Good morning ladies. Sorry for the lack of posting the last couple weeks, all last week my computer service was not working. My roomate tried to pay our bill online, but never had done that before, and she didn't set anything up so it wasn't accepted.....SO she had to write a check but they would not turn on our service till that payment posted. Blah. I have been working a lot lately. I've also been helping out that rich lady that wanted me to work full time. I work for her on the Saturday, Sunday and Monday...all my days off. It is an extra 300 dollars a week though. So that makes me very happy. Its amazing how much she pays me to really not doing much for her. Oh well, I use that money for shopping and storing some away too. I still work my one day a week 4 hour shift at Banana too.
Weight wise, I have remained the same. I haven't stepped on the scale but maybe gained a lb or two. My workouts slacked some because I've been busy and when my alarm went off I couldn't get myself out of bed. I did get up and to the gym by 5 this morning. So I feel good. I have to keep up with my routine. I feel terrible and gross, but yet when I feel that way can I get myself to the gym? Argh.
So I'm back and all of you always give me amazing support this week is a new week. Now I must comment.
So I thought I'd post a pic of me, so everyone can see my large and in charge self....I am not going to leave these up long. I just feel weird about having a pic of me floating around, when maybe some of my real close friends could find them. I know stupid, but it def. could happen. I will get some full body type shots up sometime when I am not so ashamed of my body. This was taken at the big grey goose party a couple weekends ago. That is J my best boy in the pic hes beautiful. But I thought everyone could see how I looked in my face. I am told I look like a lot of different asian girls, even though I don't think I look like many I see. I ALWAYS seem to get...."OMG you look like my one friend, its crazy you could be twins!! Even though I've never seen anyone that looks like me...but perhaps all of us asians look the same....but not....because I'm huge. And most asian girls are tiny things. I use to be....*sigh*. I have pretty defined cheekbones, and when I get thin I love that the rest of my face hollows out some. I know I am definitely not unfortunate looking. I am so swamped the rest of this week, weigh in will be on Saturday. I just thought I'd share something to everyone who reads this! How could I let myself get this way. Can you imagine this face 70 lbs lighter?!? Well it use to be.......and it will be again!!! Love you all.
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I took down the pic, if anyone did not see it, feel free to leave me a comment and i can email you. I do plan on posting more pics in a couple weeks!!
Good morning ladies. I have a lovely day off today! Yay! I did wake up at 4:30am to get to the gym to spin. The class starts at 5:30 but you have to get there early because the instructor rocks and it fills up so quickly. I slept like shit though last night, I didn't get to bed till 1:30am, so only 3 hours, I sense a nice mid afternoon nap later.
This weekend I was back on track, Saturday I had under 400 cals for the day and did 2 hours of cardio and weight training. Sunday, I got 1 1/2 in of cardio. I went to a few Superbowl parties and did snack and drink, however I tend to usually get sick after I drink---I get the asian red and sick. So I did puke, which I believe good for me in the long run. Not purposely, but hey it works for me. Yesterday, I got only one workout in, 50 min of cardio and I rowed for 20 min. So not bad, intake was higher around 800.
After my workout I had 1 apple (80), big cup of coffee with splenda 1/2 cup of skim (45), I'm planning on a late lunch around 3:30 which is going to be a swordfish filet which I am going to season with lemon pepper, garlic and grill it with lemon slices (170) over a cup of cooked spinach (60) and a sf Jello (10)=275cals. so not too shabby. Around 6:30 I told my roomate I would head to the gym with her. I plan on getting only 40 min or so of cardio but focus on weight training tonight.
Oh and I love my coffee maker. Its a Toddy maker, and its a cold brew system. Its soooo nice and convenient for me and my busy schedule.There is 65% percent less acid per cup, so not as bad on my stomach. Basically, you get whatever flavor beans you want (I have vanilla almond right now), and it makes a concentrate. It keeps in your fridge 4 weeks without going stale, plus can go longer. Its perfect because I love to make iced coffee, so I add some water, and milk good to go. Or if I just want one cup...since my roomie doesn't drink coffee I add hot water to the concentrate. It is a great cup of coffee, and has gotten rave reviews from Time Magazine, The washington Post..etc. etc.
176.5--ARGH I've been working my ass off, and I gained 2 lbs since my last weigh in. I guess the mindless snacking last weekend and this week really helped me! Yay! I'm over it now, I can only look ahead. Today I worked my ass off in the gym. Woke up at 4:30am went to an hour spin class, after that got on the Arc Trainer for 30 minutes. Tonight I plan on going back for another 45 min of cardio, plus lifting tonight. I can turn this around ladies, I will. It could have been a lot worse. I am also going over to J's house tonight and lay in his tanner and sit in his sauna for 30 min get some toxins out, so that should make me feel better. It is nice my best friend has two things I enjoy for free at his house. Speaking of J we didn't do pizza last night, we just watched a movie.
Intake today: Organic mediterranean herb/garlic ravioli (170) 1/2c organic pasta sauce (50) and 1SF jello (10)=230 cals. The rest of the day lots of water, a diet coke or tea. I am not sure about dinner, but it will be no more than 200 cals if I choose to eat tonight.
It just frustrates me, not that I want to be as sick as I use to be. I just don't understand the self control I had when I was younger. When I break down and just binge, it isn't even that I'm hungry,but once I start snacking I become ravenous. And then I am like screw it, and keep eating. When I was diagnosed I was binging and purging 6-10 times a day, then I stopped and basically stopped eating because physically I couldn't take being mia anymore. I still have those tendencies, but its a lot harder for me now to make myself throw up and feel like I really was successful doing so. I hate it so much.
Anyways, I know its a process, and I have to be patient. I'd rather have steady a few lbs a week, then a couple lbs a day...knowing its more than just water weight. I just need to stay positive! All you really help and keep me looking ahead and forward. I love you all who comment regularly and let me in on their lives and weight loss struggles.
So that makes me very happy. Its amazing how much she pays me to really not doing much for her. Oh well, I use that money for shopping and storing some away too. I still work my one day a week 4 hour shift at Banana too. 
I've been working my ass off, and I gained 2 lbs since my last weigh in. I guess the mindless snacking last weekend and this week really helped me! Yay! I'm over it now, I can only look ahead. Today I worked my ass off in the gym. Woke up at 4:30am went to an hour spin class, after that got on the Arc Trainer for 30 minutes. Tonight I plan on going back for another 45 min of cardio, plus lifting tonight. I can turn this around ladies, I will. It could have been a lot worse. I am also going over to J's house tonight and lay in his tanner and sit in his sauna for 30 min get some toxins out, so that should make me feel better. It is nice my best friend has two things I enjoy for free at his house. 