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Tuesday, June 10, 2003

Tue, 10 Jun 2003 13:10:29 GMT

alright...im finally back and im pretty much over with jetlag which is good because i was so sick of going to bed at 5 pm and waking up at 5 am, i had nothing to do so early in the morning and so early in the evening. i spent the whole day pampering myself, it was a lot of fun, saw bruce almighty yesterday, its kinda stupid. i got a new purse today! its so pretty! i really want to wear its raining so much i dont want it to get dirty. hong kong needs to stop raining, its really annoying. but whatever, coz im never happy with anything. its kinda weird, i miss ck...even gabi was like "what the hell clara", i dont know i think i just want to see someone, haha its weird...i want a perm, im gonna get one, i just want waves...haha, whatever im so bored, i have nothing to say. bye.

Monday, June 02, 2003

Mon, 02 Jun 2003 15:06:39 GMT

TOMORROW IS PROM!!!!!!!!! i'm so excited, and i'm so ready, but i'm so broke, i've spent 700 dollars on prom stuff but i have no idea what i got...but anyway, so i was talking to rencher (college counsellor) and my first choice college, is UNIVERSITY OF HAWAI'I, omg i'm so damn excited, i really really really really really want to go there, it's gonna be so tight...ok so just one more final tomorrow, math, i hope i do well, i need atleast like a B coz i'm doing really bad in the class, but i'm SOOOO excited for prom and hawai'i, i really want to go there...

Friday, May 16, 2003

Fri, 16 May 2003 12:29:05 GMT

alright...in the library doing hw again...i have 2nd-5th off today, which means i had 9:00 till 12:35 free, but i couldn't go to sleep because i have to meet up with all my teachers to catch up with all the work that i've missed...i had a nervous break down yesterday, i was so embarassed, i broke out crying in the commons infront of everybody, it wasn't even a big deal, it's called "chronic stress" where you get really really really really really really stress and then you just fall apart, and i fell apart yesterday...i mean its no big deal, try not having had more than 5 hours of straight sleep everyday for a month, and then stayed up till 6 in the morning to write a paper and that following week was 4-6 lacrosse, 7-9 dance rehearsal/performance, and your teachers aren't giving you extensions because they said you haven't been focusing in class and you've been falling asleep...um i don't understand how i can stay up in class if i have all this shit to deal with and not having enough sleep, class time is actually the most unstressed and peaceful period of the day...and i was really mad coz on tuesday night my room mate and her boyfriend broke up i was SOOOOOOOOO happy, even Shana was like, "congratulations clara!" but wednesday night they got back together, so sad and i didn't get any sleep that night (surprise!) and yesterday was HELL, i had a headache from 8 in the morning until after the concert, which was 11 at night...great times great times, i was so tired when i was critiqing my dance (the one i got honorable mention in this choreography competition) i spaced out, i was like sorry guys can you do it again? but anyway, i have to finish my hw...only 10 more minutes to class....tata~

Tuesday, May 13, 2003

Tue, 13 May 2003 12:00:34 GMT

u like this? my mom sent it to me...i thought it was kinda funny...hahaha

yea hahaha that all i have to say today

Saturday, May 10, 2003

Sat, 10 May 2003 20:02:52 GMT

ok im a loser, im about to go see X2 again, haha but it was a good movie! im gonna go with dave, tash, aaron, shana, and anna...anyway, i went to the library at 1 oclock this morning, and i was researching for my psych paper until 5 oclock, ITS DUE ON MONDAY!!! i hope i atleast get all the research part of the paper written up tonight, then i'll do the case studies tomorrow, this is so stressful, i learned today that kids shouldn't be stressed, orelse they'll become pedophiles, hahaha so i shouldn't write my paper, anyway, im so happy that my room mate and her boyfriend aren't here, so i don't have to look at that nasty shit, u know james said that my room mate is a bitch, and my room mate's boyfriend is a son of a bitch, and he was like "isn't that incest?" and i was laughing so hard, omg she woke me up at 9 this morning, im so fucking sick of her shit im going to have her gang raped so she can be quiet in her sleep, i went out to sleep in the hall this morning and she got even louder and louder so i still heard her when i was outside, and she acts like nothing happened...so when i tell her to "please be quiet" she laughs and takes it as a joke and starts laughing again, im like...u BITCH...and paul and i aren't friends anymore, i found out earlier that he started smoking and i've just lost all respect for him because he was always the big brother who told me not to do this and not to do that and now he's doing it himself, what a fucking hypocrite, then today my msn sn was "i will have her gang raped" and he msgs me and go "what the hell is wrong with u?" and got all pissed off at me and started ordering me to change my sn and said i was crazy, u know when somebody's sn is "i will have her gang raped" u're suppose to say "what happened? whats wrong?" not "what the hell is wrong with you" that is so rude, so many ppl in michigan annoy me, i need to stay away from these ppl...aight i need to go get ready for the movie now ~tata

Friday, May 09, 2003

Fri, 09 May 2003 13:21:22 GMT

Quote & Unquote:

The very first SARS case was in Cherry Hill, New Jersey back in 10th
Feburary 2002 (see attached CNN's URL) and now US is very reluctant to
release such information to the WHO . It seems that there might be some truth in the 'US conspiracy' theory.

Pls use your own judgement on the info.

http://www.cnn.com/2002/US/02/10/hotel.quarantine/

AMERICA IS RETARDED!!! i got this from my mom, i'm so happy if they can prove it that SARS is from the states, omg AMERICA IS GOING DOWN!!! omg this is great, i'm like happy...hahah whatever, aight i'm going to shove my lacrosse stick up my room mate's ass, even my mom told me to punch her in the face, she was crying the WHOLE NIGHT i don't know over what tho, i fell asleep at like...3...but when she was crying, i heard sa rang hae (i love you in korean) every 5 seconds, it was so annoying, it made me sick, i'm not even exaggerating, its so disgusting, they are just straight up nasty. i got a 50% on the "how hong kong are you?" quiz, haha i thought i was gonan get atleast an 80%, but whatever, ok i have to go now coz i have class and i have to go plan on my room mate's murder, tata~

Monday, May 05, 2003

Mon, 05 May 2003 21:17:30 GMT

so i'm in the library writing my psych paper, i was so pissed at my room mate this weekend and i fogot to talk about my weekend, haha ok let see...

friday - lax practise after school, then went to see body blow (only coz i saw dave in the lounge during intermission and he made me go), then went to becca's surprise party with courtney even tho we got there after the surprise and there was no food left and everyone was just cleaning up, and ghassan was supposed to pick me up after that so we can go smoke but he forgot coz he was too high to remember anything

saturday - went to see X2 with colleen and tash, had some cosi shanghai chicken salad (so good), went to film fewt with them and shana, then i just went back to the dorms

sunday - went to body blow with karen, colleen, shana and anna and a bunch of other ppl i don't remember, then went to spirit rehearsal, and then there was RA night and yea i didn't get RA but that's ok coz now i don't have to go around telling people "how much i love cranbrook"

so that sums up my great weekend at Cranbrook Kingswood Upper School in Michigan, so i found out that Cranbrook, Choate, Exeter are top 3 for the number of AP scholars, i was liek "whoa", didn't know that Cranbrook was inline with Choate and Exeter, i always thought it was just some piece of shit in Michigan...we had 2 tornado drills in an hour, actually they were real tornados, it was raining and thunderstorming and hailing all at the same time with the sun out at around 8 oclock at night, see how much great things Michigan offers us? I LOVE MICHIGAN, yea kiss my ass...and i was pissed this morning, coz i have 1st hour (dance) on the other campus for the next 2 weeks because we have our dance concert in 2 weeks and we have to practise on stage, which means i have to get up extra early jsut to go to class, and i got up even earlier than i need to coz i wanted to look good in school today, got up to shave my legs and all that crap u know, and then after 2nd hour it started raining and liek snowing i don't know what it was but it was fucking freezing, so i had to go change, got up early for nothing, anyway, i should go back to writing my 14 page psych paper thats due next monday!!!!! i'm writing on pedophiles, isn't that sexy? heheheheheh...tata~

Sunday, May 04, 2003

Sun, 04 May 2003 12:49:02 GMT

seriously i'm not sure...but i'm sure that her family IS kinda extraordinary.-_-..

Posted 5/4/2003 at 1:34 pm by lolori - delete - block user

Sunday, May 04, 2003

Sun, 04 May 2003 12:32:28 GMT

haha gloria hates her too! this is her post about my room mate:

omg... what is wrong with her?! crazy?! morally deformed!? what makes her feel so proud of herself? BOYFRIEND?! I do everything she wants me to do, and she tells me NOT to do the same stuff to her. I NEVER asked her to do that sort of stuff for me! Getting someone into trouble?! NO, at least i don't remember getting HER into ANY trouble. Who is wrong? Why does she want to and HAVE to give me (and other people) a little bit of headache each day?! Am I being too sensitive over her? She told me like this past Monday?! not even a week ago..that she would "try her best and put effort into changing herself.." she wanted me to "watch her and appreciate her efforts". Guess what. I guess i made a mistake for actually "counting on her". Seems like "I" was the only one trying and making efforts to have some kind of "normal" relationship with her like all the other "normal" friends. Hey girl, i think you should first change your tone of your voice. I DON'T LIKE IT. DON'T TREAT ME LIKE I'M YOUR SERVANT OR SLAVE. i am NOT.

Sunday, May 04, 2003

Sun, 04 May 2003 12:21:40 GMT

i hate my room mate so much, she woke me up at 9:00 this morning, what the hell, does she ALWAYS have to talk on the phone with her ugly ass boyfriend? and she gets pissed at me when i sneeze when she's sleeping, ok so i can't sneeze when u sleep but u can scream on the top of your lungs when i'm trying to sleep, what a selfish little bitch

KAREN KYOUNG WON YOON, i hate ever part of you, i hate your slanty eyes, your high pitched voice, your dumb ass brain, and your stinky ass
who do you think you are, to call me ugly, when u have the ugliest slanty eyes, biggest dog looking nose, u're so fat your body is in the shape of a cylinder, your skin is so dry u're probably the only asian that ashes. i respect you so much when you sleep, i don't even sneeze, i hold it in for the next morning, who do you think you are to disrespect like that? i was sick last night, and u JUST HAD to keep me up the whole night screaming and yelling like a crazy horse running around w/out a head. I HATE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, I HOPE YOU BURN IN HELL AND IF YOU DIE, I WILL BE THE FIRST ONE TO THROW YOU A FAREWELL PARTY

u little bitch, u think i really like you? then u're an idiot because i hate you with every part of me. stop thinking that i'm jealous of you coz you have a boyfriend and i don't, there's nothing to be proud of when your man is some cranbrook korean boy that looks like he has down syndrome and has a little dick. u're on my list of "ppl i want to kill", along with shitface and his bitch, ppl say "hate" is a very strong word, but i don't think its strong enough to describe my hatred for you

those were two away msgs i had on my AIM, yea thats how much i hate her, i'm posting these two away msgs so even the people who don't have AIM know how much i hate her, she's ok as a friend, i liked her last year when she was just "my friend" and not my bitchy room mate, but i jsut found out that shes been talking shit behind my back since freshmen year when i didn't even know she existed, y the fuck is she such a bitch and y is she so selfish? it's like, who raised her? but i also heard that her sister is the BIGGEST outcast at U of M, liek she has NO friends except for this really ugly boy and they're like fuck buddies or something, and they told me that her mom is a big outcast and bitch at the hospital that she works at, i guess bitchiness runs in the family

yup thats her, that was when i still liked her, she's lucky that i'm her room mate, because if it was somebody else, they would've punched her in the face already, val and norman hate her for me, they're like "clara just punch her in the face and throw something at her", its funny coz val really really hates her, he heard her voice over the phone and he was like "SHUT THE FUCK UP KOREAN BITCH" and she heard, but she thought he was kidding so she started screaming even louder and val got really mad, he was liek, "clara give me the phone, i need to talk to your room mate for a sec" but ofcourse i didn't let him, coz i'm too nice...yea so i'm too pissed to talk about her anymore, so i'm out