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i found this online, tho i dun agree with all of it, i think its pretty hot

The Stages of CTY Withdraw

Stage One: Disorientation- The separation from CTY and friends throws you into a state of disorientation, still believing subconsciously and even consciously that you're not really gone, all your friends are just around the corner, and you can turn around to say goodbye one more time, even though it isn't true and they're all gone. This stage is almost never noticed until it is over.

Stage Two: Mental Review- The realization sets in that now you are really gone, and you begin reviewing the events of the past 24 hours in painstaking detail, especially up to the past few minutes. You begin thinking about what tiny thing you would have done differently. The mental photographs are still bright and clear. The review stage still has a touch of denial and unreality to it, an overhang from the disorientation stage.

Stage Three: Shock- The enormity of what has irrevocably happened strikes like lightning: you are gone. This is when the crying stage begins for most of us. This is when reality washes in like a blood tide and one can do nothing but watch helplessly. One begins seeing the same things over and over again, often going into reclusion or denial.

Stage Four: Treatment- This is a self-administered treatment. One begins attempting to deal with the shock by planning reunions, beginning letters to friends, and reestablishing the link of communication that made CTY so great. Usually, this assists into moving our brains into a peaceful neutrality. This stage can also involve recounting everything you did at CTY to all your local friends and letting everything you see or hear remind you of someone or something at CTY. This stage causes many of your friends to become greatly exasperated and a few my resort to violence. They will probably vow to never attend CTY.

Stage Five: Aftershock. The aftershock, an inevitable recurrence of stage three, washes away the hope one begins to feel when thinking about reestablishing communications. Aftershock often occurs in hours, sometimes days, after CTY or a reunion ends. The aftershocks fade after a while, but can be brought on by meeting a CTYer or by hearing a CTY song, a photo, anything, and often more violently than ever.

Stage Six: Moving On- CTY will never lose its importance, but after time, there is the realization that the CTY part of life is over, and though it is remembered with fondness, the memories do not cause the pain of loss. This stage is characterized by forming friendships with people you met at CTY that are not based on CTY, forming friendships with other people that are not based on CTY, listening to your cty tape because you like the music on it, and using that nifty glass you stole from the cafeteria to store your twig collection. Also known as the "Return as an RA Stage."