because im sick of it. im freaking, facking, sick of it.

sorry. but i am.

thanks for everything prillz. i never knew what it felt like to even share it.

i hope i had the right to.

i thought i stepped away from it

accepted it

away from it

accepted it

jia lin, you accepted it. come on, you did and you will do. ok?

its funny when i talk about things in theory. because when things come to the very, very crunch... i lose myself as hurt touches me at the most painful spot.

i think i still see you as a normal girl. and maybe it was just my fears arising, that's all. i wish someone could comfort me now. and you definitely, can't. anymore.

it's true. it's true. accept it, and go on. go on jia lin, please just go on.

Oh my goodness I feel so bad. Ok i'm going to pray.

Enough is enough.

Like as to thirst, it cracks your heart Sahara style.

so I've gone and done it again. To live love, enjoy love, but mostly give love;

wishes

it sucks even more that I always think it can come true. carry happiness in my heart

and my frolick around in my wildest of thoughts

i, frolick around.

then someone, some people, some things, ALWAYS, THEY ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS

have to come along and destroy them make them inanimate make them impossible

They make you unmake me.

I crawl back into hermit shell 2, just like how I always will.

Stop paying attention jia lin, just give, it, up.

I only wait, and let dew ensconce and hang in,

air

full moons grin, awake, asleep

start up and scream when the thunders clap

It drowns you when the earth; falls silent.

This moment only occurs in my dreams. Or at least, moments when I'm not stuck in a spinning rut. Right round baby, right round.