it. Anger, rage, desire, passion, and jealousy may disappear but the truth lasts for all time.”¹

It’s about true love. And you had the gall to ask me, “What is true love?” Why don’t you answer that, “Mr. Perfect”???!!!

 

          “True love does not encompass infidelity.”

 

            “Love is an emotion that is contra natura.”²

If by nature, by his own animalistic desires, a man cannot be faithful to one. It is embedded in his genes to spread his sperm. A man who can love truly is a man who can be faithful. Quit the cynicism! In real life, there are men like those. Of course, there are men who say that “Be a bitch in bed and we won’t stray.” Men really can’t live without women. But there are also men who are egomaniacs, JUST LIKE YOU, driven by the insatiable need to seduce, wound, and collect hearts and bodies.

 

You call that LOVE???!!! Your definition of love is so shallow. What you call love is actually just lust or shallow emotions of grandeur when you conquer us. But for as long as we leave even a little something for ourselves, we can set ourselves free from your grasp.

 

You have such an innocent face! But when I was crying in front of you, you suddenly smiled. At that moment, I knew that you were a wolf in sheep’s clothing – a demon.

 

Your nice but fake upper teeth have fangs similar to those of vampires. If we stick around for too long, we might have no blood left!!! It’s a good thing we were never meant to be. Since the last time we talked to each other, I felt as if a big thorn was pulled out of my heart. Let that playgirl have you!!! But, all those nice girls out there,

BE CAREFUL OF THIS GUY!!!

REY TELA

    And because plagiarism is a crime:

1.        1. Prose and Poetry by S. S. Raros. 2000-2007. Heartbeat City. ANT MPS

2.        2. Gabriel Garcia Marquez

 

Patriotism should come in the form of service to your own country. In whatever way that you can do as an individual, do it so that you may contribute to change for the good of your country. Also, be proud of where you are. True, there will always something negative in your place of citizenship, but that doesn't undermine the fact that, to a degree, it has done something for you too. It is where your home is, your culture, your society.
I consider myself patriotic. I am proud of being Filipino. We may be a third world country and our government is corrupt but, in the words of my father, "It's still alive and kicking." There is still hope for it. We have lots of resources. The Philippines is a megadiversity country. The treasure of our country is its people. There is no such thing as "Filipino time"! Just saying these things shows that I am proud of my country.
I wish that our current president, GMA, will not have her way and that we will have an election. I will not vote for her. What is it with power? I believe every human being is essentially good. But power has a tendency to corrupt even a politician who has started out with good intentions. My parent's generation saw what power did to President Marcos, who I actually consider to be one of our more competent presidents. No one should be allowed to stay in power for too long.
Our next president may be better or maybe worse. But change in our country does not depend on one person. I, for one, should change my study habits. What does that have to do with serving my country? I am a student of the University of the Philippines. It is one of the premier universities in the Philippines. It is subsidized by the state. The money that pays part of our tuition fees and provides us with facilities comes from the taxpayers of my country. I should be ashamed that I used to waste what was given by the state because of my failing grades.
According to Jose Rizal, our national hero, (translated into English), "The youth are the hope of the country." Hope starts with education

Actions are more powerful than words.
I learned that in my Speech Com class. Actions are more credible than words. There is what you call body language. Most of the time, the suppressed truth comes out because of actions not matching with words.
Actions may not only refer to gestures of the hands. They may also be the action of the eyes (making eye contact), use of time (late? slacking off? why kaya?), the manipulation of the voice by the diaphragm, larynx, tongue, teeth, and mouth, changing of distance (walking around, stepping in front). All of these reinforce words that may not be powerful enough by themselves.